Trust it’s about Trust!

Does anyone like SMUT!!!! There's some in this chapter and the following one.....enjoy😉

Thomas was anxiously waiting for Zach to get home. He had made dinner for him and the kids. Glen had joined them for dinner but had to return to work for a night shift. Zach walked in at about 9 o'clock. "Hey Thomas, how was your day? '' he asked, seeing his brother sitting there with no TV on. "Where are the kids? Where Glen?" He asked Thomas

"The boys are taking their showers before bed and Claire is cleaning her room finally Glen had to go back to work for a night shift he told Claire if her room weren't clean when he got in tomorrow morning she would be going to school with a belted backside" Zach chuckled

"That girl just loves to take it to the limit doesn't she" Zach headed for the kitchen Thomas showed him his made plate of food in the refrigerator Thomas sat down to stay with Zach while he ate. Zach got the feeling something was up.

"What's up, little bro? You look like you got something on your mind" Zach observed which made it easier for Thomas to talk.

"I don't really know how to ask this. Um.... how do you figure out who does what in a relationship?" Zach looked at Thomas very confused then the light bulb went off in his head, he threw his head back and laughed

"You mean who's bottom or top?" Thomas turned red and looked down in embarrassment

"Never mind," he said starting to get up

"No no I'm sorry I laughed it wasn't the question it was the way you asked it. Sit down and talk to me about what's going on" Zach seemed sincere so Thomas decided to try again.

"I really like Derek and we made out a couple of times but never... went any further." Zach nodded as he ate dinner listening to Thomas

"Well Thomas your relationship is still pretty new so I don't think you should go too fast" Thomas looked dejected

"Well I've been with girls some the same night of the date; it's just I've only done a few things with guys not...." Zach smiled but held his laugh in to not embarrass him again.

"You've never had sex with a guy? just messed around?" Zach finished his sentence for him

"Ya I mean how do you decide who is top or bottom?"

"Well, most of the time you know what you prefer but there is experimenting to see where things fall. I mean it's not black n white. It's more about trusting your partner. I mean you have to have that conversation with them so there's no misunderstanding"

"Oh" Thomas took in what Zach said

"Can I ask what you prefer" Zach couldn't help the laugh from escaping. The doorbell rang before he could answer

"That's James I'll get it" Zach was still chuckling when he opened the door

"What's so funny?" James asked as Zach took his coat and hung it up. Zach told James about the conversation. Thomas was cleaning up the kitchen when the two men came into the room, and he heard Zach telling James his questions

"Zach!! That was a private conversation" he yelled

"Sorry, James no offense" James put his hands up

"None was taken, it's okay I understand I had a lot of questions when I was your age too. I hope knucklehead over here gave you useful advice" he joked as Zach mocked being insulted by his comment.

"Of course, I did" Zach put his head up in arrogance and James rolled his eyes

"Well you didn't answer my last question" Thomas challenged

"Oh that's easy top (Zach pointed to himself) bottom (Zach pointed to James)" James' eyes got big

"Well, that's news to me. Is this just your fantasy or were you going to consult me first" James used a joking tone but Zach and Thomas both saw he looked annoyed.

"Uh, Thomas just follow my first advice, talk to Derek about it" Thomas nodded and left the room quickly as he felt the uncomfortableness hanging in the air.

"What did I say wrong? You look upset" James looked at him like he couldn't believe Zach didn't know what he had done

"Really? Top, bottom?" He points to Zach and himself in mocking Zach's earlier comment.

