Taking Charge.

It's been a few more months, Zero and I have been fine. I have noticed every now and then, he goes back to read parts of the manga. He just tries to keep his emotions to himself. Not letting on if something is really bothering him or not. I see he doesn't have time to read it daily, so it's only when he has time. Here and there. It still bothers me but I let it go knowing he feels, he needs to know what is going on. Our relationship seems to be fine without it hurting us. Unless he is hiding that as well? I don't know. I can just hope.

I lay there in bed, watching tv one night, while Zero is in the basement on his computer. He likes to spend time down there. I try to give him as much alone time as I can. Knowing he likes it. I try not to be clingy even though, I love being around him, he is my husband now so I don't have the need to always be around him. I need my time alone as well. It's good for the relationship to grow. I don't feel he will disappear as I use to Which helps me let go some.

The baby is in bed sleeping, he is getting big. He is already a year old. The time just seems to fly by. Life with Zero has been interesting, to say the least. I love knowing that every morning I wake up to him, and every night I go to bed next to him. It makes me extremely happy. I don't regret any choices, I have made so far. I just hope he feels the same. I do see he is still a lot like in the Manga. He keeps a lot of his feelings to himself. Not only from reading his former life but even things that are happening in this one. It seems that is just how he is. It's part of him.

He spends a lot of time with me and our child. He is very loving and caring. Still the good man, he has always been. A good son, husband, and father. During the time we spend together that hasn't changed at all. We still enjoy talking and being together, that hasn't faded either. The sex hasn't died. I promised myself that I wouldn't let it. I got a chance to be with a man I find irresistible. I wasn't going to let that die or fade. We might not have time to make love every night or all the time with having a family, but I make sure to at least make love to him as often as I can. It still is very hot. I still crave him as if it was the first time. His touch still sets me a flame.

As I am laying there watching tv, Zero comes up into our bedroom from downstairs. I see something is wrong, I just am not sure what it is. Zero just looks at me getting into bed, Pulling me close to him.

"You want me the same as you always have?" Zero asks.

"Of course," I answer, not sure what is wrong.

Zero pushes me close to his body, his arms around me.

"You wouldn't ever want to make love to someone else would you?" Zero asks.

"No, I am very happy with being with you. You make me crazy. Zero what is going on?" I say.

"I will make sure, you never want anyone else ever. That even if you tried, you would think about me." Zero states.

Pulling my body down with his on top of mine. He starts kissing me passionately with me falling into the kiss. I am not sure what is wrong but my want for him has never changed. He is all I desire. He starts taking off my pink floral pjs. Unbuttoning the top and sliding my bottoms off my legs. He kisses up my leg as he moves his body back onto mine. Kissing my neck and down to my breast. He lightly caresses them, as he sucks on my nipple. Making me moan and want more of his touch. He kisses down my stomach, to my pelvis which he kisses and licks. Holding my hands down, so I can't touch him. Which only makes me crazy inside.

I hunger to touch his body, to kiss his lips. I feel the burning build up inside of me, as his tongue touches my clit. My body pushes its way up, not able to control, how it feels. His licks send shivers throughout my body. He holds my hands together with one of his hands, As the other hand is working my lower half over. Sliding one finger at a time inside me, as his tongue does the rest. I can't control my body or my moans. As he goes deeper with each finger thrust and licks. I feel myself getting closer to the edge, where I scream out his name. My whole body shaking underneath him. His Hand doing it's best to hold down my thighs.

"I am going to make you scream out my name all night. Never letting you forget who is making you feel like this. Do you understand me." Zero says.

"Yes. Zero I love you. I answer out of breath.

My whole body still tingling from his touch. I want and need more of him and he knows it. He has never done this before and I am still not sure what has gotten into him, but I am sure enjoying it. He moves his body up mine giving me a long kiss, I want to wrap my body around his, but he won't let me. He turns me over on my tummy pushing my legs to hang over the bed.

"Spread 'em." Zero orders.

