PURE

"I already told you Mackenzie, he's not important." I furrowed my eyebrows at Nathaniel's aloof response. He kept a serious face but clenched his jaw and I notice the back of his jaw become more defined.

"I'm just worried, I don't know how you feel, so when you look at something like that, I just can't imagine it's something good." Nathaniel laughs through his nose and shakes his head smiling.

"Nobody knows what anybody is feeling, the happiest person could be the most depressed and the calmest could be the angriest." He smiles gently, and my heart skiped a beat. I sit up fast and my face gets hot.

"You don't understand."

"I want to." I look at Nathaniel with a red face, him thinking I'm angry. "Fine then I'll tell you who M is if you help me understand. Deal?" He lifts his hand and I shake it.

After the shake I take a deep breath and cross my legs. Nathaniel and I get comfortable then I start. I told him everything. About how my mom thought I was bipolar, and my dad leaving my mom and how I felt all the emotions, how I was home schooled since 7th grade, how I can only be myself when I'm on stage and that Nathaniel is the only one, I can't feel their emotions.

Nathaniel was understanding he tapped my shoulder and then started to fidget with his thumbs. He bit his lip and then looked at me.

"I've never told anybody this, but we made a deal. M's name is Markus. He and I used to hang out in highschool, then he found out I was gay and as a homophobe he started to beat me up. To this day he still harrases me and calls me names, and because of my fame, I can't get away. He comments it on the web or texts me through social media, somehow he even finds my number and calls me directly." As he's talking I stare at his lips paying attention but finding myself losts in his movements. I snap out of it and comfort him. I lay my head on his shoulder.

"Even in fame, you can't escape your troubles." Nathaniel smiles and sigh's.

"There's more to my story." He crawls to the back of my bed and flips the covers over his large body, his feet still hanging off. I follow him under the covers. "But I'm not ready to tell you that just yet." He shoves his head into the pillow and takes a deep breath through his nose. I lie down and look at Nathaniel wondering what he was feeling.

"What are you feeling right now?" I asked. He looks at me and smiles. "Happy." Then he shuts his eyes. A warm feeling surrounded me and Nathaniel, he was happy truly happy, and I felt it. On a whim I hug Nathaniel. And the feeling of happiness gets stronger. "I can feel it, I think I can only feel it when you feel pure emotion." Nathaniel smiles and hugs me back.

"You sound crazy, you little freak." Usually those words would hurt me but I was too bombarded by the overwhelming but amazing feeling of happiness, to care. I fall asleep holding Nathaniel. Without relizing it Nathaniel falls asleep instantly aswell.

My mom woke my up and once my eyes were open all I could see was Nathaniel's gray shirt. My head was cuddled up to his chest and we didn't move an inch all night. Nathaniel was still sleeping and had his arm holding my back. I was embarrased but my mom's emotions gave me the feeling of pride.

"Mom, don't be proud, we fell asleep and don't give me that look." I whispered trying not to wake up Nathaniel.

"I'm aloud to be happy and proud, you were cuddled up to him that means you are able to be around him, does he have control over his emotions?"

"Actually it feels like he emotionless. I know he's not but the only time I feel them, is when its pure and raw."

"Maybe he's your soulmate, and this is why god gave you this gift. So on your path the he carved for you, you could meet him." She said pointing at Nathaniel. I roll my eyes and gently move his arm off of me. From the movement he let me go and turned around stealing all the covers. My mom found that cute so I did too.

"Mom, I know you don't like it but I'm an atheist, I don't believe in soulmates, god or paths. I make my own decisions, and I choose to be straight." I said leaving the bed. "Mom. Stop being disapointted and give me the neet, perfectly planed schedule for my birthday." She smiles and hands me the schedule.

My mother is a control freak, she want control over everything in her life and she does, ever since my father left.

She gives me the schedule and I read through it. Nathaniel wakes up and looks over my shoulder to see the paper. He steals it from my hands and looks at my mom. "Mrs. Barnes, did you make this? It's perfect, you even planned how long the rides are going to be." My mom blushes and cover her mouth in embarrasement.

"Oh please, I just did it on a whim." She says laughing. The truth is she's probably been planning this since christmas, since all our plans were canceled last time because of a snow storm.

"Wow, it's even better than my schedules." Nathaniel said buttering her up. It was working, my mom was already swooning over him, infact both of my moms were. "Do you think you could give me some tips during the rides?" My moms eyes light up. "Yes, Mackenzie has never been interested in these things, I'd love to show you."

There it starts, the moment my mom fell inlove with my best friend, the Nathaniel Jax, of the famous band MNKS. 'I'm not going to survive this trip.'