Serious Talks

I smiled in wonder as I looked around the little piece of Eden Edythe had brought me to.

Lush vegetation and trees that curved inward to made arches with other trees over the clearing littered the place, with a small pond-like body of water in the middle which was connected to a bigger body of water which had a natural-weir flowing into it from a river which came from further up the mountain.

If it weren't for the fact Forks was a gloomy place, which had limited sunshine and warmth I was sure this place would blossom into something even more wonderful and majestic.

Finally, I looked down to Edythe and squinted my eyes in happiness as my smile spread even further across my face, "This place is beautiful, Edy..." I said breathlessly, "I won't ask how or when you found it, but I will say this - thank you."

"For what?" she looked at me with a 'Really?' expression.

Letting my face return to neutral, I just smirked in reply, "For showing me such a wonderful sight. I'm sure I'd have never found this on my own," with this I slowly walked into the clearing before finding a big enough rock for the two of us and sitting down on it.

Edythe followed me over and sat down next to me, and silence reigned between us for a few moments. Not an awkward silence but a relaxing one - we were taking in the wonderful surroundings with all our enhanced senses.

I've never appreciated the smell of wood and vegetation this much until this very moment...but it honestly does add to the beauty of the visual sight.

"So, Edy," I started, "What is this thing you've been meaning to tell me about?" I curiously said as I leaned back into the rock we were sitting on and let myself soak up what little light did get through the tree's canopy.

Edythe went stock still, obviously forgetting about her acting which was second nature by this point. By acting, I mean vaguely human movements, like breathing - moving her shoulders up and down - , shifting about where she's sitting and generally just moving like an animate, alive being.

She has to actively act like this because as a Vampire, she technically doesn't have to move, like at all. This could pose problems if anyone who actually looks at them for a long period and sees their actions, or lack thereof, before bringing up their weird non-moving nature. Which would get the Volturi involved.

But within seconds, her acting kicked back in and she looked more like a human being than a statue again. Though she definitely looked much stiffer than before.

"I want to tell you about the time I and my brother rebelled against Carlisle, about how I wasn't always a vegetarian Vampire," she got out in a grim-sounding voice but as she went to carry on she was stopped by my raised hand and cut off by what I said in reply.

"Does it matter, Edy? You're trying to instill some kind of fear into me, but I'm gonna tell you now - it won't work," I cheerfully said before carrying on, "Despite what you think, you probably couldn't kill me. I may even prove to give you a run for your money, Edy," I said, hiding the truth that this was only currently. Give me a week and a few days and I'd be more than enough of a match for her, as in, I'd be stronger.

Edythe stopped for a second before looking at me with furrowed brows and eyes that squinted as they scanned over my face, looking for any discrepancies in what I said.

She seemed to find none. Though that didn't stop her from carrying on with her previous thoughts.

"But you don't understand, Alexander, I--!" I once again cut her off with a smile.

"You killed people for sustenance. Though knowing you, you probably used your telepathy to read their minds and then preyed on the murderers and rapists of society, right?" I laughed lightly seeing her shocked and confused face before carrying on, "Plus, if I judged you for killing people, wouldn't I be a hypocrite? I don't really wanna be one of those."

Edythe didn't go quiet this time and instead asked me a question hastily.

"How? How did you know that's what I did?" her voice was slightly shaky but overall it was calm but curious. Some would even say slightly interrogating.

Shrugging my shoulders I answered her with a casual tone, "Well, I made an educated guess. You're a nice person - kind and compassionate - otherwise, you wouldn't insist on trying to warn me about yourself, and you have Telepathy which can look at people's thoughts on the surface level. So I put two and two together and figured you'd go after people thinking about killing someone," I continued to look at the scenery surrounding us but kept an eye on Edythe who was seemingly getting frustrated with my stubbornness.

Huh. Guess it runs in the family? Stubbornness in the Swan Family, that is.

Just as I was about to speak, Edythe spoke with a serious tone. So serious and fragile that I didn't dare interrupt her.

"Listen, Alexander!" she yelled but it didn't feel like it had any force behind it, it sounded delicate, like a thin ceramic plate, "You don't understand..." she spoke with a desperate voice, "You just don't understand..." she stood up and stood in front of me before leaning down to be face-to-face with me, "You don't understand my infatuation with you, with your scent, with the thought of drinking your blood!" her topaz eyes looked at me like I was meat and it scared me slightly.

But slightly was about it.

Leaning forward, I went to speak but Edythe carried on, cutting me off, "I want so dearly to drain you dry of blood, to savor the feeling, the taste of your blood...I want it so badly, Alexander," her voice was straining with desperation at this point and I prepared myself to act if it so came to that. She, unaware of my preparations carried on, "You're like my personal brand of heroin, only for me! Do you understand what that's like? Being by you is like being next to the thing you desire the most in the world but having to hold yourself back because it wouldn't be right to do what you want!?" she scoffed, seemingly annoyed at this entire situation.

I just sat there, listening, and when she stopped I decided I could remedy this. So, I did and pulled her into a hug.

"Then do it, Edy. But I believe in your self-control and the fact that you wouldn't kill me. You're not selfish like that," I spoke in a soft voice and Edythe went stiff in my embrace.

