Chapter Two

Students had reported to school and studies were set to resume soon.

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Class was over and the lecture had already left.Boys and girls were hugging each other affectionately outside the lecture halls. They had missed each other dearly... that's what they told each other. Luca passed through the commotion, his face glued to the ground.Most of the times he was always like this.The other students were chanting in low tones.But the general outcome was a relatively loud unpleasant noise. Luca was feeling agitated by this.It was like a swam of bees was buzzing around his head.

A few meters from the lecture halls he removed his phone.He could feel his hand shaking and his heart beating loudly.He was nervous.He could not face his classmates.They had become strangers to him again after the hols. He had to start the process over again. Familiarizing himself with them once again. He surely would become comfortable with some of them soon. But he had to be soft on himself.Do it with a pace he was comfortable with.He wanted to encounter non of them at the moment.He always felt he was insuffiecient.Ashley usually said he was not bold.He had to learn to be manly.Woke head up and with confidence.And come to think of Ashley.Where was she!He had missed her.He wanted to meet her and hug her tight. He was missing teasing her.Stroking her cute cheeks.Pinching her little ears and biting lightly on her neck.But the last thing he wanted was to meet her in that crowd of people.He always wanted to meet her in private where the environment was less pressing for him.

He had successfully avoided the girls and most of the boys he knew as well. Why was he now feeling nervous,he was even surprised.

He saw a group of his course mates.None of them had noticed him yet. He had mastered the art of camouflaging while in a crowd very well. You would not see him unless he was willing for you to see him. He was in a dilemma whether to go and meet his friends or just leave. But before he could figure out on what to do, his legs were already leading him towards the school gate. He was leaving... "I will greet them another day... Maybe tomorrow I won't feel anxious.." He reasoned. He had crossed the school gate and heading for the market place to purchase some foodies.The streets were always full of students.Some heading for classes while others going to their hostels after classes.

Most students walked twos or in small groups.Boys and girls laughing loudly and they seemed to be happy.Here in school girls were different from the village ones.They had a good taste of fashion.They looked smart,attractive,

charming,gorgeous,sexy...name it.He couldn't stop his eyes from admiring them.But what was stopping him from approaching them?He was shy.He would become tongue tied upon exchanging greetings and embarrass himself.He envied the boys who had confidence to approach these cuties.The way they held hands or placed there arms on their shoulders or around there curvy waists.And then the imagination that this boys had a moment of intimacy with the girls, in the hostels after classes.They had a chance to explore their hot bodies.Yet himself he ended up just fantasizing and jerking off.

Not that girls disliked him.He had come across some of them.Either through the online platforms or during study activities.One topic was very common amongst the students.That was sex.He was surprised at how most students were experienced in this field.Some started sexing as early as in high school.He would listen to girls exclaim how they hated virgin inexperienced boys.How they wanted experienced men who could satisfy them.And there he was.Too shy to approach a girl leave alone seducing her.The thought of underperforming and embarrassing himself was why he was not ready to do it with any girl here in school.At times he wondered if there were other guys like him here.He knew a number of boys who were slightly shy,or seemed to be naive.But he would be surprised to find out they had girlfriends.Where was he doing his calculations wrong?

He went to some isolated hotel. He was a regular customer at this hotel. It was at the farthest end of the market and usually had less customers. This made it ideal for Luca to take his meals in a less intimidating environment. It gave him a sense of safety. But safety from what? Safety from other students?Was he this afraid of people? But he couldn't help it. He just wanted to be all by himself. Deep down he wished he had a large number of friends, always laughing and having fun.But that desire would vanish the moment he was around his friends, and the insatiable urge to be all by himself would engulf him.He usually found this weird,wasn't it?