"Ya and? You're not embarrassed, are you? Thomas won't judge you besides he's a bottom too he just doesn't know it" James tried to not lose it the last thing he wanted was to disturb the household

"You know what you should take your own advice sometime, I'm going home" Zach ran after James

"Babe wait I'm sorry" James put his hand on his hips

"Sorry? For what?" He challenged to see if Zach really understood why he was upset

"Um um, I don't know. Why are so mad?" James laughed

"If you don't know why then we have a big problem, why don't you give me a call when you figure it out" James got into his car and left. Zach threw his hands in the air

"What the fuck, I didn't do anything" he shouted as he slammed the front door. Thomas ran down the stairs

"What's wrong?" Zach looked at Thomas annoyed

"I don't know something about your question offended James and he left. I don't even know why; I didn't do anything" he whined it was Thomas's turn to laugh at Zach

"Wow for a man with all the answers you sure are clueless" Zach rolled his eyes

"You're just like James let me know when you figure it out. I don't get it" Thomas looked at Zach

"I saw James' face when you referred to yourself as a top and him as a bottom, have you guys had sex yet? Have you talked about it?" Thomas asked the obvious questions

"Well no but it's different, your newer to this gay thing I already know what I am, and I know how to pick guys that are the opposite," he said confidently

"If that's true then why is James mad at you?" Thomas asked making Zach open his mouth to talk then close it then open it again then close it quickly he finally gathered the words to say

"Um can you make sure the kids are in bed, I need to go" Thomas waved his hand at Zach to leave

"Use protection" he yelled at Zach as he got in his car. Zach responded by flipping Thomas off before pulling out of the driveway.

Zach pulled into James' apartment building and saw his car was not parked in the assigned parking space. He dialed James' number, and it went to voicemail he tried several times with the same result. He decided to wait there until James got home. 30 minutes later he sighed in relief as James pulled into his parking space. Zach jumped out of his car and ran to James' car just as he had opened the driver's door.

"Do you know how worried I was?" Zach started scolding him. James screamed and dropped the drink he had in his hand and a bag.

"Zach are you kidding me you scared the shit out of me. What are you doing here?" Zach picked up the bag and now empty cup

"I'm sorry I called you 5 times you ignored me, and I've been sitting here over a half hour you left at least 15 mins before I came after you, what took so long?" James snatched the bag from Zach and pulled out a burger

"I was getting food to stuff my feelings because I have a crappy boyfriend" he snapped. Zach sighed

"Can we go inside and talk?" James thought for a minute

"Ya I guess" he answered warily. Once inside Zach got James something to drink since he dropped his on the concrete outside.

"Okay I'm sorry I know why you were mad was because we didn't talk about that part of our relationship because we haven't gone that far yet. I know I'm a top, so I usually am attracted to bottoms. I assumed that is what you are. I guess I'm wrong. And then I'm confused" James shook his head

"Answer me this? Why are you at the top?" Zach thought for a minute "I don't know I guess 'cause I always have been"

"so you don't like being a bottom? Or do you just think you're too manly to be a bottom?" James asked Zach looked bewildered

"I don't? Ugh, what do you want me to say?"

"Let me tell you what I know since you seem to think you know everything. I am not a bottom and I'm not a top, I have relationships that are based on mutual trust and I'm willing to give my whole body over to you. So, I would expect that you would do so as well. You would have known this if you had just talked to me about it. Instead, you assumed because you are a police officer and it's such a manly job that you would top me. Sorry but no. I also understand from what you have told me about your previous relationships that you were not dating bottoms because you had too many power issues in your relationships. If you limit your experience to only that which you are familiar with i.e.,... having sex with women then you will never experience the beauty of trusting your partner to take care of you in a way that makes you feel amazing" Zach was stunned he never thought of it that way. He assumed because he had sex with women that he must be a top. He had many fights with past lovers over his refusal to bottom, and if he really admitted it to himself he realized what had happened to him as a kid scared him to even experiment with it. He only has the memory of being in excruciating pain.

"Talk to me please '' James begged Zach. He took his time to explain everything about which he was thinking. James held his hand and rubbed it softly as he explained the molestation and how it affected him all these years.

"I don't know how to give myself to anyone but I'm willing to try for you. I can't say I'll like it but" James touched his lips

"It's okay, all I ask is for you to be open, I can guide you through the rest. Do you trust me?" He asked as he was inches from Zach's face. Zach nodded and James kissed him, he slowly deepened the kiss as Zach tried to jump in and take over. He put his arms around James and tried to pull him closer. James stopped him, removed his arms, and placed them in his lap.

