chapter 25 Assassination and river

"How long was I out Apael?" Rubbing my temples to relax my headache. I looked around our room noticing my bloody clothes off to the side. Looking down I realized the only thing covering me was bandages from my chest down to my stomach. Letting out a groan I tried to sit up slowly.

Apael helped me to sit up before looking over my body to check on how I was going. "It has only been a day. Try not to move around so much your body is still recovering. Potions could only do so much."

"Apael, I need to go out for a bit alone. I just need some time to think okay?" I stood up gently putting on a pair of pants and a robe so it would not press on my wounds. I wanted to kiss her and hold her close but with the memories returning I did not know what to feel. If she was the girl from my memory I would be happy. If she wasn't, I would feel guilty for betraying the one I used to love.

After I got dressed I could see that she looked down. I know it must have hurt her to see me being distant and not even offering her a kiss before leaving. Leaving my house at the academy I started to make my way down toward the river of reincarnation. It was where I felt most at ease since I came here.

[Mommy don't be sad. We are here for you and always are close to you.]

I could not help but smile and feel warm in my heart. Even though I am young having my daughter from my past life with me made me feel at ease. It felt as if I could take on the world by myself to hear her voice. As I got to the river I sat on the shore from what I was told anyone who fell in would be devoured and either turned into a floating soul or eaten.

Looking down I saw 3 children looking at me smiling again. My heart ached seeing them and all I wanted was to go in and comfort them. But I hesitated since I did not want to die in the river. There was so much for me to do.

[Is mommy not going in to play with them like she used to? You know that my siblings won't hurt us. They understand what happened. Look they even have so many souls to help build you an army!]

"I guess you are right. It just feels like I abandoned them for so long. Am I worthy enough to be here now?" Letting out a sigh I slowly walked into the river the 3 children pulling me in and holding me close. I thought it would get hard to breathe but it seemed as if an air pocket appeared right in front of my nose to make sure I could be comfortable.

Their little hands moved over my wounds making me feel itchy. The pain from my wounds slowly started to fade, and they kept bringing me deeper and deeper into the river. I guess I wanted to ask the question that has been plaguing my heart the most. "Where is your mother's soul? Was she not supposed to be here with you 3?"

They looked guilty before the smallest little girl touched my forehead speaking directly into my mind. "We would eat souls and Mother said she wanted to go be with Mommy since she knew you easily get complacent so we would spend some energy to send her to you every time you died… We're okay being alone as long as our mommies don't forget us and come back."

I felt choked up hearing their words. Does that mean Becky was also her as well? Were they trying to bring me back to this world? What about that old man who said he created me? Things were not adding up. Especially if this is supposedly my third life. Once I get stronger, I will definitely unseal my memories to find out what the truth is.

It felt like I was with these 3 for hours. As I reached the deepest part of the river they brought me 2 daggers. The killing intent from them was intense. They were bone white just like the ribs I ripped out from my memory. The only difference was that they were more refined as if they were tempered by many battles. As I touched them, they were absorbed into my body replacing my lower ribs.

It felt as if I could summon them with a thought if I needed them. "I need to get back before Apael gets worried about me. Well more worried than she probably already was." With that, the souls helped me swim back to where I was. It felt terrible not knowing their names but once I unlocked more memories, I knew that it would come back to me.

Once I got back to land, I saw Apael looking pale looking at the river panicking. The other 6 sins were there too looking like they were preparing a special device to dive into the river. "What are you guys doing with that thing?"

Apael ran towards me before a loud crisp slap landed on my face. "I watched you jump into the river! What if something bad happened to you? What would I do without you? I told the others and we prepared this to dive in to see if we could get your soul before it was washed away."

Feeling the stinging pain on my cheek I felt a bit guilty. But I could not just explain the memories that resurfaced in my head and the system. Letting out a sigh I kissed Apael gently. "I am sorry. I just needed some answers and I should have told you. But look I am okay. Nothing happened to me." Looking towards Oria I needed to ask "Oria how many people placed ahead of me?"

She looked at me with a knowing smile." Well if 2 students happen to pass away we would have no choice but to let you get into the second year. But even the weakest ones that live in the outer sector are still recovering from their injuries. They won their match but are in no condition to fight. But they will be fine but the start of next year."

Smiling I nodded my head. "Apael, I need to go to the outer sector for a walk. Would you like to go out with me?"

Seeing her nod and smile knowing exactly what we needed to do. We made our way towards the outer sector to remove the obstacles preventing me from going to my second year. "You know birdie you should not have ignored the other 5. They looked like they were sulking as we left.'

Stumbling over my feet a little I rubbed the back of my head. "I guess I got a little too excited wanting to spend some more time alone with you." I grabbed her hand and we approached the building where the two demons were in recovering. I nodded my head and went into one while Apael went into the other.

I approached my target summoning my dagger. Putting my hand over his mouth, I started to stab his chest repeatedly. The blade pierced his body like butter I let out a giggle as his eyes bolted open. He tried to resist but with his injuries, he was too weak. Once he stopped struggling I left the building.

[ Ding mommy still has it quest complete! Lexi will give you a key to the chaos realm!]

Chaos realm? I pondered over the name. It was what my affinity was so it should be very beneficial to my growth. Apael came out from her building and we linked our bloody hands heading home.

Elaxi explained the chaos realm a bit to me. The flow of time was faster there than here. I would be able to spend 2 years there but only 2 months would pass in this world. It would help me train and get new abilities the only downside was I would not be able to see Apael for a long time.

As we got home we took a bath together and as we were relaxing I brought up my training to Apael. She was not happy that she would not be able to see me for a couple of months but she agreed to let me go as long as I promised to not overdo it. So starting tomorrow will begin my journey to chaos.