She stayed stiff for a few more seconds before she scoffed at what I'd just said, "I'm not selfish? If I wasn't selfish, I'd have stayed away from you, Alexander...I'd have stayed away for your safety instead of sticking around you and getting infatuated with you, putting you in danger..." despite her words, her arms snaked around my back and she tightly hugged me.

So tight, in fact, that my bones felt like they were being bent. But that's beside the point.

I just hugged her while she complained, not feeling the need to speak - she just needed me to listen at this point. But this would soon show itself to be a bad decision.

"I...I, I just can't stay away...and I know I can't be with you," she croaked as I saw her face morph into one of sadness as she pushed away from me, exiting my embrace. This caused me to pause and look at her with genuine confusion. Her face was so sad, if she was physically capable, I was sure she'd have tears pouring down her face. The fact they were absent only seemed to amplify her sad look, however.

Seeing my confusion, Edythe's face morphed into a face of slight condescending, "Do you really think I was worried my brother would hurt those people? He stays in close proximity to his Singer daily without killing her - I'm sure he could control his anger. Especially with Bella there...Alexander I was there for that entire night...f-following you..." her voice was both saddened and embarrassed now and I felt my chest tighten up, feeling like a kid caught with his hand in the cookie jar.

I guess my panic must have shown on my face as when I was about to talk, Edythe covered my mouth with her hand before gently smiling down at me, "It's okay, Alexander, you don't need to explain it to me. You've found someone similar to you and you feel yourself falling into the throes of romance - you don't have to stop just because you're my singer and I happen to feel something for you as well. It's okay, I'll understand."

Despite saying this, her face was full of grief and her eyes had gone from their usual medium gold color to a more dark and grim black-gold color. These dark eyes were full of a negative sadness that stabbed at my heart.

But I didn't know what to say.

In my silence, Edythe just looked at me, a deeply hidden affection present in her eyes along with the sadness.

"I just wished I'd have been able to meet you earlier, Alexander...Maybe then I'd have been able to love you and have you love me back...Alas, life is never so fair, is it?" her face formed a weak smile which crushed me. The feelings of guilt, though her feelings were neither of our faults, hit me like a ton of bricks.

As I went to say something, Edythe backed away, shaking her head, "Don't say anything, Alexander. I've made my mind up...We should probably stop talking to one another before something bad happens," her words rung through me like the deafening tolls of a church bell but she carried on, "I'm sorry to be cutting your lessons short but I believe this is the best course of action to take. For both our sakes."

And with this, she ran off, bolting away like a piece of lightning. I couldn't even follow her with my senses, nor did I want to. Nor could I.

My knees felt weak and I doubt I'd be able to stand.

Thinking about how my own lust had caused this, I felt an ember of anger spark to life in my heart. The anger gave me back the ability to stand but I didn't chase after Edythe, no, instead I just kept asking myself.

Why?

Why am I like this? Why did I have to hurt her so much?!

Wouldn't it be better if I could just pick one?!

Why?!

In a burst of anger, I sent my fist through a near rock, cracking it in half and crumbling the majority of the top into pebbles. But feeling it wasn't enough, I grasped into the rock with my claws and yanked the rock bigger than a standing human out of the ground before throwing it at the trees opposite me.

"WHY?!" I roared in anger and anguish, both of them mixing to make quite a potent yet volatile emotion inside myself.

It seemed to start a whirlwind inside of me as I charged about the clearing destroying and shredding everything in my way. Trees, rocks, bushes, even just the ground, none of it was safe from my current rampage.

You don't know how much something meant to you until it packs up and leaves. For all I know, she could be off to another country for the next decade. For all I know, I and she could never be in any positive relationship ever again.

Such thoughts only spurred on my rage as I ripped the surroundings apart.

This destruction wasn't out of spite, however, and somewhere in my brain, I understood Edythe's reasoning: She wanted to give me space to be with Leah, nor did she want to bring the end to a possibly successful and budding relationship.

But the pure, stinging, pulsating pain in my chest was just so...mind-numbing.

I...I just didn't know how to cope with something I thought I'd have for an eternity, a relationship of some kind with Edythe, taken away from me before we'd even gotten started.

Calming down, my anger gave way for just sadness and I finally got a look at the results of my anger.

Carnage. Pure, utter, Carnage.

The previous beauty of clearing was gone, and now it looked like a vicious animal or a bomb had been dropped on it. Trees were uprooted and clawed in half, with some of the luckier ones only missing chunks of their bark and precious wood. Rocks cracked in half or crushed into pebbles and scattered around the place. The ground was kicked up and most of the grass had been torn from the ground.

Even the weir had a massive rock speared into it, causing the water of the entire river to split into two different streams which if left how it was, would eventually develop two different wells of water.

Looking at this destruction I laughed with disgust in myself.

This.

This is what I am. Blind rage so fervent that I destroy the precious little things in life - Edythe showed me this and I destroyed it when she called me out on my bullshit and left.

No wonder she left.

I felt most emotions drain from my face, it not being an active decision by me, and I just started to feel so very tired. I needed sleep and right now, all I want is the sweet unconscious bliss sleep would give me. I need to get away from the emotions raging inside of me for a while.

Feeling rather upset with everything, including my own actions, I trudged away with little effort in my steps, I brought my hand up to catch a tear in my eye before flicking it away with disdain. I shouldn't cry.

I will fix this. I have to.