Chapter 9: Oneirophobia (part 1)

I feeling myself falling from the dark sky. I can't stop my falling. Until I land on the ground.

I'm in a black dimension. A few steps away there is a crying baby

- "Seraf, What do you think about?" My mother's voice ask.

- "The tragedy of the humanity is a cycle. They born, they grow and then they dies".

- "What is your meaning of "death"".

- "A existence. The existences are tragic and despaired. They born without knowledge of the real world, the only thing that they know is their own death. They bases their life on their death. The despairing of knowing that you'll die, kill the existence first on their soul, and then in their body. No one can save the humans from the despair of the knowledge of the death".

- "And their religion can save them?"

- "No one can save them. And no one would do that. The God that they know, are a human like them. There are no human god".

The crying baby stare me, and then he explode.

A infinite red carpet of blood appear. I can't see the ending of the way.

I start to walk untile the end.

There's a violin wait for me. Over a black altar.

Slowly I reach it.

My hands move together, automatically.

The view change. From the dark void, at a circle of mirrors. I can't exit from the circle of mirrors. I can only see.. My body with my mother face.

The violin start to sound a melody, while I stare in the mirror the reflection.

The melody is different from the others. This melody is always the same. The notes don't change. There is the always same notes.

- "This melody's name is: "The omniscient liar".

Such a strange melody. It is chaotic. This sound remember me the laughs. I feel disconnected from my conscious.

- "You're liar, right, my dear Seraf?" The reflection spoke to me.

- "I'm not".

- "Liar. You just want annihilate lives".

- "It's not true. I'm not a liar".

- "You're envious of them, am I right?"

- "What are you saying? Stop it"

The melody start to sound more chaotic and speed.

- "You're envious of the humans. You want the death that you can't have".

- "It's not true. Stop saying that. Stop!"

Every reflections in the mirror start to laugh at me.

They laugh at me. They humiliated me.

- "Say it" The all reflections says at the same time.

- "…" My mouth is shut.

- "Say it. Say it. Say it".

- "Please.. Stop.."

My hands continue to sound the violin. Their eyes staring at me maniacally.

- "Say it!".

- "I'm envious of the human's death. Every time that I killed a human, I feel envious, I don't want to kill others humans. Because.." I don't finish the phrase.

- "Because? Say it, Seraf say it!"

- "I want to they suffer like me. A eternal suffering called "life".

- "You are such a good boy".

I start to look the ground.

- "You created the eternal suffering. Think about Heinard. You was the first inhuman that created the life. The others essences was not created. Them was shaped with the dark hands. You've created life with your precious blood, that means Heinard are the first human created by a inhuman".

- "Heinard looks joyful".

- "He will regret it. He will hate you for what have you done".

The mirrors disappear, and the violin too.

I'm in the pure darkness.

I hearing another melody in the large darkness. I walk in the darkness without a path. I follow the melody.

At my arrived, a piano wait for me. The piano looks good, all white with golden details.

The bench in front of the piano was occupied. There was.. Heinard. I recognize his eyes and his dark green uniform.

- "Take a seat next to me, Seraf" Heinard looks serious.

I sit next to him.

- "Seraf".

- "Yes?".

- "What did you have feeling when you killed me in the minus zero room?"

- "I was feeling something that a existence can't imagine".

- "It was good or not".

- "It's something that goes beyond good and evil" I said.

He continue to sounding the melody with he's pale hands.

- "Thank you, for killing me again" Heinard smile at me.

Heinard's fingers start to blood for the high speed of notes. The piano notes are full of blood.

- "Heinard..".

The speed become higher. The notes become more bloody. Heinard looks different.

The head of Heinard start to change form, he's seems like a vaginal shape. A monster with long fangs.

I'm so confused. What happened, where are I am?

Heinard's hands are covered with blood. The melody is unknowable, I can't understand the notes that he sound.

He stopped. Heinard's hands slowly touch my face. My face is bloody. The fangs of the vaginal shape head bite me.

I close my eyes.