Episode 35

Lucas's Point Of View,

I just sat under a tree near her house and I lit a cigarette. I still remember how much she hates it. She used to tell me that if I did not stop smoking, she is gonna leave me someday. It did not happen ever. She never left me, but I did. I had to do it. I did not have any options and now I want to have her in my arms, in my life, just one fucking chance she is not giving me.

I want to yell and cry hard but unfortunately, I can not even do that. How unlucky I become all of the sudden. I am hating my job now. There was a time when I used to feel so blessed coz I had everything, beautiful and lovely girlfriend and this job but now coz of my job I lost her.

It is not like I do not love my country. I love my country more than this life but still, she is my heartbeat, and living without her is like hell. Only I know how did I spend these four years without her. Each passing day was like a hell for me but there is nothing I have to prove to her. Just do not fucking know what to do, my life is nothing but a mess.

I do not even realize how much time I spend there while looking at the house she got in. And that is when I felt someone was leaving there. So I just fixed my eyes on the man who left and that is when I felt that my blood started boiling.

It was the same guy who was talking to her at the college, not talking it was more like he was flirting. So he was James but what the fuck he was doing at her place at this time. How could she let him in at this time? Does not she know that it is not the right thing for a girl to invite a boy to her place at night time?

I am just getting angry for no reason. I saw him leaving and now I am feeling that my mind is not working. I am feeling so numb, and I just sat there and I slept on the bench under the tree.

In the morning-

I felt that my whole body was shivering and it was so fucking cold here but I just did not open my eyes. I was still lying on the bench in the cold. And that is when after some time I felt sunlight on my face and I slowly opened my eyes, fuck. I was sleeping here for the whole fucking night. I just do not believe that I did this. And that is when I saw a cute kid coming in my direction. I slowly rubbed my eyes and sat on the bench as he came close to me and sat beside me.

"Why did you sleep here in the night? It was so cold right, so I brought some coffee for you", he said to me in his cute baby voice, and melted to see him like this. He was so small and wearing a black mask on his face. His eyes were so pretty but I was wondering why he was wearing a mask.

"You saw me I was sleeping here", I asked him and he nodded his head.

"When I came here to play with my friend. I saw you were sleeping here and you were shivering too. So I told my mum to make some coffee for you. My mum makes the best coffee in the world", he said.

I took the coffee from his hand and took a sip from it and I just felt something so familiar. I do not know why I felt that I just know this taste. This feeling is really so strange.