3 - Daylight

The waters engulf me,

As the darkness surrounded me,

As I drown, I thought to myself, this is it.

I'm about to give up

Give up everything I fighted for

This slow torture brought me back to my senses.

I need to think straight

I need to act fast

I need to breathe.

As I willed myself to go up,

to light, to life, to air....

I awakened to my truth

It's worth it to fight

It's worth to be happy

It's worth it to live.

But I wondered, do they appreciate me?

Or am I some kind of pawn

Only recognized if someone wanted to use me

I felt alone in the dark

I never felt such freedom,

My peace of mind and my freedom, all gone

I even wondered what would happen if I die?

Would someone cry or even laugh?

Would someone even worry or maybe someone doesn't even care that I ended my own existence.

And would someone even remember me after all those years that I was gone?

In my mind, someone said, "No one will remember you for the rest of their lives. Their so-called sweet words were just a facade. You need to go."

But in my heart, my conscience speaked. And that was enough reason to live again. Conscience.

I had the courage to go up and finally I was up in the surface.

I am in the raging seas full of angry, tall waves and stormy clouds

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And I woke up,

Realizing that I am still trapped in my own delusions.

My mentality is a fight between angels and demons

My mentality contains a dark storm inside it.

But I don't need to worry about it.

Because I have the hope that someday. Somehow. Somewhere.

I will finally see daylight.