Chapter Nine: My soul refusing me

Another usual day at school, I attended my classes peacefully, as I always do. Its break time, I took my bad and walked my way to the roof for my won break away from all students and teachers. But little did I know that my peaceful day would turn upside down. While going to my place, some students stopped me—two girls and two boys. After taking a look at them, I recognized them I saw them often with Raza; they are Raza's friends. One of the girls said to me

-"Are you Raza friend?"

I didn't answer her, and I wanted to just leave them and go. But she turned to me, and she grabbed me by the hand. I screamed out loud; my hand hurt, and all my body hurt. I was just sitting there in pain; I just wanted to fade away at that moment, but because of the pain, I couldn't move my body. Other students were just standing there in shock; they really have no idea what they did. Suddenly, Raza came, put his jacket around me, and patted my back to make me feel better.

-    "Take me from here, please," I said

He looked to his friends and said 

-    "Let's meet later we need to talk"

We walked our way to the roof, I just sat there crying so hard and Raza was just looking at me, I put my hand to my chest and I said

-    "Maybe, just maybe my soul is refusing me; there is no other explanation to what is happening to me."

Raza gets closer to me and he holds my face with his scarf and he said

-    "There is nothing wrong with you, your soul is beautiful and it is not refusing you, it's you who refuse your soul, it's you who refuse your existence and I'm here to make you accept it, I'm here so you can feel it, I'm here to embrace that soul."

As always I couldn't say any word Im just always falling into his words. He left me alone to relax and he said that he will meet his friends and come back so I'm just waiting here for him to back. Is that for real? Since when I started to wait for someone to come and accompany me; since when I started to trust people? Since when I started to want affection from others or it is just him, what's so special about him that I'm becoming like that? I was so focused into my thoughts that I didn't notice that he already come back.

-    "I talked to them"

I looked into his eyes in confusion 

-    "Don't worry, I didn't tell them anything about you; I just asked them what they wanted from you."

With a lower voice, I said

-    "What did they say?"

-    "They saw you with me sometimes, so they wanted to know who I was busy with."

Then he went silent, I just looked into his eyes, waiting for him to continue, When he saw me like that he laughed so hard and he came from behind and hugged me and said,

-    "She is my special person; she is the soul that I want to accept and own. That's what I said to them if you wanted to know."

I really hate the way he teases me, but his words hit me differently; just hearing them makes me happy, and I want to die peacefully in his hands right now.