Chapter 106

Liliana's pov

"My name is Dr. Liliana Garcia, I am the head of the department of neurosurgery and that means I operate on brains" I say. Today some kids from a local school are on a field trip to tour the hospital and Richard had all of the Chief's of the different departments speaking with them about our careers.

"Cool" all of the kids exclaim in admiration making me smile

"It's very cool, because I fix the big, squishy, slimy computer that runs your whole body. If the brain goes everything goes" I say

"It is the coolest" Derek smiles walking over and standing beside me.

"And this is Dr. Derek Shepherd. He's a member of our board and..." Richard pauses. I guess he was trying to figure out how to introduce Derek since today is his first day back after being in town for the past two weeks, but not everyone knew he was returning as a surgeon.

"And I'm also Dr. Garcia's best friend and a neurosurgeon as well. I work for her" he smirks

"Your best friends your boss" one of the kids asks making me smirk

"Yeah, my best friend is my boss" Derek laughs

"Okay kids, let's keep it moving. Thank you doctors" Richard smiles

"No problem" Derek and I say before Richard and the kids walk away to continue the tour

"How hard was that for you to say" I smile as we start walking down the hallway

"It just rolls off the tongue" he smirks

"Sure it does" I laugh

"You enjoy being my boss again just so you can taunt me" he laughs

"Relax Shepherd, I'm not that bad" I laugh, before my pager goes off. I look down and see that it's Jackson paging me making me sigh because I know that he's probably just paging me to argue, since that's all we seem to do.

"What's wrong" Derek asks

"Nothing, its just Jackson's paging me" I sigh

"Isn't that a good thing? That means he's talking to you again, right" he asks

"Only when he has something to argue or yell at me about, which I guess is better then complete silence" I sigh. For the past 2 weeks since I've been back Jackson has pretty much been ignoring me as much as he can, even though I've still been trying to talk and communicate with him as much as I can which hasn't done any good in helping our relationship.

"I'm sorry" he sighs sympathetically

"No, don't apologize, it's fine. It's not your fault. I guess I'll go meet him. Wish me luck" I sigh before walking away to a on-call room where Jackson paged me.

"Hey" I smile walking into the room and closing the door

"Hey" he says

"How are you" I ask

"Fine and you" he asks

"Good" I say before an awkward silence fills the room. "So I'm assuming that there's something you want to talk about, since you paged me" I say

"Yeah, I um just wanted to talk to you about the house situation" he sighs. For the past week Jackson still hasn't come home unfortunately.

"Jackson, there's nothing to talk about. I already told you I'm not leaving" I shrug

"I wasn't going to ask you to leave. The house belongs to the both us, I can't make you leave if you don't want to" he says

"So what did you want to say" I ask

"I just wanted to let you know that I'm leaving instead. I'm coming by the house to get the rest of my stuff after I get off tonight" he sighs

"What? Jackson that doesn't make sense. I understand that you need some space and that you don't want to live in the same house as me right now and as hard as its been I've been trying to respect that, but there is no reason for you to move your stuff out, I mean it isn't like you're moving out permanently" I say, but he doesn't say anything he just looks down at the floor avoiding eye contact with me. "This isn't permanent, right? I mean we're married, it doesn't make sense to keep living in separate households" I frown

"Liliana, I've been trying to be nice and let you get settled back in before I brought this up" he says

"Brought what up" I ask folding my arms

"I think we should discuss getting a divorce" he sighs

"What? I can't...I can't believe you would even suggest that or even utter that word. It's not an option. No way" I shake my head

"Liliana, divorces happen I mean everyone in my family has gotten a divorce" he says

"Well we're not everyone in your family and I don't believe in divorce, it's not happening. It's not even an option" I yell

"You don't get to tell me what's an option or what isn't. You are not the sole decision maker in this situation" he yells

"Well obviously I need to be because I'm the only one fighting for us" I say

"Well maybe you waited to late to fight" he says

"That's not true. I know I wasn't here exactly when you wanted me to be, but I'm here now and I'm trying to fix us, because I love you and you're my husband and we took vows, so we're going to honor them and work through our problems, because yes marriage is hard and full of problems, but we work through them. You don't just leave, you don't just stop" I yell as tears fall down my face

"You do. You just stop, you just leave when things get hard and you know what they call that divorce" he yells

"Jackson, stop saying that word" I yell

"Look, I'm not doing this right now. I have to get back to work, I just wanted to tell you that my things will be gone when you get home" he says beginning to walk away until I grab his arm stopping him

"No, we're not done here okay. Look, I am so sorry for hurting you and I will apologize as much as you need and I will beg for your forgiveness I will get down on my hands and knees if I need to and I will do anything it takes to fix us. Just please come back home, give us another chance, because you owe our love that after all of the crap we've been through. I know that I'm not your favorite person at the moment and right now you just want to be done with our marriage, but I want you to think back to when we first met. When we were just fourth year residents who bumped into each other in the hallway and hated each other, but then we got to know each other and we fell in love and supported each other through so much, that would've broken most couples, but not us, because our love carried us through. And I want you to look at your hand at your wedding ring and think of our wedding day when we promised to love each other forever. When we looked into each others eyes and took vows and made promises. I need you to think about those moments and realize that we belong together and that we need each other" I sniffle

"Yeah, I did need you, but you weren't here" he frowns

"Because the thing I needed at that time was to go" I cry

"And the thing I needed was you. After our baby died I needed you Liliana, but you left me and I learned to be okay without" he yells

"Jackson, it isn't like I wanted to leave you, but I needed to go. Our baby died. I was a mess. A piece of me died with him. I felt like I was dying inside" I sniffle