Chapter 29 How to Live Without It

I still couldn't believe what was really happening in our life, the death of my daughter of my little girl, her wake was very exhausting, there were people I never saw in my life and I heard people say that God used her to talk to them. And during the wake, I was asked why a friend came up and said,

- Kris do not ask God why but for what, because he fulfilled the promises in his daughter's life proof said these are people here, saying how God used her wisely, and you know better than anyone, that she had this wisdom, to talk to people,

- do you think it is easy to accept that because no, my daughter was everything I had and loved in this world, and now what do I do how will I live without her around who and who will call me kitten hem, I love my daughter I suffer for her, you think it will be easy because I say that it will not be I want all this to be a dream, and runs out of place and nowhere else to go another handheld me and I stopped and looked it was my beloved husband, I started to cry and sob in his arms and we stayed there for a while just crying until he said

- Love we need to go home our daughter needs us, that's when I remembered Andri,

- How is she, how did I forget her, where is my daughter, I wanted to get out of there to see her but he held me and made me look at him,

-Kris calm she is fine, she is in shock but her sisters are taking care of her for us,

- Jack how did this happen I still don't endorse how it happened and why our daughter why and I started crying again, because she was sick a lot as I would live now without her by my side like this pain how will I stop my heart from hurting in pieces everything hurt me, the tears didn't stop, one more thing I knew how to live without my beautiful daughter like, I wanted answers to all this but I didn't have to see my husband cry and see the same pain in his eyes and know that he saw the moment that everything happened,

- Jack I need to see our daughter I need to see how she is Andri needs us now she is suffering from all this,

- Yes, my love, I will take you to your sister's house so you can see her and pick up our daughter to go home, without you wanting to live in our apartment in the city center,

- I want to go somewhere other than our home I don't know if I will be able to live there again with the memories of our daughter there everything looks like her, "Yes, I know," he said, and that's why I asked his sister to get clothes to go to our apartment.

1 YEAR LATER

It had been a year and we were living in our apartment on Avenida do Cpa because it was a prime area of ​​the city, and it was close to Jack's company office and it was close to the school because after the accident I started to work more and never I would leave my daughter alone and not even go out alone if it weren't for me, she was already 11 years old, we were responsible for a church in a neighborhood. Jack was the leader of this congregation and the brothers loved us very much and gave us all affection and mine.

daughter sang more and more beautiful I was responsible for leading the group of sisters from the sub-sector of the sector the wave we congregated and helped Jack with the congregation, Everything was going well until I got sick with nerves, I was at the mall and I saw Jack sitting at a table talking to a girl, laughing more this time it was nobody who told me I saw it and it was not his cousin I had never seen her before and I didn't even get close to her secretary and said,

- Hi, I'm working, you guys, and at that moment he looked at me as if I were a being from the other world,

- Um, I think I'm working, but I'm sorry, the couple I was just passing by, and I turned around and left with tears in my eyes, practically running to the parking lot that day I had left my daughter at my mother's house and went buy a gift for Jack because it would be his birthday in three days, but the scene I saw was too much, I got in the car and saw that he was looking for me, but I bent down so he wouldn't see me I thought I'll disappear more where the idea of ​​going to New York came from, yes I'm not going to tell anyone I'm going to pick up my daughter and rent a jet.

After a while, I got up and saw that he was already going and leaves the car out of the parking lot more when he was leaving I saw the girl hand in hand with a boy and that I knew was his cousin the partner.

And I thought why I always suspect him, I'm going to call him, I took out his cell phone and on the first ring, he answered,

- Kris where you are is not at all what you are thinking...

- Jack I'm going home I wait for you there

- Okay, I'm going there, and so he hung up the phone, I got home the boss was making dinner,

- Sends everything alright?

- Everything is what you hear at home at this hour as a girl,

- Well, I saw Jack at a mall kiosk with a girl and then you didn't even see

- Kristina you will not disappear this time before talking to your husband,

- Do not worry, Madalena, he is coming home for us to talk,

- Thank God I will not need to leave hid with you running away, As soon as she spoke I heard Jack's voice,

- She will never do that again is not even kris.

- Look if I hadn't seen the girl with her cousin kissing outside the mall this time I would be a long way from that house with my daughter and you wouldn't find me easy, you know,

- Kris when you are going to learn that I love you that not even a woman in this world can make me happy, he spoke like this and approached me, kissing me hot, but then I remembered our daughter,

- Love, I need to pick up our princess at my mom's house,

- we are going to get her together, and she doesn't have to worry about dinner because we are going out to dinner today

- Plus Jack's dinner is almost ready my son,

-Place it in lunchboxes and have Lorenzo take it there at the bus station for those people who are under the overpass. Three days later it was my beloved husband's birthday, and I decided to surprise him at the company. I love you and happy birthday Jack Spatula,

So I went to the company with the excuse of paying a visit and not to mention that I always send flowers to him on his birthday more this time I exaggerated I ordered special flowers from Atibaia and made a bouquet with more than 5 dozen flowers counting on the roses and field flowers, imagine how big this bouquet should be delivered at lunchtime, When I arrived at the company I saw the girl who was the other day with Jack at the mall talking to Joli Jack's secretary, and I closed my face to her and greeted Joli

- Hi good afternoon Joli my dear my husband is there

- Yes Kris is and is very happy with the flowers you sent him and what flowers,

- And there were many I think I exaggerated in size and quantity, don't you think,

- No kris, I thought it was beautiful that one day I will receive flowers with Jack,

-Well the surprise just started,

- And there is even a sound car, that my mother hired so my daughter told her and I feel ashamed she laughed at me and said

- Our kris I never saw you ashamed, but then the girl decided to speak

- More usually it is not the man who sends flowers to women, I looked at her with a look that would kill,

- When we love, we do crazy things and it's not just a woman who receives flowers from a man, I also always gave flowers or roses to my beloved husband,

- And can you have a flower farm? Let's say the largest in the state of São Paulo, that's when I asked

- Joli who this creature please,

- I'm sorry this and Mari engaged to William

- Good and what is she doing here

- She works here and his secretary,

-One good I think I already wasted my time here I will enter, so I entered Jack's office who was sitting reading some documents on his desk,

-Hi my love, he stopped himself

- Then my lives you almost killed me here from the heart, and you looked me up and down and smiled from the corner of your mouth and asked,

- The one where my princess thinks she's going to be dressed like that, but Andri said

-Your princesses and father, I'm here, see,

- Little princess I didn't see you there

- And of course, you stay there drooling on my mother like a fool, this time I started to laugh at her talking to her father like that,

- Princess, how did you talk to your father,

- I just spoke the truth, and I heard a song playing loudly was our song

- Kris you didn't do what I'm thinking you did, I just said yes with my head, and he went out the window to look, at this time the plane passed throwing the papers written I love you and happy birthday Jack Spatula, I saw tears in your eyes and looked at me and smiled

,- After the flowers, I didn't think I would have any more surprises, I saw the door I sit open by Willian carrying the cake that he loves that I had made for him and everyone in the office came singing happy birthday and he opened his mouth

-Happy birthday and then the guy with the messages announced his name on the microphone calling his attention and so he stayed at the window and I went to hug him and our daughter also during the messages he cried a lot because the messages were beautiful.

After the messages I saw that everyone there was crying and my lover hugged me and kissed me,

- I love you my life and thanks for the surprise my beautiful,

- That was nothing you deserve my love more. Then we ate and the cake and went to a restaurant where my family was all to celebrate his birthday, and it was just a party.