Chapter 43

We are here at the birthday party. Dressed in yellow into my knee. I just wear a simple dress because of my best friend birthday celebrant with a candy in her mouth, coming to our direction with Lucas.

"Happy Birthday!" I greeted and gave her a silver necklace with a box. It was her favorite things and wear necklace everyday.

"Thank you best friend. Congrats sa inyo ng baby ninyo ng Pinsan ko." Natutuwang sabi nya at hinawakan pa ang tyan ko na para bang mararamdaman nya iyon.

"Happy Birthday Couz, a simple earrings and watch will do." Bati naman ni Lucas at ibinigay ang regalo sa kanya.

She thanked him with a dramatic action before guide us with the tables. Iilan lang ang dumalo at halos kilala namin ang lahat at kasama sa Table tulad nina Irish, Nicole, Desiree, Xyria and Veil. Kasama ang asawa nila with a 10 seats.

"Wow ang engrande naman ng Birthday Celebration, para kasal." Nagtawanan ang lahat sa sinabi ni Irish maski ako ay natawa ng palihim sa sinabi nya.

"Ganon talaga sis, 23th birthday, pagbigyan ang babaita. Iyan na nga lang ang walang boyfriend o asawa sa atin."

Irap ni Nicole na katabi si Aldrei Scott na asawa nya pero hindi kasama ang mga anak nila.

Nagkatinginan kami when desiree started to speaked. "Love can wait though, she's still young with her age and maybe she's enjoying her life without anyone or boys around her. Let her, decided what she wants to do."

Matapos magsalita ni Desiree ay halos wala nang usapan pa tungkol kay Krisha, she's right. Pero alam mo naman na they are joking around but Desiree take it seriously so I can't blame her because she's not taking joke.

"How are you, Chloe? Tagal mo nang hindi nagparamdam anong balita?" Kinabahan agad ako sa tanong ni Nicole lalo na nang magsitinginan sila sa amin ni Lucas.

I gently touch my tummy before I talked. "Uh.. Busy-"

"-She's pregnant." Lucas cut me off and I closed my eyes immediately before I take a deep breathe becausse of shocked I felt.

I still didn't know why he surprised me by his words. Sometimes he is the person who is straight to the point but sometimes not. Napahigpit ang hawak ko sa kamay nya nang magulat ang lahat except for Krisha, dahil malakas ang kutob ng babae na yon that's why sya ang unang naka alam.

Si Irish ang unang nagsalita. "Kailan pa? Pati ilang weeks kana?" Na e-excite na sabi nya habang nakatingin sa akin habang ang asawa nya ay seryoso lang na nakatingin sa kanya.

"7 weeks." I smiled at them uncomfortably.

"Gender ng baby?" Kasunod namang nagtanong si Xyria kaya si Lucas na ang sumagot para sa akin.

"Just our instinct, maybe a boy. 7 weeks isn't enough to know the gender of our future baby, so we have a plan to blood test so we can know it as early." I can feel his excitement and caressing my tummy. I felt the butterfly through my tummy and make a small smile on my face.

I really can't wait to see our baby, and just to make sure, he will leave peace in this world before he came out.

I emotionally hugged them before we go home because of the happiness I felt. Hindi ko alam kung bakit naiiyak ako kahit ang alam ko ay masaya lang ako. Maybe, a tears of joy will be. Minsan pa ay mawala lang si Lucas kapag kinakausap nila ako ay hinahanap ko na sya agad.

I really can't live without him by my side. I was happy and proud, to myself and to him because he fixed my broken heart not knowing that I fell for him unexpectedly so I'll risk everything to make sure that this will be worth it until the end.

Months pass by and it was my five months when Lucas is always busy. Palagi syang wala sa condo niya at hindi ko alam kung bakit. I also answering hans calls and he know everything too to be exact, he decided to not involving me about the plan of organization.

[I'll make sure our boss will agreed if I'll let you out in this dangerous place.]

