After effects

The moment zombie hit the ground, I begin to freeze up I feel many emotions in second, disgust, fear, satisfaction, burning fighting spirit, sadness, happiness; it feels like I achieve something but I lost something too, it takes a minute for this particular feeling to go away, but the burning sensation still remain in my heart, I feel like three force clashing inside me one of them want me to kill and kill, another one wants me to flee hide of what I have done but the last one was what I really think is right it was cold sensation I feel will to continue but not explosive, it was like when I was in the river swimming it was felling that grew stronger when I fight misfortune after my bad luck a habit that becomes tree from seed in my life, the feeling grow stronger and stronger and finally it cool me, I blink my eyes and then look at zombie, right I must loot it I open its head, ah so disgusting and then take out blue orb in Centre, I don't want to touch it so I store it directly, I know I must adopt to this if I want to survive so I must continue this blood path, I rest 10 minutes and continue my hunting, another rock another zombie and another kill for me I store another orb this time I come to myself faster I kill total number of 10 zombies but I never felt this tired mentally and physically I find my way back home not that it was really much distance when I was home it was 1:23 pm I was hungry I take out some premade food and place it inside microwave close its door and on but it doesn't turn on, oh right I wouldn't have this luxury for while I get it out of microwave and use gas stove ah shit no gas can't get worse you know I couldn't wait any longer I take out my portable stove and turn it on or I think I did, ah goddam it doesn't have any more gas, i take out another gas capsule and change it and heat my food...

ah finally, when my stomach got full my mind start working but I shut it down because sleep always come first

6:23 pm

I woke up and look around, I see the sun is about to go home and Moon is starting its shift, turn on lights yeah it's that chargeable emergency lights I buy in the last shopping I use only two of them I don't know why but I feel safer this way, I review my battle with zombies and take note of anything important that comes to my mind, I train a little then eat one of zombies orb I feel like I eat ice it take about 15 minutes then it gone I look at my status and see my strength and reaction get 0.1 higher oh yeah it's like what I read in book monsters core can make people stronger but if it's with training it have better effect but body,doesn't use all of it and body have limited growth as well you can't eat 10 core and think you become super hero you become super zombie your sacrifice will be honored in death realm , as body grow it need more energy so more food more mana and more exercise is way, when I eat another core I feel full then exercise with my axe when I finished my exercise, I open my phone and see it, I look at to do list and get reward for 3 zombie mission and now I have E 15 well not much but better than I expected, I don't see anybody outside as I expected people don't go outside of there home or are already dead and join the dead I don't see many houses or important building or supermarket near my home , people have some food and are afraid of zombies and many think that army come for help but it takes some time for the Army to react and then they wouldn't help anyone for at last week and a half or maybe more, there may even be infighting or some solder groups flee and want to save their friends and families, which means when army is ready at last they lose about 60-70 % of their power half become zombie and myham in camps I don't like sound of it but that's how it is, I began training with my axe, I become better at it but I still have long way to go, I think about it and see if my chances are more in group, but I can't do things hastily first I must clear around my house then make path to nearby super market chance that I see people get more this way, some people may even get out of their homes to join me my best bet is that i say that I don't have much food and I go to super market and can't protect them much if they can battle their fears and come with me its good but if not it means that they become parasite,