For I Am A Fallen God

Groaning while cursing my shitty ass memory only for that cool feeling to reappear calming me. Releasing a heavy sigh, I glanced to the side and saw she was breathing steadily seemingly asleep making me somewhat speechless

' weren't you being chased down and nearly died? ' I screamed internally at how unguarded she was before I released another sigh before I closed my eyes and started to think about what I'll do from now on

The system already gave me all the basics I'd need to know about this world to not be a total noob so I highly doubt she who I assumed to be a 'little village girl' can give me any relevant information. So the places that I believe would have that information I'd need status and money to even know where they are

So my first step would be to gain money then with money find ways to increase my subordinates then from there I'd have to find a way to gain a worthwhile status

I say this but even compared to the typical cultivation reincarnator/transmigrator , I currently suck ass, they might reincarnate in the family trash but at least they are in some city and not in the middle of nowhere. That and they have some sort of support whether it was the mysterious female childhood friend, the neighborhood fatty or some relative. This body didn't even have memories, the only thing I know is it's name

' if I was born in a family like that even if it was the lowest of the low I'd have a way easier chance of gaining subordinates

' wait I'm speaking of this but do I even have a goal in this world ' my eyes shot open as I thought to there. I'm not some bullied protag, I have no need to pursue strength so I can have revenge, I don't even have an overpowered nemesis that stole my childhood love and I have to get her back

I have nothing.....

What do I want? I seriously pondered this question repeatedly in my mind. Power? outside of being a bit sadistic when playing games I have no urge to rule over the masses so becoming a king is out. Money? what the point of having something like this in abundance when I have no strength to protect it. Sex? I have a system that can make someone completely loyal to me, if I ever went down that road nothing could stop me from having an imperial harem...

Wait...why do I have to choose? I've always been a greedy person so why should I have to pick only one option? I have the chance to do anything in the literal sense .....the only thing holding me back from achieving it is myself

" Hahahahahahaha goals? who needs them? what I want is the power to walk unhindered no matter where I go, power to do what I want when I want and now one can tell me otherwise " I laughed maniacally as I pictured it all in my mind only for my smile to stiffen when I heard a soft voice coming from beside me

"...not to interrupt but are you okay ?" stiffly turning my head towards her as if the joint in my neck were rusted I was met with a pair of emerald eyes with barely hidden concern making the excuse I made get stuck in my throat\

I only awoke from my daze when I felt her warm breath on my face, coughing slightly I gave her a slight smile before I stood up suddenly surprising her causing her to stumble back only for me to catch her by her waist causing our bodies to mash together causing me to feel her overly large brea.....

Coughing once more to clear my thoughts, I gently released her from my embrace while trying to not let my true thoughts show on my face before I spoke

"are you okay, is there anywhere that hurts " I asked even though I knew that she was completely healed but she didn't know that so it doesn't matter. She stared at me silently for a period of time before she suddenly burst into tears and hugged me tightly making me confused before I remembered

She was staring right at me, it slipped my mind that she was blind before and now she's healed of course she'd break down. Releasing another sigh I slid down against the wall while holding her in my embrace as she sobbed while I and stroked her back while softly telling her it's okay now....

I don't know how much time passed but I could no longer hear her crying so I pushed her away gently before I made her look at me. Before I could speak I heard a soft thank you making me smile as she silently stared at me

" what your name ? " I asked after I saw that she calmed down, it may be my enhanced perception but when I asked I could have sworn that her eyes dimmed somewhat making me wonder if I asked something that I shouldn't

" I don't have one " she said softly after a while, all this time her eyes never left my face making me glad that the system forcibly keeps me calm but when I heard her reply I couldn't help but frown and it only deepened when I saw the indifference at her own situation in her eyes

" if you wanna talk about, I'm always here to lend you a ear " I said not wanting to dredge up any uncomfortable memories, she just stared at me once more before she gave a small nod. When I was about to stand I felt her grab my hand causing me to raise an brow and look at her questioningly

" who are you? I may have been out of it but I knew that I wouldn't have survived the night. Not only did you heal me, you also cured my blindness and healed my body so I can cultivate. None of those things are capable of being done by a normal person especially in a few hours "

For one I was shocked because I didn't even know that she was capable of forming full sentences, second I just realized how eye catching my actions were, causing a frown to find it's way unto my face, if I didn't know that she was completely loyal to me I'd consider silencing her to keep what happened here under wraps

That and her question brought me to another dilemma, my identity. What am I? I can't tell her I'm a normal person since she'd have to be completely brain dead to believe it. I can just order her to not question my identity but it's gonna come up sometime in the future. Not like I can say I have a system that healed you

Glancing at her deeply, I had a serious expression adorning my face as I did, her expression didn't change but I could see the nervousness in her eyes giving away her inner turmoil

" I am a fallen God " I said with no change in expression as I watched her eyes and mouth widen in surprise, before she could speak I continued " I was betrayed and besieged by several of my enemies and when I thought I had died I woke up in this mortal plane a few hours before you stumbled into here. Using a bit of the power I managed to save, I blessed you as my subordinate, thereby healing you of any and all injuries " her expression became more and more awe struck the more she listened while internally I was trying my hardest not to cackle out

" this can be proven by the bear symbol in you neck " I said as I pointed to the crest that I picked as I was telling her my story " that day thought be that one persons strength can only take you so far, so I plan to train subordinates to help me on my journey as I regain my strength " I said with a look of longing on my face

' I should have been an actor ' I thought as I saw her clench her fist in determination as she had her hand over the crest

" follow me " I ordered before I turned and walked out of what's left of the building finally taking in my surroundings and the only description I find in my limited dictionary would be 'mystical fantasy'. Shaking off the awe I walked to a clearing before I turned towards her

" a benefit of my blessing is an increase in your cultivation speed and an increase in learning speed. As you are the first to receive my blessing, for the next 10 days you will feel no hunger, nor shall you tire so for the next few days I'm going to train you until you are somewhat worthy of being my first "

As I was speaking to her I picked two stones that were larger than my palm and used my strength to compress them into stone daggers, throwing one towards, I watched her take a sloppy stance

" attack me !!! "