Chapter .34.

Some say it's painful to wait for someone.

Some say it's painful to forget someone.

But the worst pain comes when you don't know

whether to wait or forget.

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Most mornings Jay woke up clinging to a pillow. Within his sleep he had somehow mistaken it to be her.

He went through his routines. Pack members greeted him, their eyes softly saying they were supporting him.

Jay had been startled at their love and devotion they shared to him. They came to him, one by one after the first months since she left. Pledging themselves to him. Most hated her. He regretted that. Regretted that their ill feelings clouded over the good she had done for the pack. None hated her more than Grace. The wolf's life she had saved. Jay knew that each day Grace's hate lessened, but in the beginning, Jay had to avoid her so he wouldn't listen to her angry growls, eyes that shifted and questions of what he was doing to get her back. Nothing.