I do as I am told. There wasn't much, I wouldn't do that he told me. He made me crazy. He lays his body on top of mine, lifting my hair up to the side, so he has access to my neck and back. Which he sucks and kisses on my earlobe, moving down my neck to my back. Placing butterfly kisses all the way down my back, Making my bottom lift up wanting him. I can't stop moaning from his touch and he hasn't done anything to me yet. I am so hot. I feel I will lose it at any minute. He wasn't even inside me yet, just his body on top of mine and the thought of what was to come. Was making me crazy.

He kisses down my back to my tailbone, His body sliding down and off of mine. The loss of his warmth making me sad. I feel his hands spread my ass cheeks rubbing and squeezing them. Making my lower half move wanting more. Needing more.

"You want me?" Zero asks. Smacking my ass.

"Yes. Zero YES." I respond.

"Good, I am going to make you beg for me. If you don't beg you don't get it. " Zero answers.

Rubbing his hand between my ass down to my core. Sliding a finger inside.

"You're soaked already." He states.

"You make me crazy. I need you." I respond.

"You're going to need me even more." Zero replies.

Rubbing his hard large member between my bottom lips. Going up and down. Teasing the hole but not entering it. I push my core up against him, wanting him to enter but he doesn't. He just keeps teasing me. He places his body on mine again sucking on my neck. Sliding his hands under me to rub my breasts as he slides his manhood on my bottom lips. My body rises up slapping into his. Feeling his balls hit my core, makes me rub myself up against him even more. I am squeezing the sheets and trying to keep from screaming. Needing him to enter me.

"Zero Please," I say.

"Please what? Is there something you want? You need?" He whispers seductively in my ear. Nipping at it.

"God I need you Please," I answer.

"Need what?" he asks.

"I need you inside me. I need you to pound me Now. Please, Zero stop teasing me." I beg.

"Is someone hot?" Zero asks sliding his hand down to my center. Feeling it even wetter than before.

"Yes. I want you. Please." I say. He was making me lose my mind and he knew it.

Zero rubs his manhood against me again, placing it at my entrance. Rubbing it at my hole, sliding in slow and gentle. Making my body quiver with want. He slides himself all the way in stopping. His control is unbelievable, where at this point I have none. I am lost in lust and desire for him. I need him to move to pound into me. I need to feel him. I move my lower half trying to move, I need the friction.

"Zero Move! Damn you, Fuck me!" I demand. Not able to control myself any longer.

"If that is what you want. Its what I needed to hear." Zero responds.

Pulling all the way out and sliding into me again. This time not gentle at all. He pounds himself into me hard. Going fast. My body moving just as fast to meet his thrusts. His hands on my waist pushing me into him harder and harder. You could hear our bodies slapping into each other making crude sounds echoing the walls. He keeps slamming into me until I just shudder. My walls tightening around him, letting him go at the same time.

Zero then falls to the bed on the side of me, trying to catch his breath. I roll over placing my head on his chest.

"What was that all about?" I ask.

"Just what I said. I don't want you to ever think about anyone else." Zero states.

"Why would I ever? Do you know you're my fantasy man? You're the only one. I ever want." I explain.

"I hope so," Zero Responds.

"You can see how you turn me on? How much I want you?" I say.

"Yes, I got that. It was incredible. I just want you to always feel that way. to never need someone else to make you feel that way or want someone to make you feel that way." Zero comments.

"I will. You have nothing to worry about." I answer Holding him tight.

I kiss his lips and place my arms even tighter around him. lifting my leg and placing it up over his. I love being this close to him. I just wonder what has gotten into him. Why would he think, I would want someone else? I haven't done anything to show that I would. I also never saw him like this, So dominant, so in control.

Zero falls asleep but I don't. I just keep wondering what the hell that was about. Granted it was hot. It was like the sex we had at Cross. Maybe even better.

I get up, not able to sleep and go downstairs to get a cup of tea. While I am making the tea, I figure. I will put some clothes in the washer to get them done for today. I go down into the basement seeing Zero's computer. I can't help my self but go over there and look. I see he has made it to the chapter where Yuki sleeps with Kaname.

So that's what this was all about. Her sleeping with him. Zero thinks I may do the same to him? I would never. He is my everything. This meant he still had feelings for her, that it bothered him. She was still in the middle of our lives and I was afraid she always would be.