What is Happening to me?

After Anurak returned to his room, he couldn't stay still. Confusion clouded his mind. From a very young age, he was told by his mother that his father cheated on his mum with another man. When Anurak discovered that he was attracted to some of his friends, he panicked and stopped hanging out with them. He would rather stay indoors with Sophea.

When Sophea confessed to him, he accepted to be in a relationship with her out of fear of what was happening to him, more than love. But as they took their relationship to the next level, he discovered that he really liked her, and his attraction to other boys reduced because of this. Gradually, he learned to ignore them, just like he would ignore other fine girls after a bit of appreciation.

He had everything under control until today.

What is happening to me?

Anurak grabbed his hair and tugged at it in frustration. A new kind of fear surged in his heart as he tried to convince himself that everything was fine. He wasn't gay and would never be gay.

This is just an accident. It will never happen again. I am not gay. I don't like men!

Anurak went to his fridge, brought out a bottle of wine, and started drinking straight from the bottle…

Meanwhile, had gone to town and was on his way back when he got a call from Sud.

"Where are you?" Sud asked in a solemn voice.

"Phi, I am not in school, but I am on my way back."

"What about Anurak?"

"He should be either at the gym or in his room."

"Did something happen to his phone? I have been calling him all morning."

"I don't know, Phi."

"Okay. When you see him, ask him to come see me immediately." Sud said with a solemn voice.

"Okay, Phi."

After ending the call, New tried to call Anurak but he wanted to pick it up. Not too concerned, he made his way to school, humming to the happy song playing on his radio.

When New got to the hostel, he knocked several times, but Anurak didn't answer. So he went to the gym to check on him. He was told by Mark that Anurak came but left not long ago.

Puzzled by Anurak's disappearance and having no idea where the boy could have gone, New called Sud to tell him that he too couldn't find Anurak. That was when he discovered that something was wrong.

"Phi, what do we do now?" New asked in near panic.

"Can you check the surveillance? Since he left the gym not long ago, maybe he didn't go to his room. Or maybe he was intercepted on the way to his room."

"Oh god!" New muttered as he broke into a cold sweat. "Okay, Phi, I will go check now."

He ended the call and ran to his room.

On getting there, he brought out a nondescript laptop from his wardrobe, opened it, and started tapping the keyboard at a fast pace.

Soon, the interface of the hostel's security cameras came up and New fast-forwarded it to the timeline given to him at the gym.

On four different screens, New watched as Anurak left the gym, got to the hostel, and walked towards his room before disappearing behind his door. He kept watching for a couple more minutes, but Anurak never left the room again.

New stood up worriedly and raced out of his room. He went back to Anurak's door and started banging on it without restraint.

"Anurak!!"

It was cloudy, and it was raining outside the window.

A 7-year-old boy was seated in the middle of his 3-foot bed with textbooks spread out in front of him. He was doing his assignments and was very absorbed in them when a loud banging sound disrupted his concentration. It was so loud that he got spooked and jumped with a yelp.

Following that sound was the angry voice of a woman. She was crying and yelling at the same time, drowning out the sound of the torrents.

"You bastard! Where do you think you are going? You useless faggot! I regret ever meeting you!…"

The longer the woman cursed, the harsher her words got. Then the boy heard a loud crash followed by a painful Shriek. Spooked by the shriek, the boy went pale in the face and bolted out of his room. He hurried through a short corridor and as he was about to enter the sitting room, he saw the back view of a tall man. The man walked towards the door, opened it, and entered the rain, banging the door again. The small boy was jumpy and couldn't resist quivering at the sound.

Even though he was scared, he didn't stop. He hurried into the sitting room and found his mother sprawled on the ground. Beside her was the center table, lying on its side, and everything that used to be on it was scattered all over the place.

"*Mæ!" (mother) He crouched beside his mother as tears escaped his pretty but pale face.

The woman tried to sit up but grimaced as pain shot through her body.

"My angel, I am fine. Don't cry. Mum is fine." She sniffed.

When she finally managed to sit up, she dragged herself up and rested her back against the couch behind her.

"Come here, Angel. Come to mummy."

The boy then crawled into her hands and she wrapped him in her embrace.

"Angel, listen to me. You can't be like your father, okay? You have to be a good man in the future. Furthermore, you can only have one wife, and you can't marry another man, okay. Promise mummy you will be a good husband to your wife. Promise mummy."

