Sasha's Love

"What a mess, Xiangxiang, I think you are pregnant and gave all your nutrition to him, so you are stupid, right?"

"No, haha. Xiaoyu, let me tell you in modern terms, the superstring theory of love: your destined man will be pulled by a string invisibly, and you can sense each other, but men have been exposed to social interactions for thousands of years since entering the patriarchal society. They think too much and are no longer sensitive in this regard; on the contrary, we women, you see, which of the women in ancient times was not raised in the courtyard of the family, and could not go out, it would be strange if their thoughts were not developed! That's why women were not allowed to study in ancient times, saying something like "women without talent are virtuous". That's because men are conservative and worried that women will fly away when their wings are hard!"

"Then what?"

I looked at her with interest, just as a prop for her. Girls who have been pregnant are the most boring, and they can't do many things they like. I have to do my best to accompany her!

"Then there is the string! You and him are connected by this string invisibly. It's like a snake placed on a green curtain, with the snake body painted green, leaving only the head and tail. At first glance, the head and tail are separated, but in fact, there is a bond between them, and the head and tail echo each other. At that time, I felt his feelings and knew his emotions in the dark."

"Go and fall in love!"

I laughed and said, "Stop singing sour words, I think you deserve a beating!"

After that, I gently wiped her face.

"Hehe, I deserve a beating!"

Xiangxiang smiled secretly, and then stuck out her tongue at me.

"Oh! Shame on you! You're pregnant and still talking so freely. Be careful not to spoil your baby through prenatal education!"

"Xiaoyu, do you know?"

Xiangxiang beckoned me to come closer and said, "When two destined people are together, he enters your body to make love and ejaculates. This moment is the most wonderful! You have to close your eyes and savor it carefully. When his glans opens, his whole heart will open to you. There is no gap between you. The opposite sex separated for a long time finally comes together at this moment. How exciting!"

"A kitten in heat!"

Xiangxiang ignored my teasing and suddenly asked, "Do you love him?"

"Ah? Who?"

I was so shocked that I didn't react.

"Huh? You mean there are several 'him's'? Our Xiao Xiaoyu is not honest!"

"Oh! How could I! You are the one who always randomly matches people up, making people panic. You have to ask clearly before you dare to answer!"

"Okay! Yu Ran, do you love him?"

"Well... I think it should be love!"

"What do you mean by love? Then tell me, do you want to marry him?"

"I, do..."

"Haha, don't hesitate. I have known some of your love stories over the years. In fact, you should have discovered that you only thought of him when your emotions fluctuated greatly in the past, but now you can't forget him even in your ordinary life. Don't you understand this?"

"What do you understand?"

I seemed to realize it, but I still looked at her with a confused face, waiting for the next words.

"The change from liking to loving... you fell in love with him, and deeply, deeply..."

After Xiangxiang finished speaking, she stood up and went upstairs to rest. It was time for her to take a nap. I shook my head, but couldn't shake off the words lingering in my ears. I said hello to Su Qiang and went out for a walk to get some fresh air.

Lijiang is a tourist city. There is no distinction between off-season and peak season here. The city is full of tourists every day of the year.

Sitting in the coffee shop on Foreigner Street, the dim lights revealed a strong foreign flavor. Foreigners like to be straightforward, but they also use ambiguity to embellish their lives from time to time.

Unfortunately, I was trapped in the store. The rain fell from 6pm to 9pm before it slowly subsided. The drizzle was drizzling, and outside the floor-to-ceiling windows was a neon-lit alley. The water vapor made everything dreamy and trance-like, bright and blurred.

I was hesitating whether I should run back quickly in my thin clothes or wait a little longer.

Suddenly, a familiar figure passed by in front of me, with a slender waist and jade-like shoulders. It was Shasha. She seemed to be a little panicked. Her clothes were already wet. She walked in the water with one foot deep and one foot shallow. She was carrying a backpack and didn't know where she was going!

It was so late and it was raining outside. Everyone must be watching TV in the inn. Why did she run out alone with a big bag on her back?

I didn't care about the cold rain outside. I quickly caught up with Shasha, grabbed her and shouted: "Shasha, what are you doing? You are so wet. Come back with me. You will catch a cold!"

"No! I won't go back!"

Shasha turned around, her eyes were red and she was still crying, which made me confused. Before I could react, she continued: "Let's go! You go, Xiaoyu! Don't worry about me..."

After that, she staggered forward.

I stepped in front of her and asked sternly: "Shasha, what's wrong with you? Did someone bully you? Why do you suddenly want to leave?"

