Chapter 024

Actually I have one request from God that I believe I will never be able to get again, my father. Yes, I know, I think my request was just a wish that could never come true. How could he come back to me alive? God had already taken him, before I even managed to repay him.

He said, when we lose someone, then God will replace it by bringing in someone else who might replace that person's role. However, until now no one I can trust can replace my father's figure, even if my mother gets married again. Honestly, I wouldn't agree with that.

They say maybe you can get that affection from a man who will love you one day. It's funny, is there really a man who loves me right now? Only I like him, he doesn't like me at all.

Actually, I'm tired of fighting like this too, hoping in his rock-hard heart that I believe I'll never be able to get it. Let alone his heart, just holding his hand would never happen, unless it was intentional.

And now, I did it again, I stood in front of his locker to keep my homemade food in there. Lately I don't know if my food was wasted or not, I never paid more attention to it, my heartache could increase if I saw it in person.

At least I'm still putting in the effort, right? Silence will not guarantee anything will develop for me, whether later he will put his heart on me or not, I can't predict it at all, if indeed we are destined to complement each other, then God will of course make Alaska mine.

"When will you ever get tired of doing that kind of thing?" An annoying question from a guy who just arrived behind me. A little surprised, but I still smiled at him as a form of greeting for him.

He, Alaska, the guy arrived just in time as I put the food in his locker. Well, I got caught for the umpteenth time.

"I'll stop if I'm really tired, you don't have to tell me to stop. Besides, I'm not forcing you to accept it either, right?" My smile hasn't faded, Alaska is still standing in front of me with a straight face. He looked at me deeply, unfortunately such a small thing could make my heart feel insecure.

Stupidly I always take my eyes off him first, I always can't bear to meet his very alluring thick soot. Alaska must be aware too if he has a charm that really makes people fall for him, I am an example.

"I think my class will start in a minute, then I'll say goodbye." My feet were about to move away from there, but his voice made my heart work fast.

"Your sandwich made yesterday, it was delicious."

Are you serious? Does that mean he ate it?! Wait, I don't want to get my hopes up too much, maybe he did send his friend to eat the sandwich.

I turned my head, "Did senior Jack say that? All right, tell—"

"Not him, I ate the sandwich, I left nothing for him." He cut my words with his sentences which made me feel really happy. That means he appreciates the food from me, right? I'm not sure on what basis he said that, maybe he was sorry or something else, the most important thing is that I don't have to think bad anymore every time I make him food.

My smile returned, forming a beautiful crescent moon on the corners of my lips, "thank you for eating it."

For now I can only say that, I'm so happy that all the words I was about to spit out got stuck in my throat. I gave myself encouragement, the spirit to go back to pursuing it with enthusiastic feelings without bad thoughts like at the beginning, today I got one small progress that hopefully will bring a lot of big progress in the future.

Come on destiny, this time cooperate with me, I'm trying, in return the results I get should not disappoint me.

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You know what it's like to be a student? One task has just been completed, another task has come three times as much, whether it's a group or an individual. Now I'm working on the assignment that the lecturer gave me and Chelsy, actually Chelsy is not a group mate that the lecturer appointed for me, but I asked the lecturer to place me and Chelsy as two group colleagues.

We were in the library, studying a book and putting together sentences for an assignment. The thing is, today has to finish, so we have to add a little more time to be on campus.

"See, if we put the word you proposed in the middle, then the meaning will change from what we intended." I assessed and interrogated Chelsy's opinion, the situation is serious now, I have ambitions to get the best grades with no mistakes.

"Let's just put it that way to make it a little more poetic, I'm sure the lecturer will understand, he's not a five year old kid who doesn't understand the meaning of poetic sentences."

A small sigh from my lips seemed to clump together to form a puff of smoke that merged with the air. It's not that i doesn't allow her opinion, it's just that I don't think what she's proposing is correct.

"Chelsy, we are not making a romance novel that contains poetic sentences, this is not fiction, Chelsy. After all, we are in the part of the adjective sentence, the adjective sentence is not like that, Chelsy."

She got up, it suddenly surprised me, her face looked annoyed and didn't like my opinion. I think there will be a debate between us.

"If everything is just written because you want why don't you do it individually? This is a group work, I also have the right to take part in filling out the notes."

She glared at me, I could feel anger from the way she's spoke. I told you, she's been a little weird lately, she's not the Chelsy I'm used to, she gets a little rougher when she talks.

"Chelsy—"

"I will ask the lecturer to do it individually, you can do whatever you want for your own assignment."

Chelsy was about to leave, but I held her hand that was about to move away. "I'm sorry, alright let's add what you want, I—"

"No need, I'm leaving."