Episode 29

Lucas's point of view,

"Yes sir, what happened", he asked me as he answered the call.

"Jin, tell me something about her. What information did you get after that? I need to know it fast", I yelled at him while I knew that it was not his fault and I was just getting angry for no reason.

"Sir, just calm down, I am trying my best. At least give me some time for the investigation", he said. And I just closed my eyes so that I could calm myself down. I know that I am behaving like a lunatic, but I am not. It is all about the love I have for her.

"Okay fine, I am giving you time, take time, but I need to know it soon, and also try to get some information about the guy's name Luke. Find every single thing about him, who the fuck he is, and what kind of relationship he is having with Ava, where he works? And what does he do, every single fucking thing about him? I need to know it fast, okay, call me when you find something. I am waiting for your call", I somehow warned him. I know I am acting weird but I can not help it. I am just like this and no one could do anything about it.

"Sure sir, I am trying my best. Just need some time, and I also got to know something", he said, and I just got still, I took a deep breath.

"Shoot", I said, and he just took some seconds before opening his mouth.

"Amm sir, there is a guy called James who is Miss's best friend, and he often goes to her place and so many times he stays there for whole days. When Miss Ava moved to this place, Mr. James helped her a lot. He even found this place for her and he also helped her to get this job too. So basically, he is doing everything for her, helping as much as he can. He did not leave a single chance to help Miss Ava. And I also got the information from the hospital that so many times he had taken her to the hospital too, so maybe there are chances that they are kind of together", he said, and I felt a sharp pain in my heart. Was she really with someone else?

"Okay fine, just do your job, stop judging them already. I am waiting for more information", I said and hung up the call. The truth is I can not stand what he said. I was missing for four fucking years. How much can a person wait in their life without any hope? I do not really think that she is at fault. I am the one to blame, but now I am back and there is no way that I can back off now. I am here and I am willing to do anything to get her back. Maybe I can wait for her to get bored with the new guy and come back to me. My mind is kind of filled with thousands of stupid thoughts. The mere thought of her being with someone else is killing me. There is no way that I can see her with someone else. I would better die than see this.

I just went to the kitchen and pulled out a bottle of wine and filled a glass. I walked back to my room and took a sip from it. It made me relaxed. It's really so stressful for me to think like this. I just do not know what the fuck I should do.

I really want to tell her every single thing about me and about my profession. I want to tell her what happened that day. All I need is a chance, but she is being so stubborn and not even talking to me properly. I thought she would be happy to see me after all these years, but I did not expect that I would see a cold lady like ice who is now rude too. My heart breaks every single time when she sees me with hate in her eyes. I just closed my eyes for some time so that I could feel relaxed.