God I need you

I'm feeling so scared,

I can't breathe but I must.

Thinking so many thoughts,

Trying so hard to trust.

These fears are irrational,

But I can't make them stop.

I just wish that they'd leave,

That my heart rate would drop.

I can't catch my breath,

My heart's running a race,

Against my emotions,

Struggling to keep pace.

I struggle to breathe,

But each sound makes it worse.

My world seems so dark,

I'm trying to reverse.

Away from the triggers,

Away from the pain,

All my muscles are tense,

Why can't it be explained?

There is no good reason,

But I can't press pause.

I don't think this is normal,

I can't find the cause.

God, I need you,

I can't live on my own

You're the only one who knows

Where my fears are sewn.

Why do they come?

What's the cause of this pain?

I want to let go,

But I can't just the same.

I try to calm down,

But my fears just won't quit.

I can't find air to breathe.

I'm stuck in this pit.