17- back to school

The rest of the holidays had gone so quickly, I kept to myself but allowing myself to talk to Harry Hermione and Ron more. I was still hard, but Bill hadn't left that entire summer even though he was supposed to be in Egypt working, he didn't leave my side. Everyone in the family now knew about what had happened to me and they were so supportive. Snowball and I had become closer than ever, she understood me now completely. And I found out I can hear what she is thinking even if she can't say it back to me. Isn't that so cool. I asked Harry if Hedwig as I wanted to see if I could communicate with her as much as I could with Mystic and Snowball. He said sure as long as he could watch. I brought hedwig to the lake. I wanted to do it my secluded space but i couldn't as Harry insisted on being here. I guess that it was ok a i was using his owl. I held out my arm as Hedwig flew onto my arms. I started to talk to her and I could hear her thoughts to. I was ecstatic. I could communicate with animals. It was incredible. Hardy and I were sat by the lake watching snowball trying to catch Hedwig and Mystic as they flew over her fluffy white head.

"Hey holly, what's the story with you and snowball." Harry asked. I'm surprised he hasn't asked sooner as she was always around me, like 24/7. I explained that she just found me. I still don't know how myself, but I knew she came to me at the right time and that I need her. No one except Bill knew about my nightmares and I wanted to keep it like that. Everyone was already panicked about Harry's nightmares and this whole scar business. What's the whole deal with this scar.

"Hey harry, why does everyone call you the boy who lived?"

-Harry's pov-

I was thinking about how Holly had taught herself to become an animagus, whilst missing out on a whole year of learning and at such a young age. We were sat relaxing together by the lake when she asked the question, that I had been dreading.

"Hey harry, why does everyone call toy the boy who lived?" It's not that I didn't want her to know about my past, it's just that she's basically the only person in the world that doesn't know. This was gonna take a while. I started explaining everything. She didn't interrupt me once. When I'd finished. She got up and wrapped her arms round my neck and just whispered,

"I'm so sorry Harry," this was the first time she had hugged anyone except from Bill this whole summer. I wrapped my arms round her waist. I didn't want this moment to end. When she pulled away I blushed as I could feel the heat rising to my face. No stopppp. I thought this was some stupid childhood crush. I stumbled of the back of the bench as I tried to hide my face. She didn't help me up, no, she just laughed. It was great to hear her laugh again. But then she stopped and whispered something loud enough so I could hear it.

"Yes Hedwig, Harry is really clumsy I agree" Hedwig just squawked as if she she was agreeing.

"Hey you're supposed to me on my side Hedwig"I said acting dramatically hurt as I tickled her feathers. Holly and I just stood laughing for a bit. God I've missed my best friend.

-Hollys pov-

I was finally getting to go back to hogwarts. I couldn't stop thinking about the truth that harry had told me. He was really the boy who lived. I wonder why I hadn't found out until now. Well to be fair I was complete off the radar until a couple of weeks ago. I hadn't had a nightmare since I came to the burrow which was helping me sleep better. I really want to tell someone about my nightmares I really do, I want help with them but I can't, not now that I know that harry has to deal with you know who. Mr Weasley had taken me and Harry aside when we were in the kitchen and told us about Sirius Black. I wondered about our surnames. He was probably just a really distant cousin or lost relative or something. At least I didn't know him. He murdered 12 muggles and was put in Azkaban. He's pretty kookoo if you ask me. Apparently he was after harry so I swore to protect Harry.

Finally, I was on my favourite train ride in the world. The way to hogwarts. I was of course sat in a compartment with Harry Ron and Hermione. But there was also a man asleep in our compartment. He was called Professor R.J Lupin. I suspected that he was a new professor at hogwarts. I felt bad for him, he looked ill. We were all just talking when the train suddenly stopped.

