Day 326

I was unconscious for 3 days. I used too much magic, and on top of that, I used my father's power. That was almost 2 months ago, yet I still have side effects. 3-4 times a day, I can feel the chaos in my blood. It was so cold it burned. But I couldn't care less. I have bigger problems now. Without the fountain, there is no way Keitaro and I can be together forever. I slowly had to face reality, and there was nothing I could do about it. I decided that I would make him happy in those few weeks we have left together. Soon the Blood Moon will come, and he will forget about me... If he can't remember me, there will be no pain for him. I can't be with him like this. I can't put his life in danger just because of who I am. I can't watch him die... I gathered all the strength I had left and put on a dress along with a fake smile. Today Keitaro is graduating from school. I have to make this the best 40 days we have left. I don't care about the world now, it can burn for all I care. This little time we had left, I want to spend with him. Maybe, if I have good memories of Keitaro, the goodbye would be easier.

Ms. Nagisa: Are you ok?

C: Yes. I'm just deep in thought.

Ms. Nagisa: There he is. Smile for the camera Keitaro.

What a dashing young man. And what a boring ceremony. It lasted an hour. All that time couldn't take my eyes off him. How could I be this lucky to have him? And at the same time, how could I be this unlucky to lose him... I just kept smiling, waiting for it to end.

C: Finally, it's over.

Ms. Nagisa: I know. Why do they have to make it this long?

Keitaro ran over to us, holding his diploma.

C: Congratulations, my love.

Ms. Nagisa: I'm so proud of you. Now let's take some group pictures.

K: Do we have to?

Ms. Nagisa: Yes. We must remember this moment as one big happy family. Now, say cheese.

K&C: Cheese!

Ms. Nagisa: Perfect. Let's take some more.

K: Mom! I'm sure you've already taken thousands of pictures.

Ms. Nagisa: Fine, fine. Let's call it a day, and let's get home.

As we were making our way back, a sudden turn of events occurred. I found myself in a position where I had to deceive Keitaro, something I had only done once before when we first met. In the end, I chose to lie, but the weight of my words hung heavily on my conscience.

K: Cornelia. Did you manage to get that stuff?

C: Stuff?

K: The drink.

Ms. Nagisa: No drinking until we get home!

C: Oh, that. Yes. I still have to make some preparations with it, but by the time we get back to summer camp, it should be ready.

K: I can't wait.

I felt terrible. But at least Keitaro wouldn't have to worry about it. By the time we go back to camp, he will forget everything...

Ms. Nagisa: And we are home. Dinner is already on the table. Let's celebrate, my little boy.

K: MOM!

C: Pffft.

The food looked good. Ms. Nagisa did a good job.

Everyone: Cheers!

He smiled the whole time. How could I take his happiness away? I don't want him to suffer. Losing my family, my partner, and now my love... But have to do this for him. The pain is unbearable. But every time he smiles and says I love you, I know I'm doing the right thing.