Don't Leave Hope

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Where is Robbin? Ma'am I had already warned you to not get involved in his issues. I don't think Robbin can't make it through. Did I ask for your opinion? Robbin is the best from our team. He always gets what he wants. So I believe he can do it. But Ma'am.... The one who we are talking about is not a random guy. I know. And We don't talk on our show about random guys. So I know very well. Ma'am... Ma'am..... Robbin came. But he is badly injured. What? What happened? Where is he? Sime hospital brought him here in the Ambulance. What? Who? Okay. Let's go. Come. Robbin.... What happened? How did you end up like these? Ma'am the people who brought me. They beat me. What? Why did they beat you? Ma'am as you say to gather information about him. I was looking for information. They caught me. They beat me. Then why did they take care of you? He ordered them. 'He' you mean The Mysterious man. Yes. Did you see him? How does he look? I didn't see him. I only heard his voice. I thought today was my last day. But he spared me. On top of that he gave me all the information about him. What? He gives you. Then why did he beat you? His man thought I was the opponent's man. So they beat me. When I told him about me. He spared me. He said if we want information. We should ask him. Don't sneak. Very interesting. What did he give you? A diary. The diary contains all information about him. Okay. Let me see. But Are you Okay? Do you want to go hospital? No, Ma'am. I am fine. I must say he is good at taking care. All the way His man takes good care. So I am fine. Let's see the information.

Everyone comes to the meeting room. Robbin Can you walk? Yes Ma'am. Let's start reading his life journey. My Diary. What should I write? Yeah!! I got. Okay. This diary I got as a gift from my Best Friend. Who is very weird. The one who is very cold. Even I am nothing to compare with him. He always stays in his own world. Okay. I will start writing from the beginning.

First Encounter

During my high school time in grade 11. After the 1st semester We have a transferred student. On Nov 14th, 2006 I met a boy. He is a new student in our class. Ma'am came. She introduced him. But he didn't utter a word from his mouth. At that time his Mysterious Behaviour attracted my attention. I wanted to hear his voice. But the first word he said was The Puppet. Ma'am asked him Why did he transfer? He very coldly replied Do you want to die? Everyone was surprised. He said the same. What? The teacher said in return. He answered I mean to say My dad asked this question. It's obvious I don't want to. That's why I ended up here. Are you done? Yes. You can choose any empty place to sit. At that time I had a lot of friends. I get my seat empty. I asked my friend's favor. He came and sat beside me. I was very curious. I want to know. Though I am not a noisy type person. But I want to be noisy. During the whole class he was sleeping. I was wondering What privilege he got to act like these? I was staring at him. During the middle of the class. He suddenly stood up. He saw time. And he ran. I have a thought to follow me. So I did. I saw a very Big And Expensive car waiting for him. A man was waiting for him. As he saw this man. He stopped there. The man toward him. And Slap him very hard. He was shivering. I was also a little bit shocked. Why did he slap him? Who was he? I want to know. But he was gone. I return to the class. The teacher was waiting for him. She got angry. She punished me. In my life I have never gotten punished for once. But at that time I wasn't thinking about punishment. But I was thinking How was he? Will he cry? Or was he crying? But I can't stop my curiosity. The class ended. My friends asked me Why did you run after him? I am also thinking the same thing. Why? What are you saying? Huh? I don't know. But I want to know about this man? Who? No one. Just someone. Okay. I have to go. Bye. I reached Home. During that time I have only Mom as my family. Although My dad was there. But I was not talking with him. We had some issues. So Most of time I spend in my room. I very barely come out of my room. During dinner time, I asked to my parents. When was the last time they scold me? My mom was staring Dad. Dad said Why? Why even bother to ask this question? My dad smile. He said I agree. We have some issues. But I can't hury you. I am your father after all. I said what if a man slap a boy in the middle of road? They asked What nonsense are you talking? I said nothing. And I went to my room. The whole night I can't stop thinking about him. I didn't sleep at all. I was already wake up in the morning. I get ready for school. I want to see him. I want an answer to my question. So I was in hurry. I pick up a bread and run for school. In the way I think I should give him some medicine. I take some ice pack. I reached school. I went to class. He was not there. I sat on my seat. And put ice pack on his seat.

