Chapter 56
Di Xueyan felt her whole world colapses when she put everything that happened together. No wonder.... No wonder she was the target. But why? Her mother never told them anything about her feud with her own family!
" Who are they?", the rage in her eyes is so apparent that the woman in red doesn't have to ask who she is implying as the poor girl stares at her. Di Xueyan prayed hard that those people might be just those people who opposed her mother in the clan, not the clan itself.
Because if it is....
She will have to kneel down in front of her mother, begging for forgiveness in advance for what she is about to do.
" Their uniforms - - - signifies that they were the trusted subordinate of the current patriarch of the clan", the woman said helplessly. She really want to filter her words, but she knows.... She can't.
" Your grandfather", she continues. She might be alone in this cliff for far too long, but Sima Liuwen used to fill her in with the latest news about the big beastial clans that he can gather. And as for the uniform, those clothes has been the secret guards' uniform ever since the foundation of the clan, and no one but the appointed head of the clan can use it to their advantage.
Neither she nor Sima Liuwen anticipated that the girl that Sima Liuwen and the others had befriended is the direct descendant of that clan.
Di Xueyan felt her heart shatter into pieces. Rage took over her system as if it has become a normal emotion for everyday life. Knowing how desperate your own grandfather in killing you, no matter how you never saw each other personally, still hurts a little. But what broke her the most is the fact that her grandfather raised her mother personally, but he still sends assassins to desperately kill her own daughter....her mother must be hurting like hell behind her lazy facade.
The remaining little familial care she has for her mother's side of the family vanish into thin air. It would have been ok if they targeted her alone, but, they just had the guts to touch her friends and killed them without mercy. Such grudge will never be diminished until one of them will cross the river of reincarnation!
'No... I won't even let them reincarnate!', Di Xueyan's look became more malevolent as time passed by.
The images of her friends' death flashes into her mind like a horrible multiplication flash card that she had to memorize when she was in elementary. It feels like a curse, trying very hard to break her head into pieces.
She never noticed how chaotic spirit qi encircled her body violently, dancing along with her rage. Her tangled hair scatters even more and the hem of her cloth sways viciously amidst the chaos. The dim place became bright because of the reddish green spirit qi. Her face became contorted in rage as the death of her friends plays in her mind over and over again.
' It is because of me....they were killed because of me'....
Her thought became a chant that haunts her head over and over again. Her spirit qi became more and more ballistic.
" Why? Why does he have to do this?!", a tear escapes her eyes which evaporated instantly because of the fierce spirit qi around her.
As Di Xueyan got engaged in her own world, she never noticed the bitterness that the woman's eyes held.
Something seems to click in Di Xueyan's mind as her hands involuntarily touch the brilliant red crown tattoo like thing in her head. Another bout of rage and hatred envelops her system as she seems to realize the reason why her grandfather wants her dead.
" Is it because of this? Is it because of this damned tattoo?! What the fuck?", she curse while pointing at the little thing in her forehead.
If they didn't want her to lead, then they could've just told her! It's not as if she really wants to lead them in the first place!
Thinking about leading those merciless people makes her wanna puke.
If only they targeted and harmed her alone, she could've used this insigna to spite them until they kill themselves, but the thought of how this seemingly beneficial thing for her is the reason why her friends were killed, she can't bear to keep it. It feels like a mockery!
" I don't want this then! Fuck those people! Let them rot in hell!", she half shouted, half sobbed while her malevolent eyes focused in nothing in particular.
The thought of using this 'thing' to annoy them until they commit suicide themselves already flashed in her mind, but every single moment that she thinks about the little innocent red little crown makes her want to thrash everything around her.
Who would want to be constantly reminded that she lost her friends because of it?
" I want it gone from my system. I don't care how beneficial it is for my cultivation, but I want it out!", she gaze at the woman in red with rage and resolve in her eyes. She doesn't even think for a moment if it is possible or not.
What she can only think right now is the bitter pain, resentment, rage and sadness.
