Reality check
Luke enters the house back from being with Molly ,the first thing he hears is soft cries coming from the bedroom . He moves towards the room slowly as if there is something that will jump him in there . He thinks to himself that she’s doing what she does best and that is crying for no reason and being bitchy . He enters the bedroom and stands by the door to find Carissa sitting with her legs crossed on the carpet wearing nothing but a long white t-shirt , her hair wet dripping onto the newly installed carpet making a mess although she doesn’t seem to care . She is carrying a glass of red wine and she is facing the wall . She seems to be invested into doing something that he can’t pinpoint at the moment since she is facing the wall. “Carissa , what are you doing sitting there I thought by the time I got back you would have cleaned the house instead there you are doing what you do best bitching and feeling bad for yourself ” he shouts . Thinking that she’ll move and react to what he’s saying , she doesn’t instead she sits in the same position not even uttering single word. “Carissa , did you not hear me talk to you?” he demands loudly . For all Carissa does is nothing and this angers Luke so much that he decides to go to her and aggressively grab her by the back of her hair. But in doing so he realizes that she has made a mess. She has razor in her hand and there is a lot of blood on the floor she looks like she’s been have been caving her wrist out with the sharp metal object. With tears in her eyes she looks up at him and says nothing. This shocks Luke such that he is unable to utter a word to her instead he takes the razor from her hand gently and tells her he’s going to run a bath for her and in that moment she starts full on crying loudly. Embracing her Luke thinks about what he has to go through living with Carissa , all the unhappiness and depression he’s been feeling . He thinks of how he has to get out of this situation so he can live a happy and exciting life with Molly and his baby . He also thinks about how he will break it up with Carissa and how she’ll react . He picks her up and sets her on the chair by the vanity and gets a clot to help her clean up all the blood on the floor. He then runs her a bath with bubbles and puts her in it . He helps her wash herself of and finds her a pair of pajamas and helps her put them on .He carries her to the untidy kitchen filled with all the pots and plates on the island and proceeds to make her pasta . He brings the food and places it in front of her, she slowly starts to eat . She is still crying and this is starting to irritate Luke and before he knows it he bursts at her .
“Why are you like this huh ?, All you ever do is bring in stress into my life . I’m sorry , I just” she starts with tears in her eyes and a large sob in her throat . “I don’t even want to hear it so just shut up and let me talk” Why do you always have to make a scene , can you just stop acting like a child for once and take responsibility for your own life . I mean how pathetic can one really be always harming yourself and for what. You want everyone to pity you I’m your mom okay , I can’t be taking care of you all the time its tiring . So you know what I’m out” . He takes his work bag and coat by the door and he slams it so hard that it causes her to flinch again. Once she’s finally registered what he meant that he is gone, she falls apart completely. The man she has been with for 3 years just walked out of her life without a single last glance at her. She was so broken down about the fact that she had no one completely, the last person she thought would always have her back just walked out . Feeling the sudden urge to vomit she rushes to the bathroom and spills out all the contents of what she had eaten that day .Sitting on the cold ,and dark bathroom she starts to cry again .She feels so bad such that she decides to go to her room and reach for the stack of cocaine that she keeps for her darkest days .Luke had always hated it when she would take some he said it made her even more of a mess . She takes some and collapses on her bed , she immediately starts to feel the effects of the substance hit her hard . For some time she lays there thinking of nothing and staring into the blank ceiling. For the first time today she feels loved and comforted.
Eventually she succumbs into sleep and dreams of a time when she was smiling and happy when her mom was around to sing her lullabies. The early sun rises and Carissa wakes up feeling grouchy and tired , she goes to look at her reflection in the mirror by her vanity and she is not happy with what she sees . All she sees are the eye bags underneath her eyes and the fact that she looks like she has been run over numerous times .She looks at her wrists and she sees the scars and she instantly remembers all that happened yesterday and she instantly feels anxiety creeping up on her .In the bath she spends a whole 8 minutes crying and thinking about how everything with Luke could have gone because she loves Luke and is willing to work things out, so she doesn’t understand how he could have just easily gave up on them . Even though she remembers seeing him with some other girl she doesn’t think it could have been serious . “Its just probably some girl he met recently she thinks to herself”. After the whole shower she puts on her favorite pair of black tights and a small white tank top. Even though ,she doesn’t have an appetite she forces herself to eat a bowl of hot oats . She gets out the door of the apartment , feeling rather excited and anxious at the same time for the trip to the grocery store that is not too far away .
A/N : I hope you enjoy, love Cassandra.