Akward

Like an iron. It's been almost fifteen minutes, Angga paced in front of Alexa's room. After he regretted his rude behavior to Alexa at the dinner table, Angga decided to follow Alexa to his room. He intended to apologize. But unlucky, the courage that he had shown when he kissed Alexa did not appear a single grain in Angga's heart. He couldn't even knock on the door.

In the midst of the handsome young man's anxiety, who would have thought that there was a disappointed heart mixed with flowery feelings from behind that door. Who else if not Alexa's heart.

Let alone others, Alexa herself did not expect there to be a warm feeling when she recalled the lightning-fast incident earlier.

Undeniably, there was a feeling of joy in her heart. Suddenly her heart was warmed because there was a handsome young man who confessed his love for her.

"Lex... Can I talk to you for a minute?"

The sound of the winner of her first kiss echoed from behind the bedroom door.

Alexa's heart was beating fast. Her brain went numb for a moment. She didn't know how to respond? Shame dominates more than the disappointment earlier.

"Lex... I beg you. Open the door." This time his voice deepened. There is an emphasis on the sentence.

With a feeling that can't be defined, finally Alexa slowly pulled the door lever and opened it little by little. A face full of regret appeared after the door began to wide open.

Alexa turned her face away. Her favorite backpack was already perched on her shoulder.

"Lex... where are you going?"

" ... "

Alexa had packed her things before finally deciding to open the bedroom door. She thought she couldn't stay in that house any longer.

"Lex ... I'm sorry ... " Angga blocked Alexa's path.

Alexa stopped for a moment.

"Get out of the way ... I want to pass," said Alexa coldly.

Alexa really can't stand Angga's eyes. It felt like something had changed in her heart. She could no longer view Angga objectively as a friend. Now the assessment has changed to be subjective. Her heart and brain see Angga as a man who loves her.

"I'll deliver, okay?" persuaded Angga.

He didn't lose his mind in order to persuade Alexa. Either way, he didn't want to lose Alexa because of his stupid actions.

"I'm going to the hospital."

Again a cold answer. Like being rained on by chunks of ice from the south pole, Angga's heart was frozen. Never before had he felt this pain talking to Alexa.

"Alex... what should I do to get you to forgive me?" said Angga frustrated.

Alexa ventured to look at the once cool netra. She is convincing herself that in Angga's eyes there is still a future for her with Angga as a friend. She hopes the happy days with Angga can repeat themselves and last a long time.

"You don't have to take me. Don't you have a class that you have to complete today?"

Angga hastily opened his mouth.

"I can play truant. Please, let me take you to the hospital, Lex."

Angga's voice got louder. Despair overtook him.

Alexa sighed deeply.

"You are stupid! You are so stupid, Angga!" Alexa exclaimed.

Finally, the angry feelings that Alexa had been holding in broke all this time. I don't know what really made Alexa so angry. Is it because of Angga's expression of love or is it a quick peck from Angga's lips?

"Yeah Lex! I'm such an idiot! I've done something stupid to you!" cursed Angga in the air. He rubbed his face angrily.

I do not know what reaction Alexa should display at that time. But surely there were tears falling from his eyes. Alexa can't define her own feelings.

"I'll go."

Alexa stepped past Angga. But it's not Angga's name if he just gives up. Angga chased Alexa and grabbed Alexa's hand.

"I understand, if you are angry with me. You can hate me. But I beg you, just this once, let me take you. I promise after this, I won't bother you again."

Alexa is still unmoved.

"I ask ... "

Alexa nodded slowly. It was so slow that Angga's eyes barely even saw the movement of Alexa's nod.

"Okay ... wait here. I want to get the car keys first," said Angga angrily.

Just a few steps, Angga turned around.

"You're not going anywhere!" he exclaimed after stepping a few steps behind Alexa.

Only a weak nod he received from his command line.

After seeing Alexa's response and she believed that Alexa would comply with her request, Angga immediately dashed into his room, took the car keys.

Not until a matter of tens of minutes, Angga has reappeared and approached Alexa who was still motionless in front of his house.

Angga opened the car door for Alexa. A treatment that has never changed since then. Sweet trifles when viewed from the romantic side of a relationship. And that was only realized by Alexa shortly after she sat comfortably in the car.

The whole way to the hospital was like torture for Angga. How come! He felt like he was driving the car alone. There was no sign of movement from the person beside him. Alexa's eyes were fixed straight out the street. His mouth was shut since leaving the Angga's house. The toughest torment for men is getting neglect from their partner.

Couple? Tch! They weren't even a couple. Unfortunately the fate of Angga.

"Alex ... aren't you hungry? I have some biscuits. Would you like some?" asked Angga breaking the silence.

He knew that Alexa hadn't finished her breakfast before until the act of losing control took over the supposedly romantic breakfast time—at least in her eyes.

Alexa remained unmoved.

An awkward feeling enveloped the atmosphere in the car. Angga doesn't know what to do to get Alexa back to normal to accept his presence. It was as if there was now a big wall blocking him from Alexa. I don't know who built the wall, what is clear is that Angga hates the wall!

Angga does not know that at this time Alexa's heart and brain are raging. Awkwardness, shame and others ran through Alexa's mind. Angga misunderstood Alexa's silence.

Alexa's refusal is not based on hatred. It's true, Alexa felt disappointed in Angga, but she could never hate Angga. After all, he was the only friend she had. Someone who is always there when she is in a bad state. She was just confused about how to act after what he had experienced this morning.

"You don't have to come in. You'd better hurry to catch up with today's class," said Alexa.

Angga stopped his steps to take Alexa to the hospital lobby. He looked at his love with a look full of hope. He wished he could be closer to Alexa like before. But he had promised not to bother Alexa again as they had previously agreed until Alexa agreed to be escorted by him.

"But Lex..."

"You have to keep your promise," said Alexa before any drama emerged after that.

Alexa doesn't want to be a spectacle for people at the hospital, it's just a trivial matter between deliveries from Angga.

"Okay, I get it. You ... well never mind. I'm leaving, Alexa."

If he is able, Angga wants to continue his interrupted sentence with the sentence "let me know if you need me" but unfortunately it seems as if his throat and tongue do not support the sentence that comes out.

Angga walks away leaving Alexa with a broken heart.