Shasha held it in for a long time, as if she had made a decision, and gritted her teeth and said: "Xiaoyu, do you know? In fact, Zhang Han has always been thinking about you. Instead of me and him living in such a superficial relationship, it is better to leave as soon as possible so that you can be together. Then you will be satisfied, right?"

"Ah?"

I was also surprised, "How could it be? Zhang Han is not this Have I lived with you all these years?"

"Yes?"

Sasha's mouth showed a trace of bitterness, "Yes, we worked hard together in society, and our monthly salary was more or less. We could only survive by scraping together and helping each other... We rented the same room, slept in the same bed, ate and dressed with the same money, and we lived like a couple. For a moment, I thought the world had become beautiful, and my happiness was at hand..."

I looked at her timidly and said nothing.

"But, one night when he went out and got drunk, I was waiting for him at home. When he came back, he was sober and went to brush his teeth and take a shower, and changed into pajamas before going to bed. When I was about to comfort him and let him have a good sleep, he suddenly pressed me on the bed and pressed my body hard. This was not like him at all! It hurt so much, he never did this to me..."

Me: "..."

"I thought he was drunk, or he had something upset outside and needed to vent, so I closed my eyes and let him do it."

Sasha said, looking at me with resentment, which made me a little dazed, as if I had hurt her.

"Oh..."

I barely squeezed out a single sound, and at this time I couldn't say any words of comfort.

Sasha was silent for a while, and then said: "He called your name at the last moment."

My heart was stunned! "This... this is impossible! At that time, Zhang Han and I had not been in contact for several years! Shasha, I believe you did not hear wrongly, but this may really be his nonsense after drinking, just yelling randomly..."

I was a little lacking in confidence at the end. Such a lame excuse is not even useful for comforting children nowadays.

"You are his first love, Xiaoyu! You should know how important you are in his heart..."

Sasha felt very uncomfortable when she said this, and her voice was very difficult. As soon as she closed her eyes, tears flowed down her cheeks.

I frowned, took a deep breath, held Shasha's shoulders and said to her seriously: "Shasha, the past is in the past, let's not talk about it. Now we are good friends, we have come so far together, you and I are no longer the reckless and ignorant children we were back then, Zhang Han should be more responsible as a man!

"Now we should have a clear understanding of the relationship between first love and lover. Life is like this. We have to give up some of our own things or put them away. Maybe this is a very beautiful memory, but it is no longer everything now. I will talk to Zhang Han about this. !"

"Well, Xiaoyu..."

Sasha calmed down a bit, "I understand what you said. But, but Zhang Han, one of us three needs to withdraw... You two have been destined for a long time, you can be happy, I'd better leave quietly. Xiaoyu, just... don't stop me!"

"Sasha! Where are you going? This is your home! In fact, in my opinion, it's best for you and Zhang Han to be together, because... because my heart has been filled with someone..."

"Xiaoyu?"

Sasha looked at me blankly, as if she had just met me.

I went up to her and hugged her body, which was shaking from the cold and emotional excitement, and said, "Sasha, you silly girl, it turns out that you have always thought so! It's really hard for you to endure "us" like this! Haha, silly sister! You are not like your old style at all! Don't you love Zhang Han? I wish you all the best!"

"Xiaoyu..."

Sasha paused for a moment and frowned, "This will make me feel very sorry! You must have said this to comfort me, right... I don't want this, Xiaoyu... You can be with him, isn't he the one you are waiting for?"

Sasha said, and her tears dripped down my shoulder again, hot and with a hint of fragrance.

"Shasha, listen to me, believe me, I sincerely wish you and Zhang Han the best! Haven't I been alone all these years? I have been waiting for someone, but he is not Zhang Han next to me... Speaking of which, I was still so happy when I saw him last time, but I left him in a hurry and never heard from him again... I really miss him, and I won't give up until I can wait for him!"

"Xiaoyu... Do you really want to do such an uncertain thing? You know, if a Xiaoyu plant has passed its brilliant season, it will... soon!"

I shook my head: "I don't regret it. Although the flowers have withered, the seeds of love have been planted. When the day comes when they sprout and break through the soil, new flowers will bloom again..."

Shasha looked at me in a daze, and this time it was her turn to not know what to say.

I reached out and rubbed Sasha's hair, wiped the tears from her cheeks, and said, "You should get married peacefully! Otherwise, I don't know when he will come back, and I will marry him and have children before you! Now you are my sister, but when the time comes, your little baby will have to call ours brother or sister!"

After saying that, I winked at her mischievously, and then hugged her tightly, warming her soft body like cool jade. Gradually, Sasha's body stopped shaking, and her tears gradually stopped.

It seemed like a whisper, and I seemed to hear her say softly: "Xiaoyu, thank you..."