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Her body slowly disappeared into the thin air. There are words coming out of her mouth. She's saying something, but I can't hear it because of the sound of the police siren. It was a day that I will never forget for the rest of my life.

"Absquatulate."

a long time ago, before the incident.

I'm just a girl born without a father. He left us right after my mom gave birth to me. My mom's life became miserable, as if she had lost her mind. She works two different jobs to earn a living. Since I was a kid, she has never talked to me. Probably because my existence in this world is the reason why that man left her. She thought of me as the bringer of bad luck.

"Did something happen? Tell me if something bothers your mind."

And this is Aysel. My only friend and the only person I trust. We've been close since we were in the kindergarten.

"Nothing."

"I've known you for 13 years,Estelle. You better not lie to me."

"Let's go. It's break time."

"Huh."*Sigh

Cafeteria.

"You know that guy from the next class?"

"Which one?."

"What do you mean by "which one," as if I changed my boyfriend every day."

"Well, Yes."

"Ugh. Whatever. He asked me out, but I turned him down."

"Again? It's the fifth time you've turned someone down. Just because of him."

"Of course. I'm such a loyal person, you know.."*Proud

"Loyal my feet. Wake up girl, you're loyal to someone that didn't even know your existence."

"Hey, at least I can see him every day."

"Creeps."

"Say that again, I'll sell you to the thrift store."

After school.

"Let's karaoke!."

"Nope,not today. I have something to do."

"C'mon, it's all on me."

"It's a good deal, but thanks. Let's go another time."

"Huh... Well, I guess I have no other choice then. See you tomorrow!"

"See you tomorrow."

If I can turn back time,I swear I'll go with you. It's the worst decision I've ever made. Leaving you alone. Turned you down. I never imagined that day would be the last day we'd meet. There is no tomorrow for you. You disappear. Forever.

It's been three months without you. I don't know why I feel this pain in my heart. It's not bleeding, but it hurts. Remembering your warm smile breaks my heart. My only friend. Why? Why did you leave me? You promised me you'd never leave me, no matter what happened. This is all my fault. If I never leave you alone that day..No..If I never born into this cruel world.. You must be alive now. Right?. There's no reason for me to stay alive. This life is meaningless without you. I tried my best, but I couldn't. Aysel, We will meet soon. Wait for me.

On this rainy day. I decided to end this pain myself.