"Surely we can't be there yet." Hermione quickly said. All of a sudden the room went icy gold. The windows started to steam up as you could see out breath. Snowball curling up in my lap, trying to keep warm. A creepy had wrapped round the compartment door and slid it open. All the happiness was sucked out the room. It was like a ghost but nothing like the ones at hogwarts. It was like death as a person. It looked around the cabin but then it's eyes stopped on me harry had already passed out so Ron and Hermione were taking care of him. I couldn't take my eyes off the death omen. It wouldn't leave me alone. It wouldn't suck my face like it did Harry's it just stared at me. I took out my wand and cast a spell. I didn't say anything a shot of white came out of the end of my wand. I had never done this spell in my life. There was a wolf that looked like my animagus that ran towards the creature. That's when everything went black.

I awoke with someone shaking me. It was the Professor that was in the compartment. He was holding chocolate in his hand which was held out to me. Ron, Hermione and Lupin were staring at me.

"What?" I questioned as they wouldn't take their eyes off me.

"A corpiel potronus how?" Lupin muttered to himself. He left the compartment saying that he needed to speak to the driver. I had realised that snowball was under the seats shaking but when I spoke to her and told her that everything was ok she calmed down instantly. Everyone stared at me when I got off the train. They were whispering words that sounded like 'portonus' 'animagus' 'wolf' I asked Hermione about what all the fuss was about and then she told me. I had cast a potronus which isn't supposed to be learnt until much later on in school year and that you scared all the dememtors off of the train with your potronus. Apparently my potronus took shape of a wolf the same animal as I could transform into at will. I didn't like all the attention so I pulled Hermione into the boats so we could get as far away as possible. Obviously everyone was surprised to see me as I hadn't been her last year. When we got into the castle, McGonagall had told me a spell that I could cast on snowball that I could make her small so he could fit in my pocket so she was still near me in lessons. Professor McGonagall has a soft spot for me all the teachers do they just feel bad for me. After the sorting it was time for the meal. I was starving I hadn't eaten food in so long. I could finally eat food that couldn't be poisoned. Obviously Mrs Weasley wouldn't poison her food but with my 'mother' you never know with her. Mail had come then I was surprised to see Mystic as I had never seen her bring me mail before. She dropped a letter into my lap. I gave her a biscuit as a thanks as she flew off with the other owls. Everyone looked up at me as I would never get mail. I opened the envelope and started to read. The letter stated as such:

Dear my precious Holly Lily Black,

I am writing this letter as carefully as I can to make sure it doesn't fall into the wrong hands. How are you doing. Your mother was lying. I didn't leave you when you were born. She sent me away thinking that you were a muggle and she didn't want a wizard around our child. I have been looking for you ever since that day and I finally found you. That day when you stormed out of your house. Which I don't blame you. I saw you. You look so beautiful baby. I am your father. I know you don't know who I am. But all will be explained later on. I need to clear my name before we can be a family. Ask Moony (I heard you have already met him a new professor at your school), we are good friends, he knows I'm innocent I just have to get everyone else to understand that first.

From your father I'll see you soon.

Padfoot

I now had tears in eyes. I chucked the letter down on the table and jumped from my seat. Harry and Hermione exchanged worried looks. I picked up the letter as grabbed my things and ran to the common room. Quickly followed by Professor Lupin. All of the other teachers were surprised except from Dumbledore. She just gave a nod and continued. Harry, Hermione and Ron debates whether to follow. But they just stayed.

I ran, I didn't know where to, I found myself at the black lake. I fell down to my knees as I heard footsteps. It was Professor Lupin. I didn't know what to do. My father, who I had never met just flipped my whole life upside down.

"Moony, you're Moony" I cried as Lupin came closer and held my shoulders.

"Your father used to come her when he was angry or upset. Said he liked the scenery" lupin laughed.

"Who is my father Remus!" I half shouted just wanting to know the answer. He didn't seem to care that I called him by his first name.

"Right after I say this promise to hear me out." I nodded.

"Sirius Black"