Lonely

"It's been like this for ages, I don't even remember how it started? How it all came to this point, all of this just happened...

Sitting at the back of the class, looking at all these people bantering around, just hoping that they might ask you to join in, and when they do you hope when you are going to get out of it.

Then you start to peak at what they are talking about and hear all the exciting things they did during their visits at fun places where you were hardly even considered when designing the invitation list.

Listening to these things makes you more and more depressed as you know that, even if you were invited by the slimmest chance, you would be that person who is avoided by everyone. Your only purpose there is to either praise someone or to be the primary example of the topic 'a person you should never be'. At best you are nothing but a stock of laughter for others.

You swallow all this embarrassment just because you were given a chance to be a part the group because you know that if you chose to be a rebel, you would be standing by yourself, all alone, somewhere at the back of the hall in a corner somewhere planning how to socialise with people.

Whenever you are with your so-called 'friend circle', for a fleeting second you feel like, all this embarrassment you had to suffer had finally paid off, finally, they recognize you as someone who is one of them and the very next second the 'friend circle' asks you to carry all the bags because they said that you can join them to their mall trip.

You have to do this and you also have to be their lackey at the parties, restaurants, and many other places where they will have all the fun and you will bring food and water to everyone like a waiter or carry their load like a porter. And that's the whole reason why you exist for them.

And when all of this is finished and you go back home, you cry. Cry like hell and start cursing them, degrading them and blaming them for making you the way you are and after all of this is over you dry your tears, put a fake smile on your face and go back to your usual lifestyle and repeat all this again and again and again... "

Well, that is what it's like to be a lonely person.

Now before everyone comes at me saying not all lonely people are like this, this is way too sad and I agree to it but what I am talking about is your average lonely person. And according to this average, every lonely person faces this kind of situation once in their entire life. It's one of the harshest truths about a lonely person...