I consider you a friend

I could always see the stars from my window, never thought I would be watching them with a demon.

I honestly dont know if i was supposed to care, or blink an eye when a demon started following me around. Accepting it was easier than worrying. They followed me to school, watched me while i was sleeping, and kept me company so getting rid of them wasnt necessary.

in fact, i even gave them a name. Natas, like the "birthday of god", ironic, right?

They have been following me around since new year, I don't know why i automatically started thinking of it as a demon, but what else could it be? An angel would be doing something good and helping me go a day without thinking of death, but this one didn't. They just existed in my prescene. There was no point in trying to communicate with it, either. It didn't answer or show any facial expressions, it was just there, waiting for something.

My friends didn't notice it even though it was following me around. They didn't notice it even though it was sitting beside them. And even if they noticed it, I don't think they cared. There was a demon following me around, but they didn't care. They didn't ask about it either. They ignored it like a mere joke. I wish they didn't.

What will they do when it eats me? When it kills me? When it takes me somewhere far away where I've always longed but never actually wanted to go? Will they ignore it? Or cry out in pain and agony for the loss of their so called "friend"?

Dont get me wrong, it might sound like my social life isn't that great, but in reality, I'm quite popular. I have alot of friend. I'm invited to every event, I'm far from a loner. Or that's what I tell myself. I have decent grades, and a family. But I still don't know why this demon follows me around.

When I'm sleeping I try to catch it doing something more human like. but it's always staring at me. It sometimes feels like they control my dreams, too. They are everywhere and I don't know how to get rid of them. I don't think I really want to either.

I don't want to admit it, but I mighte have fallen in love with them. The feeling of always having them around is kind of comforting. They never leave me or let me cry alone. They are always there. I just wish that Natas would would say something to comfort me, make me glad. But no, they never talk. I suppose it's better than leaving.

I sometimes see them in myself while looking in the mirror and even if I can't point it out, the feeling makes me shiver, maybe with sadness. But it makes me feel something.

I've never been late since they started following me around. Odd enough, they wake me up. Not with yelling, hitting or any physical contact. But they do. My life hasn't gotten better with them around but it did get easier. I never worry about simple stuff anymore. I hope it stays that way. I don't run late, spill any food, tell secrets unintentionally, get into fights, trip, or hurt myself.

I don't know when they will leave, or when they will say something, i just know that they are there. Always.