48.

I always grew up believing that women shouldn't initiate when it comes to any form of sexual intimacy - that the guy should take control, because he's suppose to know what to do, and how to do it.

But when said guy is oblivious to all the signs, when you are made to feel unwanted, you start to question whether the beliefs you've grown up on are just old traditions.

And it makes you want to take the lead.

I hopped back in the shower, and allowed the tears on my face and the water to mix as one. I didn't want him to come back, and I hated him for making me feel like that.

But who was I kidding? I wanted him to come back through that door so badly, it hurt.

But then something strange happened - once I got out of the shower, towel dried my hair and got dressed, I noticed that time was picking up.

It was as if for four days I was tortured with seconds that lasted minutes and minutes that lasted hours - and the universe was trying to tell me something.