SIX

It had been a while since we entered the party. We were busy talking to the guests when I realised that it was just me and Namjoon. As far as I could see, Jungkook and Eunji were to be seen nowhere. I nudged Namjoon's arms gesturing him that we had to talk. We excused ourselves from the guests and walked to a corner of the hall to talk.

"What's up Y/n?", Namjoon asked.

"Have you seen Jungkook?", I asked him.

"Actually he said that he had call from someone so he'd be around the backyard.", Namjoon explained.

"Ohh, and where is Eunji?", I asked out of curiosity.

"I don't know about her. Is everything okay Y/n?"

"Yes Joon.", I replied with a smile. He walked away when some guests came and wanted to talk to him. I stood there for a while thinking about what Namjoon said. I already had a doubt about Jungkook's and Eunji's relation and both of them not being around us was adding up more doubts to my thoughts.

I then thought of going to the backyard as Namjoon said that Jungkook went to the backyard to take a call. Upon reaching the backyard, I saw nothing but darkness. I thought Jungkook might have went back to the building, as soon as I turned around to leave I heard muffled noises coming from the other corner of the backyard which was dimly lit. I didn't pay much attention to it, and shrugged it off. When I started walking away from the spot, I heard Jungkook's voice.

"Baby please. Just once.", he said.

"Not now Kookie. Namjoon and Y/n must be searching for us.", a female voice spoke, which I very well knew who it belongs to. It was Eunji's voice.

Jungkook called her Baby. With those words getting inside my ears, I felt my world falling apart. I felt as if the ground beneath me was no more present. I slowly walked towards the corner where the sounds came from. The view that I saw, shattered my heart into millions of pieces. The man that I loved, the one that asked me to marry him was kissing some other woman. From the very first day when Jungkook and Eunji met, I sensed something fishy, but I never expected it to be this.

"Jungkook!", I spoke, almost inaudible. They both looked at me with wide eyes. I was trying hard to not cry but failed miserably.

"What- what are you doing here Y/n?", Jungkook asked surprised.

"I might ask you the same Koo- Jungkook!", I almost called him by the nickname that I gave.

"I'll give you both time to talk alone. I think you-", Eunji was speaking but I cut her mid-sentence.

"You are not going anywhere Eunji. Even you are involved in this, so you should be here.", my voice was breaking, I was hurt. There was silence for good three to four minutes until Jungkook broke it.

"Y/n, I never loved you.", he said with his eyes fixed on the ground. I knew he won't be able to look at my eyes after what he did. I knew he regretted saying that. He continued, "I never talked to you about my past. It was painful Y/n. I don't belong to a family that owns a decent business. My dad is a mafia boss. I never liked that life. It was filled with blood, murders, tortures and what not. I never wanted to live a life like that.", he said. His voice showed pain. I could sense he has gone through a lot.

"Your life was painful, I understand. But why did you have to break me like this Jungkook? Why are you making me go through this pain?", I couldn't control anymore. Tears rolled down my cheeks uncontrollably. I was broken. The first time I loved someone, and they broke my heart like this. Was this needed? Really?

"It's not like that Y/n. I wanted to-", I cut him off.

"Then how it is huh?! Why did you act as if you really loved me? Why did you ask me to marry you that day? And the night that we spent together on my birthday!! Jungkook? Those things meant nothing to you?", by this time I didn't realise how terrible I looked. My eyes were red. They were stinging. My lips quivering. I was shaking. It was a lot for me to take in. I felt used.

"Those things were all real Y/n. I did love you but not as much as Eunji. The night you are talking about did mean a lot to me, but I never loved you the way I loved Eunji. We've known each other for 5 years now. We fell in love five years back. Her parents are also into this mafia business but we never wanted anything like that. One day we tried to escape, but my dad sent his men to bring us back. In the rush, we had an accident and I thought she died. I moved to Singapore to start everything fresh Y/n and then that one day I saw you. I saw Eunji in you. I started falling for you. I even had plans of marrying you but I never expected her to be here. The day I saw her, my world turned upside down. I was in dilemma. My first love came back. I never unloved Eunji, but I couldn't even hurt your feelings. I wanted to move on in life with you, but when I saw Eunji, all my memories rushed through my mind and I couldn't gather up enough courage to tell you the truth. I know I broke you, but Y/n I'm sorry, I'm really sorry. It's ok if you don't forgive me, but trust me, the time or the phase of my life that I spent with you, the emotions that I showed towards you, they were all real. They were never fake Y/n. I did love you. But, I can't live without Eunji.", he explained and I completely broke down. My knees felt week and my body dropped on the ground. Eunji came to me and hugged me, she helped me stand up. She was never a bad woman, but she was the reason why Jungkook left me.

"I'm really sorry Y/n. I didn't tell you the truth that day because I knew you would break down. I wanted you to talk to Jungkook about this.", Eunji said. She had tears in her eyes too. But I didn't understand why. She should be happy right, that she got her boyfriend back. I am the one that is broken, I am the one that lost the love of her life. Why was she crying?

"Y/n, me and Eunji are leaving for America tomorrow. I had a plan of telling you everything today but I never thought you would find out this way. I am really sorry.", Jungkook spoke. I just bitterly chuckled at his words. I looked up at him with pain clearly visible in my eyes. I walked to where he was standing, took his right hand and placed it in front with palm facing to the sky. I slowly removed the ring that he gifted me and put it on his hand.

With that I turned around and walked out of the venue without looking back once. It was overwhelming. I couldn't bear the pain. It was all too much for my delicate heart.

I came back home straight from the party. Upon heading to my bedroom, I saw a keychain that Jungkook gifted me once. I took it and threw it outside my window. I cried the whole night. I couldn't sleep. I didn't even change into my night suit. I just let my comforter engulf me and cried the whole night. I stufded my face in my pillow so that the crying noise was muffled and my parents wouldn't wake up.

TWO MONTHS LATER

I never heard from them after that day. Namjoon told me that they moved to US after the party. My life was difficult. My parents would look at me with sympathy in their eyes for they knew that Jungkook was my first love and the way he broke my heart was really painful.

I continued working at the same modelling agency although all our memories would rush to my mind every now and then. It was becoming difficult for me to cope up with the pain. Everywhere I would go around the town, it would remind me of Jungkook. I just couldn't take my mind off those thoughts. Whenever I would come across the neighbourhood park, it would take me back to the days when Jungkook would bring me here and we would spend hours walking around while holding hands. After he left, I went to Yoongi's càfe a few times too. I thought visiting a friend would be healing but I almost forgot that his càfe was the place where we hung out the most.

The workplace would also remind me of him. The way we would sit together with Joon and have lunch. The way we would sit and plan for upcoming projects. Everything reminded me about Jungkook and I knew if this continued, I would soon find myself depressed within a few days. Although it had been two months now, but still I just couldn't throw him out of my mind. If only I could, I would burn all my memories with him. That is when I realised that I needed a break. I must go on a trip, or just do nothing but sit on my bed whole day; the only thing I knew was that I had to take him out of my mind. So I thought of not going to work for about a week. But it didn't help much. It only added to my sadness. I felt lonely. I felt left out. That is when I talked about this to Namjoon and being the most caring friend I ever had he came up with a suggestion. He offered me something. Honestly, I never thought about it, but now that Namjoon offered me the same, I tought it would be great if I grabbed the opportunity. I thought it would help me come back to normalcy after whatever I went through.