Once the meeting ended, after the conversation I had with the old man. I immediately contacted Augustine to ask where he found Benjiro Abe. Because I should get treated before everything worsen. And reach the point of no return that I wouldn't be able to control myself anymore.
When I thought hard about what my alternate had advised regarding my strength. I realized one thing because I still couldn't accept that I had a mental illness, my mind refused to entirely connect with my body. As my body continues to reject, then there comes a possibility to lose control of my body to an unknown entity like my inner demon.