Not For Light Minded.

This is a diary of everything I think. On a daily basis. But for this first page ill give you some background, if anyone's out there. Depression. During the middle of the summer I was lonely, only 1 friend to talk to on the phone with every night. I planned that after my best friends birthday party, I was going to kill myself in my sleep. I went to the birthday party. 3 people talked to me the entire time I was there. My bff, and 2 random girls that where there. I met them there so there wasn't much to talk about. My bff was busy most of the time so I just got to talk to her a little bit. I got a balloon when I was leaving from my bff. I was walking out of the door and then I saw my crush going inside, a boy. I didn't kill myself that night... Cry Every Night. During Christmas time for me, I liked this 13 year old guy on the ps4. The night after Christmas. He told me he loved me. A week, that's how long that love lasted, he broke up with me 3 times within that week. Monday, Wednesday, Friday. I don't wanna share why. new year is when we broke up. So 'HAPPY NEW YEARS!'... I have this friend who I've know for 4 years now. I hate her, and I love her. But we went swimming a week or 2 ago. So we have seen each other naked... That's a re-cap of my depression and love life.