"Trust your instincts"

After few days,,

I Learned many new things that I try,,it's thanks to Duke Ares, I have found out that he is my fiance so we will get get marry after a month,,

But I still feel afraid and I couldn't smile even once, people around me in the palace feel scare whenever they saw me going anywhere,, but only few people understand me. Sometime, they misunderstood when ever I talked something so I keep quiet all the time,,

One day, a beautiful night with many stars in the sky and the weather was very cold,,, Duke Ares asked me to have a walk with him in the garden,,

So I agreed him,,

Well its was very fun to have a walk but I feel sad at that moment because I couldn't speak to anyone what I feel,,

It was so quiet night,,, so I couldn't asked anything to Ares what I wanted to tell him,I started at him, his eye was bright and he stay quiet...

Suddenly...

"Why are you staring at ME, are there something you want to say?"

"hmm, I'm sorry,, well yes, but I'm afraid that you would misunderstand about it,,"

The Duke don't give any reaction in his face just keep walking,,

"it's fine, I won't misunderstanding you, I'll try to understand,,just take it easy,,,

"well, hmm,,"

I saw a flower over there so I walked toward it,, it's was a beautiful Raihanah flower its just look like a Feather, I try to speak up everything that inside my heart unfortunately I couldn't, but suddenly I speak up as I feel that I was lonely..

"I feel like people hate to see me whenever I go towards them, people don't trust me even once,,

Oneday, I met a maid try to talk with me, she was very kind and lovely she talked to me everyday,,

I trusted her that she won't leave me and never make me disappointed,, but the trust have break into pieces,so I started not to trust anyone again accept my mother, Alexia, Zen and my maid Rose,,

Only them who I trusted with, they love me and protecting me wherever I go,,

Mom and Rose died and I don't know what happen to Zen now, People think me as an evil,,

But I get to used it,I have suffered that kind,,

I alway wondering when will I die? I want to end these life, I want to become stronger to fight back what I suppose to have in my life,,"

Ares didn't give any answer, he was just staying quite and listening every words I said, suddenly I feel that I was too far with the Duke,

" oh I'm sorry, I was feel that I was lonely so I couldn't stop talking about.... "

We sit down under the tree we stay quiet, I afraid he will punish me,,..

" Raeliana,... "

" Hmm, yes"

The Duke stay quiet again,, I feel sleepy so I fell asleep, that I couldn't hear his words to me..

", I won't leave you and always protecting you wherever you choose you path, I trust what you choose is better for you,, ,,

I will fight for you and make you smile again,,

No matter who you are, the faith of this world shouldn't have to rest on your shoulders alone,

"whenever, you are in dangerous..."

He cover me again with his coat,, ...

" Trust your instincts "