The woman buried her face in the boy's embrace as her body got rocked by her sobs.

"Mæ, I promise. Mæ, stop crying."

"Bang!bang!bang!"

The boy snapped his head up and looked at the door with fear in his eyes.

Did he come back?

"Anurak…bang bang… Anurak!"

The boy's face became bewildered as he left his mother's embrace to open the door.

The moment the door opened, New's jaws dropped.

Anorak was standing in front of him, but he seemed to be strange.

His eyes were out of focus and his face was pale from fear.

"Anurak?" New grabbed him. "What's wrong with you?"

Instantly, Anurak blinked, and his eyes became focused. He was confused when he saw New in his room.

"New?"

The moment Anurak opened his mouth, New took a step back. Anurak's breath was stinky and had landed directly on New's face.

New instinctively checked his time. It was just a few minutes past noon. How could Anurak be drinking at this time? He wasn't just drinking, he was drunk.

Anurak wobbled because New suddenly stepped away, but before he could fall, he gagged and covered his mouth.

He quickly turned around, but before he could even get to his bedroom door, he started vomiting. Unable to hold himself up, he dropped to the floor and kept vomiting.

Disgusted and shocked, New just stood at the door, watching him. For a few seconds, he didn't know what to do. But when he entered the room and saw the state of the sitting room, he was even more dazed.

Anurak's wrenching grunts quickly brought him back to his senses, and he hurried over to him. Seeing how Anurak had already messed himself up by vomiting on his own body, New knelt behind him and kept rubbing his back until he was done. Thereafter, he carefully carried him into the bedroom, and they went to the bathroom.

He made Anurak sit on the floor of the bathroom with his back to the wall, then opened the shower on him.

Thereafter, he then brought out his phone and dialed the concierge's office.

"Please, can you send a cleaner to room 108?" He asked the person on the other side.

"Yes, sir. One will come right up in five minutes."

"Thanks."

New ended the call and then stared at Anurak's sleeping face.

Anurak looked so at peace and pretty while sleeping. This wasn't the first time New would see him like this. So alluring and fragile…

But why was he drinking so early in the day? New mused to himself.

Realizing he couldn't take care of Anurak without getting wet, New removed his shirt and his pants so that all that remained was his boxers.

He got into the bathroom box and started removing Anurak's clothes.

It was a very difficult chore for him because he was soon aroused and was finding it hard to restrain himself.

Why are you doing this to me, Anurak? You are asking for it.

Being very intentional, New rinsed Anurak and carried him to the bed. He was tucking him in when a knock came on the door. He brought in the cleaner and told her what to do. Thereafter, he went back to the room where he finished tucking Anurak in before calling Sud.

"Phi, he is in his room sleeping," New said to Sud. His eyes stayed on Anurak's tranquil face as he spoke into the phone.

"Is he sick? Why is he sleeping at this time of the day?"

"Yes Phi. He has a little fever, and He is looking a little pale, but he should be fine when he wakes up, Phi." New didn't want to rat Anurak out, as he was sure Anorak would have a good reason for getting wasted in the middle of the day.

"Okay. Let me know when he wakes up then."

Okay, Phi."

After the call, New checked his phone. A message had dropped while he was on the call. It was from Faith, and it read: [Have you arrived?"]

[Yes.] New replied with a smile.

For the past three days, New and Faith had been meeting outside school, and having sex. Though he found Faith to be clingy due to the barrage of messages the guy sends him in a day, New felt it was cute. With Faith attending to his libido, New found it easier to look away from Anurak's allure.

When New finished with Anurak, he went to the sitting room to check on the cleaner. She was already down with the vomit and was picking up the scattered cans of beer.

When New scanned the cans, he found 12 empty and crushed cans of beer and a bottle of red wine.

When he realized that the bottle of wine was the one they were supposed to take to Sunny-Tracks the next day as a gift for Payu, New nearly cried. How could Anurak drink such an expensive wine like this? What a waste!

Shaking his head, New dropped into the three-seater and continued chatting with Faith on the phone. They were going to meet again tonight and New was looking forward to all the things Faith would do to him.

That boy is quite good. I wonder what Anurak is like in bed… No, I can't keep doing this. Anurak is just my friend.