chapter 3

why i'm not like the other girls , Go to the park with my dad, play with swings, and ask him to help me swing and fly in the sky like a free and happy bird.

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Friday, October 23, he was confused. What should he do with a pregnant child?

I was a child, I couldn't understand anything, I was still tied to the bed, A serum was tied on my hands because I hadn't eaten anything for four days, so there was nothing to eat at home.

Is that correct ? Is there a baby in my stomach? I asked him.

He tried to ignore it but I was very angry with him and I started screaming, tell me now, I want to know now !

fine ,Yes, it is there and it will be removed tomorrow, he said angrily

Remove it?, How? he is too young to die, I will not let you kill him, he is my child and I won't abandon him as you abandoned me.

He ran to me angrily and quickly, he's basically dead, and you will die if he doesn't die. Do you really not understand that? Do not you understand my love for you? I'm sick of you. I cannot imagine my life without you, is it the definition I did not love your mother like I used to love you, there is something in you that attracts me, I will not make you die and go from my hands.

i'll keep him , and you are lying his alive .

I went running to my room and closed the door before he came

He started hitting the door hard , i was so scared i didn't know what to do !

he started screaming, he will die, and you will live, and you will remain mine for your whole life. He started laughing hysterically, do you think you will get away from me? , Even in your dreams I will come, you will not get rid of me easily, do you not understand? I adore you so much, this thing is not in my hand, open the door please , I will not harm you. I promise, we can return to our normal life if you want , like any father and daughter, I promise to let you bring back the feeling of peace again, come on, Caroline, please open the door, he said sadly .

Should I believe him? After what he did to me? , I sat thinking and thinking while he was sitting in front of the door waiting for my response, I was ten years old, I was a child, and the child always has to believe his parents, isn't this what school and life taught us as well.

Finally, after exactly an hour, I opened the door, but not what I thought had happened. He hugged me at the beginning of it and I really thought he wanted to be as a father to me, but then he carried me and he made me lose consciousness of a blow on my face, and he took me to the doctor , To abort the child.

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I always believed in miracles, as my mother used to tell me, miracles always come out of where we do not know, and that miracles are endless and happen to a person who wants good, I am wondering now, will a miracle happen to me as my mother used to say? She always told me that you are the miracle that appeared to me in this life, which I will never give up and I will always hold on to you even if I am not there beside you .

She always told me, Caroline be strong, never let anything make you feel weak for a single moment. I didn't understand what it meant to you. I think I understand it now, I will not let my father destroy my life .

I feel as though she is speaking to me now, and I look into her eyes and she's laboring my little hands, is it time, mom?

we are going to know in the next chapter .....