Shut up Heart!
To the two of them, this feels both foreign and familiar at the same time. They already did things way beyond this but everything felt so new. Last night, they were both virgins but right now they aren't anymore. Both were filled with new found sensations, feelings and a brand new world to discover opened up to them.
Just like what any other new lovers go through, they felt it too. Awkwardness. Embarrassment. Shyness. Anxiety. Uncertainty. But those weren't just the only hurdles they need to overcome.
Awkwardness from doing something you haven't done or no knowledge of. Clumsily following, adapting and improving to the other person's rhythm until they both become one.
They said in love, is to bare one's soul. Our body is also an extension of our own soul. And to be seen naked by the other person made each other feel as if they're looking at each other's soul. Nowhere and nothing to hide. One's thoughts, feelings, everything. Embarrassment and Shyness comes from that. To be seen in all your glories and flaws. To lay down your defenses. To let a person into you heart. To love someone and be loved unconditionally.
Anxiety and Fear will hover over them. Being conscious of the other person. Their actions, their words, hidden meanings, all of it. To get past the fear. To be accepted for who you are. Feeling each other's feelings. Just like how love is like a mirror. Both reflecting each other soul and being.
Love is also a form of risk, filled with uncertainty. But that's the beauty of it. To explore and to move forward with someone holding your hand who would jump into the unknown head first with you. To head into something with no definite place nor destination.
Hurdles that they will need to overcome. Trust. Peace. Freedom. Security. Happiness. Inspiration. Experience. That isn't all of it because love is beautiful.
Being and having experienced being in each other's arms, the two of them might not realize it yet but they are already connected. Their souls. Heart. Everything.
Every touch, sensation, feeling and emotions brought them a spectrum of experiences filling them up with exhilaration.
It might have started with a simple notion of wanting to win against the other but everything they felt were real as they could get.
Violet tried very hard to focus on what she should do to attack him but failed every time. Her very mind, heart and thoughts were consumed by the kiss. His touch, warmth, smell, skin, taste, suppleness of his lips, sweat, his strong arms supporting her up, rhythm of their mouth and tongue. Their movements. Sending electricity throughout her body. It's felt weird for her but she didn't disliked it. All of it occupying her entire being. She can't seem to think of anything else. She kept on gasping for air. Her lungs needed to breath so bad but she can't stop herself. Washing over her. Carried away in his ocean. Then she heard it.
Budump. Budump. Budump.
She felt her heart pounding in her chest, then in her ears and eventually reverberating through her whole body as her heartbeat gets louder and faster.
'Is this for real?! Impossible! Calm down please' were Violet's thoughts.
'Shut up Heart!' Violet scolded her heart.
Doneeeee
For sure this time whatever I write next will be on the stockpile. Even if its full of snu snu moments meheheheh XD