My insomnia

My body is heavy, sticking to the mattress. I'm in a state of consciousness but not fully conscious. I'm in a slumber but not truly asleep. It hurts. My eyes burn. Are they dry? No it's piercing behind my eyeball, a place I can't reach with my own fingertips. My head throbs to the beat of my heart. It hurts. It really hurts. I think I'm going to pass out. This is the feeling I knew all so well since childhood. Tossing and turning in the covers I could never find a good position. Should I get up? No, just a little longer I can feel it. I'm so close. I'll just lay here a little longer