Just Why

I was supposed to find peace and happiness why am I running in this life.

I put my arms around Jedi and stroked his Mane . We walked side by side to the castle . The wind touches my feel a little above my heels as I notice Azriel Bonneville slipped his coat on me .

Warmth is what makes us Insane at times

when you've been shielded once , the winters are your enemies even more so if you are from an Empire and carry a name to take forward.

All of this is overwhelming , I don't know if it's right or wrong. If he is to be trusted ,

If I'm worthy of giving someone trust or

If trust is just a trap everyone used to get what they want.

Stepping inside the castle , I heard Marie mourning.

Grief written all over her face , she looks at me then looks onto the floor , where lay the motionless bodies of Albertine , Heather and Asher.

I couldn't take if all inside me

I rushed running to my Palace and held the Coat too tight .

I forced myself to sleep .

I needed time , I needed Comfort , I needed god knows what but I can't resume this life at this state of mind.

An arrow is aimed at my opposite side as I read the book title it aimed at Deary Due - Irish Vampire .

Our king stepped into the room and placed the diary on his table.

He turned to pages on the back . And started writing , with his pen and tears smudged on paper , he filled a set of parchments or what it seemed like an old brown leather Journal.

He wrote for a really long time , like he must be writing every detail .

He stood up to hide the journal under his bed along with another blue diary.

I took a step closer to see him turn and it was Aries with a werewolf face and a knife in his hand.

I almost screamed when I woke up .

My blood rushing to my head , my hands trembling and my breath uneven.

I looked at my side for my pillow and found Marie asleep but her body fighting from the cold breeze I lifted the blanket to cover her and closed the window was I walk past the corridor to see Jedi with a man .

I can scream right now , I can get him killed , I can kill him , I can make him beg me for his life or I can trust him.

There was nothing here anyway.

I lost my mother , my not so good but still my father , my sister the only person I liked and now I'm losing myself as well .

I rushed down to Asher's Castle and flipping his bedsheet I found two old Journals.

I just need to find that letter with a pen tucked on it.

Just like I saw in my nightmare .

'Can we leave now , I mean RIGHT NOW' I said , Azriel replied with a nod.