Knowing

He didn't come during 1st class. I think May be he is sick. But after 1st class he came. His side of face was red. Teacher saw. She asked What happened? He was very angry. He said None of your business. Teacher was embarrassed. She didn't say anything. He came. He put his bad down. He saw ice pack. He stare at me. I take ice pack and put on his face. He was not taking at first. But after some time he put on his face willingly. During break he was hesitating. I saw him. I get he want to say something. I said It seems someone want to say something. My friends said no one. I smile. I said to him. What you have to say? He asked me Where is staff room? I instructed him way. He went and apologize to Ma'am. He returned to class. He thanks me. He asked Do you see Everything yesterday? I said I saw but I don't understand. He said it's good. If you don't understand. And next time stay away from me if don't want to gey involved in any problem? What if I don't? Then it's your call. I asked What is your name? He stare at me and said Why do you want to know? I said isn't it obvious. If I want to talk with you. How can I call you? With name. No doubt. He said You can call me Patient. Patient? What is this? Are you teasing me? Yes or no both. I am really a patient. I have some issues related to my heart. And I think dad will get me treat very soon. So I am waiting for treatment. I starts feeling empathy. Although I never care about others. I introduce him with my other friends. After thay day he seems a little bit changed. He talked with us. It seems he get used with surrounding. One day he came in the class but he doesn't seem alright. He had some injuries. I saw him. I didn't say anything. He was smiling all time. I said I can see. So don't smile. It is annoying. He stop. I asked now what happened? Did he again hurt you? Bh the way Who is he? He.... He is my adoptive father. My mom died when I was a little boy. My dad.... You can say he is business icon and king maker. But for me he is the most stupid man I have ever seen. He loves that man. I loves my Dad. But I think he loves him more than me. So he always trust him. So he leave me on his trust. So I don't stay with my dad. Because he is busy. I said you should tell your dad Everything. What do you think? I tried once. But he manipulates Everything. In the end I became one who hate his adoptive father. So I give up to go against him.

Feelings

I thought I felt empathy for him. I asked him Can't you stay with me during your Dad's Business trip? He was very considerate. He said I don't want to cause any trouble. What? Nothing. Come and stay with him. He said I can. Also he doesn't care if I am there or not. He came to stay with me. I take him home. I introduce him to my parents. He gets along well with them. During the night, his health gets worse. We were scared and worried. He told me to bring medicine. I went up and brought medicine. We gave him some medicine. He got better. He was sleeping in the room. I was talking with my parents. They asked me What is wrong with him? I said he has some health issues. So nothing to worry about. He listened everything. He came down. He said I think I caused problems to you. And I make you worried. My parents were very considerate to him. They said No dear. I think you were more scared than us. So don't think like that. Come. It's dinner time. We were eating. It was my first time to enjoy eating with family. My dad asked him What is his dream? He said I dream to meet someone who will trust me completely. And I want to become a very powerful man. My dad said I hope you achieved all your dreams. My dad asked me the same thing. I answered I want to become a Doctor. A Doctor Who will cure Everything. My dad smiled and he said it's nice. We finished our food. He helped Mom to clean all things. My dad was staring at me. I asked What happened? Why Are you staring at me? He asked me Why Doctor? I said I think it's cool. I can save. My dad said you mean you want to save him. I was confused. I said I am talking about me. Not him. My dad was confident about my Dream. He said You will definitely be Achieved. I can say for sure. He came out. He asked What are you talking about? I said Dad wanted to know about you more. Me? My dad was like when I said something. I smiled. I asked can you share? He said yes. Ofcourse. I was I think 3 years old when my mom died. After that Dad was the one who took care of me. When I start my schooling. Dad doesn't have time for me. I can understand he had someone more important than me. And they ended up together. But he is a man. He was a little bit nervous. He said Are you shocked? My parents were very broad minded. They said Nothing to shocked about. Everyone has the right to love someone. So not a big deal. But the man who came doesn't like me. Because I need time. As I am a patient. He has to look after me. So he doesn't like me much. I can see he was getting uncomfortable. I changed the topic. I said Do you know when I was a child? I was very naughty. Aren't you now. Everyone laughs. And also noisy. Who wants to know Everything about me. My parents said Noisy? He? Yes. He is very noisy. He always tried to talk with me. And always annoyed me. But he is the one who makes my day better. So now I am used to him. Okay. I have to go to bed. I have to go. Bye. Goodnight. He went up. My parents were very curious. They asked What was he talking about? I said Do you remember? One day I mentioned slapping? Yes we do. Actually I saw him getting slapped by his adoptive father. So I was concerned. Okay. Now tell me Do you like him? Any feelings? No guys. I am going to sleep. You guys also. I ran to the room. I saw he was sleeping peacefully. I very silently went into the room. Get on the bed. I was continuously staring at him. Suddenly I realized my heart was beating very fast. I was nervous or anxious. I don't get it. I went out of the room. I ran to my parents. I asked If your heart beat increases around someone. They said love. I said if both guys are boys and best friends. So What? Love is love. They smiled and said Do you feel now? I said yes. Just now. My dad said we know. We know you very well. When you look at him you always smile. Didn't you notice? Today you were very relaxed. You didn't have anything to worry about. And you didn't argue with me. So you are stable now. I was like Is it reality or a dream? I said Don't you guys have any problems? We? Why? We don't have. But Can you say if he is okay or not. I can't say for sure. But I'll not tell him now. Right now he already has many problems to deal with. So I will not cause any problems for him. So let it be. I'll take care of him. Later I'll tell him. Okay. As you want. But never hurt him. He is a very good boy. What do you guys think about me? I am also a good boy. You? Good boy? You are very sly and cunning. Always cause problems. Okay. Bye. Goodnight. I will get going.

