WE ARE EXTREMELY SORRY...

He came to me a couple of minutes later, as I was still trying to comprehend everything. His eyes were blank again but this time, I knew it was my doing. I was the crazy one. I was the one who was out of her mind. I looked down at his legs and tried to tell myself that I didn't care. That I didn't care about the lonely, hurting look of his eyes. I didn't care that he barely just broke up with his girl for me. I was starting to get a bad feeling about this, a bad feeling by the name of regret. Now I don't feel anything right. I feel no love, no hate. No emotion.I can't shake this feeling off me. It's like something is inside my chest that is ready to explode, and I can't think about anything else. I looked into his eyes again and turned my head away. I couldn't face him or Jane anymore. I turned back and started running towards the dispensary, I met the doc there and asked for some medicine so that I could get out of the school on some lame and false medical excuse. He gave me two pills and told me to take them along with a glass of water. I don't know what these pills were but I gulped them down. I stood up and asked the doc to give me my papers so that I could run out of here. He looked at me and said that the school will give me a day's leave for getting sick and asked me to go home and rest for I'll be needed on Monday. I left the place and ran out of the dispensary. I ran towards home, but surprisingly no one was home. That's weird because my mom couldn't possibly go anywhere without informing me. I asked my neighbor if she knew where my mom went. She told me that she doesn't know, but that the neighbor next door could know. I went there and asked her. She answered, "I remember her rushing to the hospital just 10 minutes ago". Wait, why did she have to go to the hospital? Did anyone get hurt or something? If someone did get hurt, who could it be? No! I don't have time to think about this, I asked if she knew which hospital my mom went to, she told me the name of the hospital and I left immediately. She was right, my mom did rush to the hospital. I saw her near the reception I was getting so much anxiety and anxiety and I was trying to calm my body down. I don't know why I did it, but I had some bad thoughts going on in my mind at the moment. My mom saw me, she started running towards me. Her eyes were red and wet. She was crying. She hugged me and began crying again. " Mom, what's wrong why are you crying. Wh-what Happened? Why are you here? " I saw my grandma there too, as my mom was crying too bad to answer anything, I decided to ask her. " What's wrong, grandma? Why are you and mom here? Who is in the ICU ?" I asked. She was silent for a moment, I couldn't understand anything. She held me tighter and I couldn't bear to see her so hurt, I started crying too. My mom looked at me and I saw that her tears were also falling on her cheeks. " I'm sure you know that your dad was coming from the city today". Oh, God! No! It is not what I feel it is, Is it? "He was in an accident today right around your school and he was bought immediately here. The people around there took your dad's phone and called your mother to inform you this, so we are here. Don't worry sweetheart he is gonna be perfectly alright". That was it. I couldn't take it anymore. I started screaming and crying and screaming again and again. I knew that I was screaming out of sadness and I didn't care, I was just felt lost. I haven't seen him for 2 years now they say, he was in an accident? My god! I wanted to go to the ICU and see him but I couldn't, my mom told me that the doctors have put him in a coma and that he is heavily sedated. Just then the doctor came out of ICU and takes off his mask in a way that he felt defeated. "Sir, is my dad alright?" I asked him with my wet eyes. He was hesitating to say something," We did all we could but we couldn't save him. We are extremely sorry! " For the first time in my life, I understood how it feels like when we lose someone. I can't even put it into words. I felt empty. My dad lost his life in a car accident and now I feel like I lost my whole existence but I don't feel it that way. I feel like he has lost something irreplaceable and that I'll never be able to get that back. And he won't. I started to cry again. I cried for my dad and for myself. I saw that accident and didn't care at all. It all felt like it happened in a split second. I felt lifeless. I sat there and cried for a long time. I got lots of missed calls from Laura, Andrew and Leo. I couldn't answer them. After hours of mourning, I stood up.