Dreaded Beauty

A Scared little Lamb laying on the bed waiting for god to complete her long-awaited wish which consisted of death.

If only I wasn't quick to slip in the bygone days of my past only to wish they didn't repeat. If only I wished for them to repeat, I would still live with the presence of a mind who has only been scarred a few times and not many times like it is now.

I laid on the bed thinking of the future--the future that held the unification of the utmost of me and Aiden’s lives but at least I am satisfied. I am satisfied because I can get used to the actions which he is going to pull. These thoughts surrounding me took so much of my time that seconds turned into minutes, minutes into hours and hours into days.

The day that passed made me realize that the wedding would be held anytime today.

There's no escape anymore but most of the minds reading my thoughts would say, of course there is an escape; Death!

I would say the same thing before too but I can't anymore and I have come up with a conclusion of just giving up as if this was some sort of battle that I was fighting and realized that the ones who are ready to fight against me have more power as compared to me and I just yielded right before them because I already knew the results of the battle--so why fight?

I gave up to die because I have tried many times before, like how I once sneaked in tp the kitchen for a knife to slash against the veins visible on my wrist, but as I picked that knife up, a hand stopped me from going towards the light that guided me for freedom, and that hand was none other than Aiden's.

Then after the incident he has ordered each one of the employees working at his house to look out from me trying to go even near the knife.

A knock on the door of my room was heard and I knew that even if I declined their request of entering--they would still come inside.

The door creaked open for me to only realize that it was none other than Aiden. There he stood looking at me with a smug look on his face and I knew that this was to tell me about the preparations of the marriage. Coming closer to me as my world became blurry. The tiled floor exaggerating the sound of him coming closer to me step by step.

The hand painted drawings decorating the wall. A white ceiling with a Chandelier hanging, A chandelier that defines the word Gorgeous and that chandelier was the only source of light that lit up in the room. A wooden bed with the softest mattress that there is as a sheet made up of pure silk that had the color of magenta covering up the mattress giving the room such a proper vibe. The side tables beside the bed with the same type of wood as the bed and handles made of gold that shone bright and gave off a creepy vibe. A wall made up of a window which was open giving a view of the moon shining brightly, covered by the gently swaying magenta colored silk curtains and as the wind gently trespassed the curtains and hit my body as if it were giving me hope because of the ominous feeling that clouded my heart and soul. The beauty of this room was getting torn away from me as my eyes became blurry, too blurry and all I could hear were the steps of Aiden coming towards me and all of that was in slow-motion when his voice jolted me away from my thoughts as if I were drowning in them.

"The people who will dress you up will come here in a few minutes", He announced and I felt his hands coming closer to my hair and combing them gently with his fingers as I did nothing to fight back since I was stuck and unable to move from the sudden sensation.

My heart was screaming in pain and agony as it had realized that I was being touched without permission, yet my mind was blank and frozen because it knew that whatever I do is going to lead to many consequences I wouldn't want to bear.

Knocks on the door were heard and he quickly backed away and went out of the room as a few people came barging in which I guessed were here to make me dress up for the function which I knew was going to be small since obviously Aiden wouldn't want to spend his life in jail, despite him being a known mafia, he still was someone who had committed many crimes with the charges of life sentences.

There stood a few women ready to start dressing me up.

I did not even realize when they started and when they ended with the hair and make-up, probably because I was drowning in my own thoughts--thoughts that gave me a sense of false security--thoughts that made me realize that I had nothing yet I had everything. From a rich and handsome guy who is obsessing towards him and I getting married.

So, what if he's a Leader of a Mafia gang who was made to kill the innocents, Though it did matter yet it didn't because what did their lives have to do with yours, at Least he was rich and ready to fill all your desires, except the ones that related to your escape from this direful place.

Screams, Screams that came from your heart which haunted your mind, Screams that made you stop convincing yourself from adjusting in to this wrecked place, Screams that made you realize that they were not echoing in the empty hauls of your mind anymore, And it made your realize that why did your heart stop screaming only to feel your brain brutally murdering the petty little heart that made you change your mind again and again--the petty little heart that made you suffer the consequences there was of following the path that it had made for you.

"The dress is hung in the bathroom, go change please.", I came back to the present from my thoughts as I slowly walked towards the bathroom only to see a magnificent dress hung. A dress that had me gazing upon it for a minute or two. A corset top with was covered with a white satin fabric as the ribbons of the corset were also made with the same fabric. The skirt had many mermaid-like layers with Saturn and chiffon pilling up upon each other. Everything about that dress had given me an ethereal vibe.

Sliding the wedding dress on I walked out of the bathroom to see the women staring at me which made me confused, I couldn't be that beautiful now could I? I asked myself and confused myself as I walked towards the mirror to stand in front of it.

I looked at my reflection in the mirror and smiled seeing the beauty that emitted off of me but that smile didn't last long as I knew this white dress would drain even the remaining of the colors that had sparked in my life because it had done the same towards itself. It was as if it were seeking for some kind of revenge like someone had stolen the colors it previously used to have in its life, and now I know that even this dress would receive satisfactions after ruining lives just like how it had happened with its own but I couldn't do that, I had to pent up the emotions that threatened to come out unlike the angered dress which was hungry for the taste of vengeance, hugged my body. One woman was coming towards my way with a magnificent veil and attached it to my long raven hair. “You look beautiful and you are so lucky to get married to Mr. Foreman.”, The girl who was setting my veil properly on my hair said. “Thank you.”, I gave her an awkward pressed in smile--it felt so weird to smile after months.

I heard the door creak open as I saw Aiden giving those women a dominating look and told them to get out. He made his way inside of the room and closed the door. He started to make his way towards me slowly and creepily. He came behind my back and carefully slipped his hands around my waist as I felt goosebumps on my skin. His hot breath fanning my neck as he said, “You look beautiful, let’s go to the venue now.”

I stopped breathing as my heart skipped a beat and I turned into an intoxicating shade of red while he just chuckled at my state.

Why was I acting like this?

We both got in the car while there were body guards on both my sides not allowing me to escape as my plan had backfired. Aiden and I got in the back of our car as the car made its way towards the venue. I saw the venue--It was so beautiful but today there was going to be something ugly happening here.

This was it--I was soon getting married to a rapist killer.