who are you

" Alex .... I am sorry.... Alex..... ".....

after i saw him ..I ran from there as fast I can....but this was a shock which will never go as easily....

I ran towards a place were no one else

was there ...

Suddenly a hand crabbed and hugged me.....I could feel his calmness through out my body

that Time I could not feel anything including the matter i was running.we stood still for a while .with uncleared voice " Mr weirdo.....I ..."

" shhhh ...stand still ....."he said with a calm and gentle voice which erased all my sorrow and pain...

he let his hand go and freed me...

" Now tell me who is he and why were you running..." he asked with narrowed eyebrows

" I... actually when I was little I had a friend whose name was Jacob....and was till my high school. but one day he got transferred to another school for some issues regarding his family....so we left contact . But ...one day he came to see me .After he saw me..he hugged me tight ..I thought it was normal .. But..he told me to go with him to a restaurant I thought it was normal and thought that he was seeing me as a friend ....so i accepted his invitation and went with him . He asked me to go onto a private room with him. I agreed thought that may be he does not like crowds....and..."

with my voice itself he can understand my pain and he asked with sorrow " And"

with deep sigh I began" he ordered some drinks but I drank juice only .so that I could be conscious. We began to drink ,just after a while he started to say something like weird words ..and suddenly he sat next to me and began to say that he loves me .....I thought of it as drunk effect and was normal but was suspicious also. But ....he grabbed me and and was about to kiss me. But I refused ....I don't know why I couldn't tolerate him and pushed him and was about to run but he grabbed me and my butts ...and started to kiss my whole body ...." I stopped telling him but actually he was listening to my each and every word with sharp ears ..I could feel his soft embrace towards him ....it gave me courage and I continued with sorrow

" so I kicked his ass and ran from there as fast as I can ... I thought it as drinking effect ... Still.....it was a total shock for me that the man I was calling my best friend done that to me "

" the next day he called me and I rejected the call completely...when I was going school he came across me and apologized ....."

there was silence and I took deep breath.

I could feel his understanding towards me while I look at him...with a sigh he asked me

" and"...there was a silence within

him that I can feel

I continued

" and I forgive him because i thought it was drinking effect....as I forgive him he felt relief and asked me to come another time..but I refused.After that he told me you still don't forgive me for that ..I was helpless and I agreed ok then ...he said after school we will meet again...."with sorrow and helplessness

" In school I told Amy about this and she scolded me for a half an hour and she that she will also come with me to make sure my safety...and I agreed ..but.....I didn't knew that things could turn out like that....."

after that I couldn't proceed further ..he saw my trembling and said " it's ok if you don't want to."

with sudden courage I said" I am ok "

and was about to start saying what happened on that evening ...that I never wanted to remember

#what could have happened more that let her feel afraid to even see her childhood friend ......#