"Do you trust me?" He whispered in Zach's ear

"Yes" Zack moaned as James sucked on his neck

"Keep your hands in your lap, just relax" he whispered as he ran his hands up Zach's shirt and pulled it up and off his body. He straddled Zach's lap and started kissing him again really deeply, he pushed his hips down to put pressure on their members which were both tight in their pants. Zach moaned, loving the friction James was giving him.

"Come with me" James took Zach's hand and guided him to the bedroom. He stopped at the edge of the bed and started unbuttoning Zach's pants then carefully pulling them down and off. He followed with his boxers leaving James fully clothed and Zach naked. Zach wasn't going to lie, being like this made him feel vulnerable but he was intrigued by James taking control. James got on his knees and licked a stripe up Zach's dick he licked several areas before taking the tip in his mouth. Zach threw his head back and moaned as James started to suck more and more of him in. After several minutes Zach was sure he was going cum when James came off with a pop. He laid Zach down on the bed and reached into his side table bringing out a bottle of lube.

"Do you trust me?" He added again making Zach realize what he was asking for was permission to continue.

"Yes," Zach replied. James stroked Zach's hard dick up and down he then poured lube on his fingers showing Zach exactly what he was doing. He tapped Zach's legs for him to open up and he did slowly, but James didn't get frustrated he patiently waited. He reached between Zach's legs and rubbed his balls causing him to moan louder than before. Zach felt James' fingers at his entrance and tensed a little James kissed his chest and told him to relax. He slowly rubbed the lube around his hole stimulating him before trying to go in. When he saw Zach had completely relaxed he slowly pushed a single finger into the hole just to the first knuckle. He pulled out and did it again he slid his finger in a little more this time swirling it in circles causing Zach to moan at the feeling it was giving him. James was slow, always checking that Zach was okay. He had two fingers in and pumping in and out as Zach pushed against his fingers enjoying the feeling, moaning to James how good it felt. He then slides a third finger in and pumped a little faster causing Zach to moan loudly as James scissored his fingers

"Ah fuck James shit that feels so fucking good" he withered on the bed he couldn't believe how good this was. James leaned down and whispered in Zach's ear

"Do you want me to fuck you?" Zach looked James in the eye

"Yes oh god yes fuck me" Zach didn't remember when James had gotten undressed but looking at the fit man's naked body sent shivers down his spine. Zach found James to be the most beautiful man he had ever seen. James rubbed lube on his dick, and he lay beside Zach.

"I want you to get on top and slide yourself on me. I want you to go at your pace" Zach nodded and straddled James, Zach lifted up as James positioned his dick at Zach's entrance. He then held Zach's waist and let him push down. First James' tip slid into Zach he could feel how much larger than three fingers his cock was. It didn't hurt, just felt slightly uncomfortable as he pushed himself down the uncomfortable feeling became a painful one. James made him stop and wait and told him to only continue if he wanted to. Zach continued his dissent on James' large cock wincing through the thickest part of his shaft. He was finally all the way down. He felt so full, but it didn't feel bad, just different. James told him to not move and to let him do the moving for a few. James circled his hips making his cock rub inside Zach without taking it in and out. At first, it was painful but after a few times, it actually started to feel good again. started pulling up and pushing back down in little motions at first then he started moving faster as his moans got louder. James began thrusting in and out of Zach. He held onto James' arms as James fucked into him harder

"James you feel so good harder keep going harder" he panted James flipped them around and was now on top of Zach. He lifted his legs, so they rested on James' broad shoulders, and he began fucking Zach faster.

"Aaahhh fuck yes James yes" he shouted James fucked Zach until he came with a scream of his name fell from his lips he was shaking as he slowly came down from his high, James filled Zach up and pulled out. Zach pulled James into a hug

"Thank you baby that was mind-blowing. I'm sorry I was so insensitive earlier" James kissed him

"It's okay I forgive you. Thank you for trusting me" the two lay entangled in each other's arms for the rest of the night.