Week 1

I don't know why it started but I couldn't deny the growing feelings I had for you. Seeing you in the corridors of school everyday smiling, laughing and occasionally annoying me on the way to lessons. You were cute and a lot more respectful than the other boys in our year. Year 10. They were 14 or 15 I can blame them for being so annoying but you were nice to me. You were perfect. Tall, funny, popular and at the time I thought you were handsome.

My friends knew I had a crush on you, actually I think half the year knew. They never understood what I saw in you but they supported me anyway. So after school finished I planned to tell you how I felt despite knowing you liked someone else.

School finished that day I had been at home for a while and you were at a sleepover with your friends. I picked up my phone and started typing.

'𝐡𝐞𝐲, 𝐰𝐞 𝐝𝐨𝐧'𝐭 𝐬𝐩𝐞𝐚𝐤 𝐨𝐟𝐭𝐞𝐧 𝐛𝐮𝐭 𝐢'𝐯𝐞 𝐥𝐢𝐤𝐞𝐝 𝐲𝐨𝐮 𝐟𝐨𝐫 𝐚 𝐰𝐡𝐢𝐥𝐞 𝐧𝐨𝐰. 𝐢 𝐤𝐧𝐨𝐰 𝐲𝐨𝐮 𝐥𝐢𝐤𝐞 𝐬𝐨𝐦𝐞𝐨𝐧𝐞 𝐞𝐥𝐬𝐞 𝐬𝐨 𝐢 𝐝𝐨𝐧'𝐭 𝐞𝐱𝐩𝐞𝐜𝐭 𝐚𝐧𝐲𝐭𝐡𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐟𝐫𝐨𝐦 𝐲𝐨𝐮 𝐢 𝐣𝐮𝐬𝐭 𝐧𝐞𝐞𝐝𝐞𝐝 𝐭𝐨 𝐠𝐞𝐭 𝐢𝐭 𝐨𝐟𝐟 𝐦𝐲 𝐜𝐡𝐞𝐬𝐭'

I sent it and sat waiting anticipation hoping you'd respond. You did. You told me you needed time to process it and that you didn't expect that from me. I was glad you didn't turn me down but nervous to see you in school the next day.

Eventually, the next day arrived and little did I know that when I confessed, you were surrounded by your boys who now knew.

You spoke to me more but whenever your crush came around you went cold. It stayed like that for a while. We would talk and laugh but whenever she came around you'd go blunt and leave me out. I couldn't blame you, you had a one sided crush just like me she was beautiful, popular and also my friend. For that reason I couldn't be mad at either of you. I caught feelings on my own. I just hoped you'd answer my confession soon.

After school that day me and her went the park, we had a great time as usual and after a long walk of laughter we sat on the bench to talk some more. There you were riding towards us on your bike. Your crush and the girl who likes you were right in-front of you. We said our hellos' and she asked what you thought of my confession. You said

'I don't really care to be honest.'

I felt a lump form in my throat and I laughed it off. Why were you so mean when she was around you could've just told

me you didn't like me and continued perusing her. You rode off and she was angry that you hurt my feelings. She'd never been the type to hide how she felt so that night she texted you and told you what you said was mean. You knew it too so the next day you apologised. You told me you were willing to give me a chance as you knew your crush wasn't reciprocated.

So we started talking.