Dear Relatioinships

Before you get into a relationship with me, know that I am broken. I have anxiety, and it tells me every day when I hear you talking to someone, but I can't quite hear what's being said, that you're talking about me. And you're talking bad about me.

I'll never believe you when you tell me what was actually said, because my last relationship taught me that everything said was a lie. And he was actually talking bad about me.

Know that I have depression. My depression closely reflects in my appetite, my showering, my writing. The less I do these things, the worse it's getting.

Know that I don't keep friends and if I do, I'll never tell you about them because my last made me drop all of them because he wasn't happy with the things they were saying about him due to what I told them was going on.

Know that I'll tell you I'm not upset even when I'm trying not to cry, I'm not actually okay. I need you to know that. And I need help. So don't walk away from me, don't believe me. Do the opposite.

I'll apologize constantly. And I'll never believe you when you say it's okay. I just let it go.

Know that I will love you with everything I am, and all that I will ever be, even when you don't love me.