REFUSAL

--------------~[CHRISTIAN'S POV]~----------------

The elevator pings and the door slides open slowly to reveal weary looking me standing in the elevator lost in thought. I look ahead of me snapping back to reality and rub my face taking a deep breath. I look around and step out of the elevator walking into the large dark sitting room. I look back once again the moment the elevator shuts close and walk up sluggishly to a sofa. I slump into it and lean my head against the headrest staring at the cieling.

The image of that shy little pretty face seems so determined not to leave me. I rubs my face looking around with wonder at what could be going wrong with me. Nothing has ever bothered me as much as this in my entire life. Ever since i saw her in that backstage, with the headset on singing her heart out, I just....i fell totally for her. Not the literal falling but i just can't get her out of my mind since then. I chuckle at the thought of what i have done this past day just to see her again and talk with her. She's a pretty smart lady. I can't believe she spotted me out even after the silly excuse i gave. I really found himself going great lengths such as tracing the school she attended. All just to see her again?

I chuckle and face palmed myself. "What the hell are you doing Christian?" I mutter and look around. The thought of her is tormenting me greatly. And to think she instructed me to stay away from her and left me in the hands of that stupid bitch who couldn't stop rubbing herself on me..

I sigh and rub my lips. With a jolt, i realize that the sitting room is still dark. I sigh and stand walking up to the switch. I flip it on and jump back the moment the lights illuminates the entire room. I haven't been the only one in the room all long.

I furrow my eyebrows. "Letty?" I look around. "How. The heck did you get in?"

The seductively dressed blonde lady sitting with her legs crossed beaming at me chuckles. "I've been here all the while honey. Even before you got in. " She stands up and catwalks up to me slowly with her smooth silk thighs exposed a great deal through that skimpy short gown. She gets to me and wraps her arms around my neck. "What I can't understand, is what you were thinking about that made you not to notice even my fragrance in your sitting room. "

I chuckle and clear my throat. "It's nothing. I was just thinking... about uh... Work and the likes. "

She beams. " Then why don't you allow me to ease your burdened mind a bit. " She mutters and bites her lip seductively. I gulp. I sigh and pull away from her grip.

"I thought we were supposed to give ourselves a break Letty? "

She bites her lip and sighs. " I know that Christian but...." She walks up to me and hugs me from behind. " Please. I don't want this break anymore. It's hurting me a lot. My life is hurt without you. I can't take it anymore. Come back to me, Christian."

I sigh and take a deep breath. " Look..."

" I'm sorry if I've offended you in anyway Christian, just take me back, please. I love you. "

I roll my eyes and turn to her. " Listen to me." I say and place my hands on her shoulders. "You have to get me Letty. I need this for myself. I've been so accustomed to having a lot of women in my life and it has cost me too much. I need this time for myself so I can think and reflect on my life okay. It's for my sake.. if you truly love me as you claim, you will grant me this one wish. Please. I promise once the time is right, I'll come back for you okay."

She sighs and glances at me. She sulks and bites her lip seductively. "I miss you."

I chuckle. "I miss you too Letty, believe me..."

" No. Not in that manner. " She says and i blink. What is she talking about?

She gazes at me with seductive, beautiful brown eyes and moves her hand along my thighs. I gulp.

"Can't we at least like, get together a little as proof that you still care about me? " She mutters and leans closer to me kissing me slowly. I squeeze my palm. She knows me so well. She knows the one thing i can never ever resist from her.

But something shocks me. The moment i start kissing her back, i keep seeing Rose. It is like it is Rose kissing me and moaning against my lips. Fuck!!!! I immediately pull away from her..

Letty glances at me with wonder probably wondering what shattered her charm. "Are you okay?" She asks.

I shake my head. "I'm fine. " I say and walk past her to the stairs leading to the bedroom..

I can feel her eyes at my back as I walk away. I have never ever been like this? What is wrong with me? Letty however, didn't seem ready to give up yet. I hear her pick up her purse and follow me.

I walk into my room and shut the door after me. This is really getting way too much. Why can't the image of this Rose i only met two days ago get out of my mind? I sit on my bed and place my chin on my palm. I rub my face furiously. "What the fuck is wrong with you, Christian?" I mutter.

Letty walks into the room and observes me deeply. "Okay. I have this feeling that whatever is bothering you, is totally not work but something else. You are not telling me the truth Christian. What is going on with you? "

I chuckle and rub my hair. " Forget it Letty. I'm good. Nothing is wrong with me." I mutter and lean on my back staring at the cieling.

"Are you sure?" She asks.

I nod slightly still staring at the ceiling.

She tries to climb the bed over me and straddle me but i stop her immediately. "Sorry. I'm stressed out at the moment. I need to get refreshed. " I say and get up from the bed making my way to the bathroom.

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Letty watches him walk to the bathroom and grits her teeth. What the hell is wrong with him? She has never see him in this state. He was always ready and eager to have her every time. Why the sudden change?

She sits on the bed with a huff. "Shit." She mutters. She clentches her fists. "It should better not be what I'm thinking." She mutters.