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I'm tired...
I'm so tired...
I'm drinking my tired heart out inside my house. The darkness filled the room with the moon illuminating through my windows while I let out a big sigh.
I thought I finally made it through.
I thought I was fine now, but I guess I'm not.
I buried myself at work just to forget all those hardships and disappointments in life.
I'm not even an orphan, but I feel like I have no family.
I treasured all my friends even more than my family, but they all still left me.
I guess I'm too dependent on them.
What a trash life!
damn it!
I know I should've loved myself.
I thought I did, but I guess I didn't.
I'm not insecure in any way; I'm fairly decent.
I've got the looks, the smarts, and am kind of well off...
Ugh, just fuck it.
I despise hypocrites and fakes.
I won't say I'm kind, and I also won't say I'm bad-natured.
My friends told me I was a demon, but at the same time, I was not.
I just love to do what I want and not bother with what others say.
It's them who always want to pick a fight, yet they're too weak when I confront them.
how troublesome...
I don't like it. I hate bothersome things, and I hate being bothered.
Is what I want too much?
I just want family and real friends.
I guess it's always like this if you come from a broken family...
I let out a deep sigh while thinking i rant like a kid.
I cried my drunken heart out until I fell asleep.
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As I woke up, I saw the blinding light.
A woman is caressing me warmly while she's crying and saying it's alright.
ugh, my eyes, it keeps on closing
Then I fell asleep again.
I woke up again and started to wonder.
Damn, I feel like I know this.
I saw my small hands while I tried to wave.
hah. Even though I prayed to redo my life when I just graduated from college, I didn't think it would be like this.
I just hope I don't have to be a hero of some sort, some kind of noble, or a member of royalty.
That would be so troublesome if I did.
I feel like I'm being shameless right now...
Even so, I thank whoever did this to me, but I'm going to do what I want in this life, so please don't bother me.
I clasped my hands in prayer.
I didn't give much care to what's happening to me right now, as I knew it would be the same as those in novels.
All I care about is that this woman who is looking at me right now with a warm smile might be my mother.
I wonder if it will be the same, though.
My previous life, I mean.