Impulsive Thoughts

Elena's Pov

I ran into the bathroom making sure to slam the door shutt so Chase gets the message that I am upset.

Now I'm sitting in his.....no, no our bathroom, crying because the mafia man is a jerk. This is not something new, but every time I feel he might be a nice guy, he does what he just did like he always does because apparently he had no choice but to be brought up in the mafia. Which does not give him the excuse to be a self-centered ass.

I agreed to share a room with him, I didn't want any of this and it's the fact I tried to believe he has a heart. Maybe he does, I want to put it to the test, I have been in the bathroom for an hour now and Chase never bothered to check up on me. I would have never thought about self harm or suicide nor do I want to do anything to do with it but now I have to see if Chase is as bad as he seems. This is when the idea hits me, I am in the bathroom there has to be something sharp. I opened one of his cupboards to find a small knife it looked like a throwing knife. I took the knife it had 'non mostrare pietà'  engraved on it. No wonder he acts like such a dick. He was programmed to act like one. "Okay Elena you are a medical student ypu know what you are doing. Deep breaths in and out", I said to myself. I was so ready to do something so stupid, with the throwing knife in my hand, I break something making sure it makes a big noise. I slit my wrist letting the blood drip onto the floor, I knee what I was doing but damn that's a lot of blood.

The blood dripped from my wrist, I started to feel a bit light headed, next thing I heard banging at the door. "Elenaopenthe door NOW!!!", Chase shouted. "Elena you should listen, he looks mad", Kole said sounding concerned. "Elena, if you dont openup I am coming!", he said. I never said anything. I just started to feel sleepy, my vision is getting blurry, I kept blinking, trying to stay awake. Next thing the door flew open, Chase ran to me, he saw the blood. "Kole call the doctor now!", he barked at Kole.

Kole left in a hurry, Chase came to me "Tesoro, whatever you do, dont close your eyes". I said nothing to him, he picked me up. First he wrapped my wrist, trying to stop the bleeding. Chase carried me down to the living room where the doctor was waiting. "Damn, that was fast", I thought to myself. He placed me down onto the living room table, all I could see was the light, not "the light" but the light in the living room, I don't why he has such a bright light in his mansion, in movies mafia guys normally have dark, scary mansion. Chase has a very classy mansion.

"Elena, don't fall asleep, you need to stay awake", Chase said for the hundred time.