my mothers broken heart

We've created the rot. I mean 5000 plus years of hatered can do a lot. We created this entity.

Fuck

***

Orion pulled herself together after grieving hard for days. She finally faces her family. Minus one person. Her heart was always heavy lately. She played with the moon on her palm. Somehow feeling closer to him.

***

I missed him. I was leaving for the Sun Elf clan territory tomorrow. Theo will be meeting us at the border to bring me in himself. Given the resent uprising it made sense.

I'd avoided going to the ballroom since that night, but I had to go through the ballroom to get my mothers study.

When I walk in the room looks just like it did before that night.

Like her brother hadn't died in this room. Nothing remained from that night.

I sunk down on my knees on the floor and I wept. I wept for him. For the animals that would miss him. For my mother who lost her baby son. For myself because of losing one of my best friends.

Wiping the tears from my face I pick myself up off the ground and continue walking to my mothers office.

Those doors as intimidating as ever. I take a deep breath and open the doors. My mother was sitting in the seating area her face in her hands.

"Hey mom"

Her head quickly rose. She tried to gather her composure but not before I saw her red face and eyes swollen.

I walked over to my mom and sat next to her hugging her. Holding her we cried. His funeral pyre was tonight. Only the family of the deceased attend the burning. But after we celebrate. But considering the last celebration is what lead to his death. It will only be the common people tonight who will celebrate his return to the tree of life.

We cried together for what felt like hours before she finally pulls away from me, leaving my arms feeling empty again. Remembering how Emmery passed away in my arms.

My mother starts to wipe away her tears.

"Alderic has handled all the preparations for the funeral pyre tonight and Oleander has prepared for travel him and Arragon will both be going with you as well as a 5 other guards." She was stammering a bit when she me said funeral pyre.

"I missed you these last few days. But i understand the space you needed to take. Can I dress you for the ceremony tonight" she asked "I know you're all grown up and don't need your mother to dress you, but you leave tomorrow and, well, I'm going to miss you and worry every second and would just like the chance to be your mother again." My mothers eyes welled with tears. You'd think someone with such a harden shell wouldn't have the kind of feeling she does. But she did. She looked broken. It made my heart sink deeper. And her words cracked a piece of me inside.

"Mom I will never out grow having a mom." Then I asked "would you do my hair too?"

She smiled "I'll do the braid that Emmery did for you when you were a small child".

"Thanks mom that would be great!"