Promise

That night I got a lot of happiness. For the first time in my life I got a reason to live. It was like my life was meaningful. I can't express myself in words. I was looking at him. I want to touch him. But I don't dare to. But still I cuddle him. I slept very peacefully. He woke up in the morning. He shower. He went in the kitchen. He wants to cook. He made our breakfast. Everyone gathered at the dining table. My dad always likes to tease me. He said whoever girls will marry you. She will be very lucky. You are very good at cooking. He said I don't think so. Why? I have decided to not love anyone. My mom said No dear. You should always try to love. Atleast yourself. He said I think. I am going to die very soon. I was worried. I said Why are you talking like that? He said Actually I know the fact. I don't have time. This time my dad was going to try last time. If I get a heart donor. Then I'll live. But chances are very low. So I am prepared for any possible results. Actually I want to tell you. But I don't want to make you worry about it. Actually I want to meet you guys. Because I don't know when my heart will stop. That's why this vacation I want to spend with you guys. My dad asked him Where do you want to go? What other things do you want to do? He said I want to go to the Amusement park. I want to do childish things which I never got a chance to do. My family was very emotional for him more than me. Because he has become a part of my family. We went to the Amusement park. We enjoy it so much. I want to spend time with him as much as I can. We took photos. We ate lunch. We ride everything in the park. Our trip was about to end. We were eating ice cream. Suddenly the whole park gets vacant. A helicopter came. His dad was in the helicopter. He came down. He ran towards his dad. But his dad slapped him. He was not crying. He laughs. He said I know what happened? Your dear husband has told you about me. He again trusts him. And punish me. As always. Nothing special. Actually I want to tell you something for a long time. Do you know who I hate most in my life? You. My own dad. Who always let me down. This man I can tell he is an outsider. So I don't hope that he will treat me better. But you. Are you really my dad? Or you just pick me up from the trash. Because you always treat me like junk. When you are angry you come to me. When you are happy to go there. But where should I go. When I am angry. Because you never make me happy. I want to die very soon. I hope it will be great. If you don't find any donors. I am going. No need to worry about me. You should also go. He was running. His dad screams I manage to get a donor for you. So come with me. He don't want to go. I ran towards him. I said Can you do me a favor? He said yes. Just tell me. What do you want? I said I want you to go. I want to see you in a healthy condition. I also have something to say. Which I will tell you when you come back. My family also convinced him. At last he got ready. I sent him forcefully. He was going but returned. He said I'll go but you will have to grant me a wish. I said I promise. I'll grant. So tell me. He asked me to fulfill his dreams along with mine. He said I wanted to find a person who will trust me. I guess. I did. You are the one. But for the next dream I think I am not able to do it. So you will do it. If not then I am not going. Okay. I'll. I promise. He told me he will come back to me. When I will Achieve it. He promised me. He will come back at any cost. He was going. I don't have a choice to hold him back. As a promise token I gave him a locket. Which is only 2 pieces in the world. One I had and the other he had. I want to touch him. Feel him. Hug him. Love him. Embrace him. I have a lot of things to do with him. I want to spend time with him. I want to do silly things. I want to do everything with him. I want to live every moment of my life with him. Only him. He hopped on the helicopter. He went. I was left alone.

I am writing this diary because I don't want to forget. I can't forget pieces of memory. I want to remember it. The feeling, emotions, promise, my love and Everything about him. I want to remember it at any cost. I can't afford to forget him. By the time his memories are fading but I can't let it happen. I wrote and read every time to feel this emotion. The feeling of peace which I had never felt. But I don't know where he is? How is he? I can't afford to lose this diary. But in case anyone finds it please contact me. Don't harm anything. It is my treasure. I'll make sure that I will keep safe. With the empty pages my life is also empty. Just like the left page of the diary my life is also left without him. I can write only a lot in this diary.

__ For My Beloved Patient