He said one time like he was sure and know what he's doing. Kakaunti lang ang nakaka alam at walang pinagsabihan si Hans non. Kaya hindi rin ako nagkamali ng pagtitiwala sa kanya kahit na hindi pa rin matanggal ang pagdududa nya kay Lucas.

I woke up in another day without him in bed. When my tears are falling in my face before reached my cellphone to contact him.

"Can you go home tonight? I'll miss you." Sabi ki agad sa kanya habang pinipigilan ang luha na lumalabas. I shouldn't be emotional.

[Of course, are you craving for something? ] He asked me like there's nothing wrong for me to worry about him.

Sinabi ko sa kanya lahat ng gusto ko and I'm so happy because he stepped inside with a wide smile. Lumuhod sya sa harapan ko and kissed my tummy before talking to our baby.

It's my favourite moment with him to do the things like that. I was so happy, happy that I didn't know there will be a last met because after that, he's gone without me knowing and I didn't contact him anymore.

Last time I cried so hardly. Nanghihina at nangungulila sa presensya nya when I saw his photos with me. Hans rushed me in the hospital because of unexpectedly sensitive pregnancy.

I had a backpain and head ache after crying for an hour. Si Hans ang nag asikaso sa akin nang malaman nya ang lahat na hindi na nagpaparamdam si Lucas. But he leave immediately because of work.

I was in the condo, alone but I was shocked when France stepped in kaya napatayo ako ng may pag ingat. "What are you doing here?"

"Luh eto naman natakot agad." Natawa sya. "wag kang mag -alala alam ito ng asawa ko kaya babantayan muna kita ngayon." Inalis nya ang sapatos nya at kinuha ang slippers doon habang dala ang nasa plastik na pagkain.

Hindi ko sya pinansin at napa irap nalang. Nakita nya iyon kaya natawa sya. I didn't know how to act normaly with him. Hindi nga yata kami nakapag usap noong huli, nakakahiya din ang mga pinagsasabi ko noon sa kanya.

Tinabihan nya ako kaya umurong ako ng kaunti para bigyan ng space pagkaupo ko while guiding my tummy.

"Ok ka lang ba?" Nagulat pa ako ng hawakan nya bigla ang noo ko kaya napakunot ang noo ko sa kanya.

Inismiran ko sya bago sumagot. "Bakit hindi?"

Tumawa sya sa reaksyon ko bago nagtaas ng dalawang kamay. "Chill ka lang eto naman parang walang pinagsamahan. Oh ito daw yung gusto mong kainin sabi ni Hans kaya ako na ang bumili."

Napalunok ako ng maamoy ko ang bihon na may kasamang take out na pizza. Magkahiwalay iyon pati cookies and cream na Ice Cream kaya napangiti ako.

Nahuli nya akong natatakam kaya natawa sya. "Umupo kana lang dyan, pagsisilbihan muna kita."

Naghintay ako ng ilang minuto bago nya ako binigyan ng plato na may tinidor. Kaya kumain na ako ng pansit pero nakaramdam ako ng init sa dila ko. I saw him panicked because of my reaction kaya kinuha nya ang plate and he blow the food before giving me a fork.

Umirap pa ako bago padabog na kinuha yon. "Thanks." I said sarcastically.

"Please, ayoko mapaglihian Chloe. Baka ako pa maging ama ng anak mo." He said without looking at me but he smiled a little.

Asa naman syang paglilihian ko sya? Lucas is enough for me. Katahimikan ang bumalot sa amin at tanging ingay ng plato lang ang maririnig.

"Bakit naman kita paglilihian? Stop being assuming. Hindi nakakaganda."

"Stop being bitter, tapos na yon and I'm happy for you." Pang aasar nya kaya inirapan ko sya.

I didn't know what to say because I don't feel a heavy heart anymore. Maybe, I loved him, but my feelings for Lucas are genuine. Kahit kailan, hindi ko kinuwestyon ang sarili ko noong minahal ko sya, hindi ako kailanman nagalit dahil wala syang ginagawang rason para mag away kami.

I have a faith with him and kung nasaan man sya ngayon. I hope he is safe, he need too. He need to see our baby after chaos.