The hard truth

Chapter seven

Ryker.

Fucking hell.

This is what I wanted to avoid.

I never in a million years expected her to come up to me. She doesn't seem like the kind of girl. I have seen her future. I have seen everything that she is going to do up until her death.

I didn't see this conversation.

I didn't even think it would be possible.

I just wanted to see her face, and I got everything and more. hew voice, her eyes. that fucking smile that almost ripped me into pieces. I saw it all and it is not enough. That is the thing about life. You have things you want, wishes. Once you get the things you aim for, you want more. you keep wanting and wanting, until the day you die.

I feel human right now and I don't want to.

I don't want more from her.

I shouldn't want to touch her.

Know how she feels, tastes. I shouldn't look at this amazing human and want to kiss her. I can have anyone I want right now. why the hell am I going for her.

In a month. I am going to come and take her.

She is going to die.

What is the point?

I stop outside, in front of the café and my chest feels heavy. I did the right thing. Walking away from her is the best thing to do in this situation because this feels more than anything I have ever felt before. I have been with humans before. This wouldn't be the first time that I would want to feel the things humans feel. Sex is something that I enjoy and just thinking about it with her is driving me crazy. The only difference this time is that it doesn't feel like it is just about sex. I want to get to know her, I want to see that smile that she carries so well on her face.

I want everything that she comes with—not just her body and I shouldn't want that. I shouldn't go any further with this because it will only end in pain.

You want to go back to her.

My mind is in a fog but I ignore it as I walk away from the café. I wish I could go far away. Actually, I can if I wanted to. being in this town is not permanent. I just like to be in new places every once in a while. Right now, this is where I want to be.

What if I am really here because of her?

What if I am meant to be with her?

I have never been one to believe in fate but there has to be a reason why I feel this way?

Right?

I want her.

There is no doubt about it.

I should have her. that is the only way I would be able to get over whatever the hell this is.

Have a taste of the forbidden fruit and toss it down the drain.

I walk back to my caves. The place that has been home to me for a thousand years and Alumus walks over to me "You are back early,'' he manages.

I look at him for a second.

I am back early because I can't be in the human world right now, especially now that I know she exists. She is there and so perfect and it is taking a lot from me not to go to her.

"Set a meeting with Leighty for me will you,'' I tell him. Leighty is my brother. The keeper of the light. He is the one that I send the good ones too. He is the only one that still talks to me in the heavens. We had a relationship before I was banished to the darkness. We still have that relationship, even though he likes to act like our relationship is strictly business.

To me, it is not.

I know I can always count on him.

I used to be a god. One of the gods that ran the heavens. My story is sad and frankly, I don't even like to think about it. It isn't just black and white. I don't believe that there is just good and evil. They wanted me to be good so bad but I wasn't and they all knew it.

We were ten.

The rulers of the heavens.

Now they are nine.

I am left in the shambles of the dark matter. I like it. I don't even like to think about what I would have been if I had just been what they wanted me to be.

"Alright master,'' he echoes as he leaves the room.

It only takes a couple of minutes before I see the light before my home evaporates. Leighty's face peers up as he flies down to me. there is a smile on his face. He came even faster than I thought he would.

"My brother,'' he walks over to me.

The light is blinding.

I hate it so much.

"Hello Leighty,'' I call him by his name. as I stand up from my seat. His eyes watch me. He is curious as to why I called him.

I don't even know why I called to see him.

"Humans and gods, can it work out?'' I mutter quietly.

"Technically, you are not a god,'' he retorts instantly. he is messing with me and I don't like it.

"I didn't say this was about me.''

He laughs and walks even closer to me "This is about you brother. Who are you interested in?'' he asks immediately.

I am not interested in her.

Except I am.

Fuck.

"No one."

He laughs again "You know I can find out if I want to,'' he attacks and he doesn't even give me a chance to tell him anything. His hand reaches for me and he rests it on my shoulder. In an instant, we leave the light and we are in the diner. Fuck fuck fuck.

His eyes dart around and he points to her.

"Is she the one?''

I take a step to the door.

"No.''

He can read through me.

He is the only one I trust. I know he is not going to say anything to the others. I just don't like that I am so obvious. I am Maxim. Everyone in the heavens is scared of me. The only reason why they keep me is because they know how powerful I am. Better to have me on their side than on my own.

The only reason I stay is because of Leighty.

Harley turns slowly. She is reading her books. I have watched her, I know that she is not really studying. More like pretending to study.

Her smile is the first thing she gives me when she notices me.

I groan internally.

"We are leaving.''

"She is on the list,'' Leighty deadpans upon the realization. I hate him so much right now for getting into my head. I hate when he does that but he is the only one that can.

"You know this makes it worse.''

I shake my head.

No.

Nothing is going to happen.

"You want to fuck her?'' he asks.

His voice is loud, I pull him to a corner of the café. She is still watching us but she doesn't say anything as we take a seat in one of the empty booths. I can still see her, she is still stealing glances at me.

"You want her?'' he adds.

He is trying to figure this out.

I don't know what I want.

"Shit. I just asked you a fucking question. how are you psychoanalyzing me right now?''

He laughs "You are going to take her in a couple of months. Do you think this even makes any sense?'' he asks.

I groan.

"Nothing is happening.''

He scoffs "Fuck her if that will get her out of your system but don't do it if it will mess things up.''

"Can a god love a human, is it possible?'' I ask, not saying that I love her. I don't even know what this feeling is.

"You are not a god,'' he reminds me.

"I am more than a god and you know it,'' I retort agitatedly.

"Whatever you think you are. Getting involved with her for anything but sex will end up ruining you and you know it.''

I run my fingers through my hair. The strands fall back in place as I swiftly shift my eyes to her. she is not looking at me again. I let out a sigh of relief because I don't think I can handle her stare right now.

"You didn't have to bring me here,'' I glare at him.

"I wanted to see her. she is beautiful,'' he points out.

"Don't fucking look at her,'' I shout at him. I don't even know where this rage is coming from.

"Don't think about doing anything stupid. You will only have regrets. I don't want to lose you, brother. Think with your head and not your dick. You have done too much wrong to add this to the list,'' he snaps his fingers and vanishes, leaving me in the café with the one person I want but can't have.