" Ahhhhhhhh", Di Xueyan held her head while shouting her frustrations out. Her eyes is very bloodshot while the spirit qi surrounding her got more wild and intense.
The woman heave a sad sigh.
"Another one", she mutters in her breath while looking at the heartbroken girl in front of her in sympathy. Her eyes tried to hide the bitterness that surge within her as memories flashes in her mind.
The woman closed her eyes. She smiles bitterly at the thought that another leadership would be wasted because of greed.
'If she doesn't want it, then so be it'.
Di Xueyan snapped and went in dazed when the woman directly took her face in between the palm of her hands and made her look at the woman's eyes. The chaotic spirit qi around her instantly vanished, as if it is worth nothing in front of the red clad woman.
The woman looks at her directly in her rage stricken eyes, which calms her a little bit. Di Xueyan's suppressed sobs and tears flow freely in the womans hands as pain and sadness that she tried to mask with rage burst out of her system.
She closes her eyes as she cry, tears after tears wet her whole face and the woman's hands. This time, there is no rage nor resentment, just pure pain and sadness.
The woman instantly wraps her in her arms, sympathetically patting her back as the young girl sobs and cries her heart out as if her tears will never be exhausted. They stayed that way for a couple of minutes. The woman decided to just let her be until she calms down.
" Dear, don't make a decision when you are in a mess. Think this through", the woman said gently as she caresses her dishelved hair.
The woman understands her predicament. The child grew up in a normal environment with a normal status. There has been no scheming to death between relatives, as she was not raised as a rich heiress, nor brutal deaths of friends and family members because of the law in their world.
Di Xueyan tightly shut her eyes as the bloodied and mutilated flesh of her friends reappears in her mind again. She knows that she can't bear having the ultimate advantage of the thing in her forehead if whenever she thinks of it, all she can think is the death of the beasts that she regarded as a comrade and a friend.
She knows that if this is a novel, the protagonist should squeeze every bit of benefits this damned thing has, as a revenge to the murderers and an inspiration to avenge the victims.
But she cant....
She is not strong enough.
Di Xueyan calms herself down. She slowly broke free from the hug and looks at the woman directly in her eyes. The once murderous gaze she has in her tear stricken face is replaced with determination.
" I made my decision already. I will do anything just to get this thing out of my forehead. Is it possible?", now that her mind is not already in a mess, she embarrasedly ask if it is even possible.
" Yes, but you have to shoulder the consequence in th future. Can you handle it? ", the woman said enigmatically.
" What is the consequence? I can handle it even if it will take half of my life. No, even if all I'll have is one breath, I just want this out of my body", she said with much conviction. The woman saw her willingness and can't help but to sigh helplessly.
" Dear girl, once you do this, all you have in the future is regret. Do you still want to remove it?", the woman said sternly, evading the first question as if it was not asked to her.
Di Xueyan furrows her brows. If she will do it, the last thing she will feel in the future is regret. She is sure of that.
" Yes. I assure you... The last thing that I will feel in the future is regret", she said with a disgusted expression, trying to mask the disappointment that the thing in between her brows brought.
" If that so, then you have to pass through something", the woman already gave in and said those words to her seriously.
Di Xueyan tilted her head seriously with a furrowed brows, confused at what she should go through.
Even if she is in a wretched state, she still can feel every danger surrounding her. A chill ran down her spine as she subconsciously looks at the entrance of the place.
Her eyes widens at the sight of a huge ball of a very powerful spiritual qi, a lot way powerful than her newly acquired spirit qi, rushing towards her position in an unimaginable pace, making her frozen in place. Only then she realized how wide the place she is in right now, but she doesn't have the time to think more as the murderous aura of the spirit qi is already a meter away from her pitiful battered self.
She wasn't even able to notice that the woman is already not with her.
A blinding light engulf the pitiful girl that is sitting defenselessly as she gape at the incoming attack in her way, cursing whoever gods there are in whatever heavens for giving her such a terrible fucking luck.
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N/A: Orayttt ahahahha enjoy!!!