Horikita Suzune monologue.

I have always behaved without compulsion with others. I didn't try to make any friendships. It wasn't like I had to rely on anyone.

Loneliness was not something that squeezed my heart, causing a feeling of discomfort. No. I took it for granted. Why should I communicate with those who cannot meet your expectations?

People came up to me, tried to communicate, but soon lost interest. Then there were their pitying looks, which disgusted me. Why are you looking like that? I don't mind being alone. 

Is it bad? I don't think so. Why try to squeeze out a smile and communicate with everyone, pretending that you are interested? I'm just saying straight out what I think and I'm not going back on my words.

But after some time in high school, I began to notice that I was at ease with my classmates. 

Ayanokoji. Our first communication did not begin, but his subsequent careless attitude with me and trivial conversations continue to this day. Why is this happening? I don't understand him.

He doesn't like to stand out and doesn't show the level he can. This aspect of his personality annoys me, very much. But I can't do anything about it.

Our communication with him increases, a little, but he is also an ordinary classmate and no more. 

But why do I sometimes feel something, my heart speaks in a dumb language, but I don't understand. What's it?

Thinking about it, I just put aside the unnecessary emotions that have run up and focus on the fact that he is just a classmate. No more, no less.

But there is another classmate. Artur Smirnov.

I had a conversation with him in his room and to be honest, it was difficult. 

I got to know him a little better, but the fact that he is trying to find a friend in me is not very clear to me. I thought it was because of his projection of other people onto me, but he flatly refused and explained that I was not like them. 

He didn't say why he wanted to be my friend, but it was as if Arthur hadn't finished telling me. He wanted to say something, but didn't dare.

What could he see in me to make him be friends with me? Even throughout his time at this school, he did not refuse to stop communicating with me and continued to openly ask questions, sometimes ordinary, but sometimes…

Remember his questions that make you think or questions about school, class. He, at least in front of me, does not raise such issues with anyone, which makes me wonder. Why me?

Is this really a common story with roommates and a new student wants to learn more about the school? But here is more about the structure of society in Japan. 

Even my brother said that everyone wants such people in their lives, because they will never betray. I do not know how they met or what happened between them, but having decided to rely on my brother's words, I took the first step towards meeting Arthur. 

I hope I won't regret it.